(Author's note: This is the sequel to my first story "Till Next Time". Thank you to editor Fflow for your insights. I can't wait to work with you on my next story)
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I watched from the café window as shoppers darted in and out of doorways, coats pulled tight and umbrellas dripping. The gloomy sky had been threatening rain, and now icy drops fell across the evening.
I stirred a straw through my milkshake before taking a dainty slurp. Chocolate flooded my mouth. I savoured the taste as my thoughts drifted. My best friend Sara was whinging about problems at her work. I had listened intently for the first 10 minutes, adding comments and sharing her indignation.
It had been a week since I had sex with Steve, Sara's ex. It was a dirty secret I was not willing to share with anyone, especially her. Their break-up had been drawn out and painful: a relationship with a long death. There was no chance of a resurrection. Despite that fact, I knew there would be no forgiving me. It would've been different a few months down the track. Sex with a friend's ex just days after a break-up was rubbing salt in the wound.
As Sara's voice droned on, my concentration was fixated on the afternoon I had spent with Steve. Images replayed for me over and over again: Steve's blissful expression as I sucked the head of his cock into my mouth for the first time. My senses filled with his salty taste and musky smell. My fingers almost twitched with the impression of his pulsing erection, silky smooth skin ridged with delicate veins.
I shook myself from my reverie before my arousal overwhelmed me, squeezing my thighs together beneath the table. I swallowed my creamy mouthful and pushed other fantasies away. My pussy throbbed against the inner seam of my jeans. It took a lot of restraint not to subtly rub the seam between my wet lips.
I nodded in agreement as Sara continued her workplace saga. It wasn't lost on me that I was having these urges in her presence. This definitely reeked of guilty pleasure; I was both turned on and revolted by how naughty it felt.
"I saw Steve yesterday," Sara revealed, as she took a sip of her coffee.
My attention snapped back to the present. I curled a stray lock of hair behind my ear and silently prayed the blush I felt heating my face was not too obvious.
"Oh? How come?" I asked as nonchalantly as I could manage.
"He came to pick up the last of his things from my place," she replied with a sigh. Her eyes shone wistfully as she glanced around the quiet café. "It was weird. We barely said two words to each other."
I was momentarily lost in thought; a pang of jealously that I hadn't seen him, and the realisation that I wanted to see him again.
"Are you ok?" I asked automatically.
"Yeah. It's just so hard, you know. Seeing him again. Now I have the keys back so I guess it's really the end."
"Isn't that a good thing?" I encouraged.
"It's just so final. While his stuff was still around it felt like he was too. Now I know it's well and truly over." She shrugged helplessly and finished her coffee.
"Do you think he is seeing anyone?" Sara added, her sad eyes searching mine.
"Are you?" I countered, avoiding the question.
She shrugged again. "No. Not really. I'm not ready."
"What does 'not really' mean?" I teased.
"You know, just... I take lunch with some people from work. One guy, well, now that I am single our conversations don't seem so innocent anymore."
I nodded and smiled, "Ah, flirting. That's a good thing!"
It was selfish, but with the knowledge that Sara was starting to move on, my guilt could diminish. I wanted her to be happy of course. Unfortunately that thought came second.