Thanks a lot to ArilynWriter and Playful Kitten for helping me to correct mistakes and for boosting my confidence in the first place.
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Ok. I knew it was an internet-arranged date, so I really tried hard not to expect much. For one thing it's too often a disappointment, even after a long and rather interesting e-mail conversation. For another, I'm not exactly the kind of guy to deliberately rush things. So to find myself in bed with Julia on the first date was a real surprise - a shock even! But there was definitely a kind of pull between us that one can't really explain or measure. So there I was, attracted to the girl a lot but not feeling exactly at home with the prospect of making love to her immediately.
"You know," I said, playing for time, "In all our correspondence, we never really discussed sex. You know - tastes, preferences."
Julia cuddled up to me in only a bath towel for clothing. She smiled, "You make it sound formal, like it's some kind of political decision you need to make and then stick with it."
"Still," I replied, "I'd like you to tell me how you like it before we start. I would be more comfortable, if you know what I mean."
"I know what you mean," she answered more seriously. "There was a time I too was shy of the things I like."
"Things you like? You don't - you're not..." I started in alarm and faltered, confused and lost for words.
"What? What is it you're so afraid of?" She chuckled.
"Well I just have a problem with all the submissive-dominant bullshit, and most girls seem to be really into it," I confessed.
"Rest assured I'm not one of them." Julia grinned. "I might like some strong language, though." She winked playfully. "And a bit of physical force. But not in an abusive way."
"Language and force are fine with me, as long as those are not in harness with humiliation or pain. I like to use a bit of strength on a woman, but I think it's sick to wish to hurt and degrade a person you pretend to care about," I said with disgust.
"A bit of pain may also be welcome sometimes," she smiled once more. Then seeing my expression, she quickly added, "but with a feeling of self-respect, of course. And respect and care for your partner."
I still felt somewhat doubtful, and Julia saw it.
"You know what?" She proposed, "I'm sure we can find our balance with time, but let's start nice and gentle for now, ok? So you can relax."
She threw aside half of her towel, presenting me her beautiful breasts; not very large, but really full and juicy. I noticed a white drop on her nipple.
"What's that, milk? Are you pregnant?!" I looked at her, alarmed and puzzled.
"Oh, it's nothing, just medical stuff," she answered nonchalantly. "I'll explain later. Don't worry about it right now. Better think of it as an interesting experience: being with a non-pregnant, lactating woman."
Well, no doubt about that! It was going to be a very interesting experience.
"Here," she said, taking one of her tits into her hand. "Come to momma."
Not an invitation to refuse, was it? I leaned in towards Julia, gently took her nipple into my mouth and teased it with my tongue. At the same time, my hand went down to find her pussy and give her a proper greeting. Then it all started.
See, here's that bug in the way my mind works: sometimes I'm just unable to comprehend something until I put it into words. It's like I'm tied too much to one way of exploring the world: through describing. So imagine: here I am, minding my own business, doing... whatever I was doing at the moment, almost absentmindedly, feeling cozy and relaxed. And then it struck me- that second this tiny voice inside my head posed the situation for me for what it was: a gorgeous, redheaded woman with perfect curves was breastfeeding me. She was putting her full fleshy tit into my mouth while letting my fingers explore her pouty lower lips and slowly unfurling her labia blossom at my pleasure. The thought sent a tremor through my whole body; my cock went stiff in a matter of seconds. I added as much pressure as I dared onto her breast, suppressing the urge to grab and bite hard. It was too early for being intense.
Julia noticed my arousal.
"Well-well, I see you really do like it, huh? How about I give you a bit more..." She paused and bit her lip, "...substance to work with?" I was not one to refuse such an offer, even if I didn't have a clue what she was talking about.
Julia asked me to get to my knees near the bed while she got in front of me on all fours. Her tits were hanging appetizingly right before my face. I realized that by "giving substance" she meant letting them loose so they look and feel larger and heavier. 'What a tease that girl,' I thought 'she definitely knows how to present herself!'
"Now, if I remember right, you claimed to have some skill in manhandling?" Julia taunted lightly. One of her hands already traveled to her pussy and started stroking slowly.