I knew I shouldn't call, but I called anyway. I should be glad that there is a loyal man left out there. I shouldn't tempt him. But I was missing his touch. Needing to go there again.
The call was short and sweet.
"I need your opinion on something," I said with a smile. I knew that he would know immediately that I was teasing but I figured it would take a few minutes for him to figure out that I had only called to seduce him.
"Something very delicate." I paused. He didn't say anything. I am sure he was caught off guard, wondering if he should make a serious response or if he should respond to my teasing tone. "Something pressing," I added barely above a whisper.
"OK," he responded cautiously. "Can we do this over the phone? Or do you need to come in?"
"I definitely need to come," I paused for only a second, "in." That was easy enough, I thought. "And since this is really of a personal nature, do you think it would be best if you stay late and I meet you there around 6:00?" I made sure my tone was light and teasing so he would know it was a proposition.
This was his opening. If he wasn't interested, he would say he couldn't stay late and that I could ask him over the phone or come in during regular hours. If he was planning on being good, this was his chance to prevent all mixed signals, all hints of impropriety.
The silence made me uncomfortable. Was he going to turn me down?
"Make it 6:30," he finally said. His voice was quiet. A little unsure. I knew he wanted me there but that he also knew it was a bad idea, given his current relationship situation.
Still..... it would be good. And some days everyone needs good.
There wasn't much left to say after that, so I quickly said my goodbyes and hung up.
I was nervous. I am not in the habit of seducing men, especially men who are in serious relationships with other women. But my life had been a little crazy, and I hadn't had the time or energy to put into a relationship. So, being in a little lull with work, I started getting antsy. I needed a man who would kiss me. Touch me in all the right places. Make me beg and scream and claw at the sheets. I didn't really want to bother with looking for Mr. Right. I wasn't really even interested in looking for a new lover. I just wanted to be made love to by a man who didn't need instructions, one who already knew every inch of my body, one who would take me where I needed to go again and again. There is comfort in the familiar. And in this case, there is also screaming, clawing, biting, sweaty orgasms in the familiar. Too many nights alone, I had replayed those fabulous orgasms over and over my head. And tonight I planned on living them out again.
I walked to the door of his office and stopped on the steps. I could see inside but not all the way to his desk. I could see shadows moving but that would be expected. He never sits still. I could hear music drifting from his office but it wasn't loud enough to identify. I placed my hand on the knob and tried to turn it. He had locked it when everyone else left for the day. I knocked softly.
He popped out of his office and headed straight for the door. "I didn't hear you out here," he said apologetically.
"No problem," I replied. I looked up into his eyes and tried to read him. I am sure there was excitement but also a little hesitation. Guilt maybe? Or did he think he deserved the little diversion for what he puts up with? I wasn't sure but I didn't plan to ask. I really wasn't interested in small talk at all.
I took two steps towards him and leaned up until my lips were almost touching his. Our eyes were locked together. Both of us hesitated, waiting for the other. I wanted to kiss him. Even more I wanted him to kiss me. To take me in his arms and kiss me until I lost my breath. Instead, we stood practically nose to nose, not daring to break that gaze, waiting to see who wanted to be in control tonight.
I leaned in about half a step and whispered, "I want to taste you." I was so close that my lips brushed his lips in a fluttery motion as I spoke.
He swallowed hard. I had surprised him. Caught him off guard. I liked him a little off balance, I discovered. I smiled.
Without kissing him, I turned and walked towards his office. There were too many windows in the reception area and I wasn't going to risk causing trouble for him by getting him caught. He followed close on my heels.
"Did you have a good day?" he asked. He was close. Very close. But I ignored him. I wasn't interested in small talk.
My silence made him uncomfortable and he asked another question. Another question that I wasn't interested in answering. We had made it to his office by this point. I stopped and turned facing him, then slid onto his desk sitting facing him.
"You really don't want to know," I finally answered, reaching for his tie and using it to pull him to me. "I think what you really want to know is if I plan on having a good night."