It's 3pm.
I am waiting, I've been waiting for this for so long. Longer than I thought I would. One hour. We have one hour today alone in this hotel, the things I want to do...
But, I'm getting ahead of myself.
I'm a little apprehensive. More so than when we meet for coffee, I guess that's to be expected - I doubt we'll be drinking coffee this afternoon!
I'm wearing the dress he likes, well, I should say the one he approves of. The one I asked his opinion on a while ago, the one he told me to try on, and fuck myself in the changing rooms while I was wearing it...
There is a knock at the door, I slip my feet into my lace and navy heels and go to answer it.
He's here, and looks so good, smells so good - as always. I close the door behind him, take his jacket and try to make polite conversation, I really do. I even go so far as to ask if he wants coffee. He gives me a look, it seems to say, 'we didn't need to do this here if all I wanted was coffee.'
Coffee is always what I get, but never what I want.