Why were my boobs so sensitive? I don't know why but I can tell you how. Each nipple is like a second..well, and a third...clitoris. That's not denigrate the utility of my clitoris, which worked very well indeed, but each nipple bud sends"zings" into me that make me squirm and twitch with pleasure. Stimulating one nipple and then the other doubles the number of "zings" and stimulating them both together turns up the voltage on the "zings". The real coup...the trifecta, if you will...is in a threesome when I am having my clitoris licked by one person and my nipples tweaked by another. That guarantees s high voltage orgasm! (I can hardly type, thinking about it!)
Now, as you may recall, I was conflicted about the status of my sexuality. Should I consider myself, a) only lesbian, b) hetero-sexual with lesbian tendencies, c) bi-sexual or, not out of the question, d) pansexual and poly-amorous?
Decker helped me figure it out with wisdom beyond his years. It also didn't hurt that he didn't mind having sex--such as we did-- with an older woman. Of course, I had no problem whatsoever having sex with a younger man...who would? The answer was straight out of the "The Thoughts of Decker": What do you want to be today? I don't need to be really in any category, I found; If I enjoyed sex, so be it!
But, let me take you back to that coffee date a few months ago....the question having been popped by me, "...do you want to have sex?"
"But we can't go to the frat house to have sex, Lin. What do you suggest?" Deck responded to my blunt offer of sex, with a calmness that belied his enthusiasm.
"So, it's one of these 'It's-got-to-be-your-place-because-it-can't-be-mine' things?" I teased, Decker. "I've been there before...but that's another story."
I was fully in the mood to have sex and I didn't want either my ardor--or Deck's ardor, for that matter--to wane. We were at least 30 minutes from my apartment facing few alternatives. Thank goodness for cell-phones. In less than five minutes I had booked a room at a motel which was less than five minutes away. In ten minutes, or so, Deck and I would be rolling around on the bed.
"I've got it covered, my dear," the "my dear", I sugared-up, "let's take my car. I'm right outside."
"That's a good thing," Deck said, with some relief, "I don't have a car!"
As Deck and I left the coffee bar, the tip-worthy barista gave us a look...more of a look at Deck than at me...and smiled. I didn't smile back...but Deck did!
My estimate was off. It was more like fifteen minutes than ten before Deck and I were getting naked in the motel room. As I was undoing my pants, it occurred to me that nobody had seen me naked since...well...since Darlene three years ago, and man hadn't seen me naked in more than ten years. I chalked my nervousness up to that but I knew it was more than that.
Having sex with Darlene was different than having sex with Nawel, my ex-husband. I know that sounds like belaboring the obvious but, truly, my feelings were a lot different with each of the two. Darlene, as bossy as she co was, could be quite gentle when it came to sex, a "woman's touch" one might say. Nawel, was also bossy, as was his ethnic heritage, but one could hardly call our sexual activity in any way "romantic"; he was essentially demanding and uncaring.--traits that eventually spelled the demise of our marriage. Darlene, at least had my pleasure in mind when we had sex; that was hardly a consideration for Nawel. What was it going to be like with Deck? He looked like a jock; I just hoped he didn't make love like a jock.
I've described before what I look like. I am an "ectomorph", in other words, skinny. And I don't have any boobs to speak of...remember 34AA, or smaller? And, yes, I do look somewhat "mannish"; although I don't think I try for that look, it's there. As I got naked, I hoped that Deck wouldn't think I would be like being with another man and that would turn him off.
Anyway, I got myself naked, gave it what I call the "Venus" pose--like in the classic painting-- one hand over my snatch and the other covering my boobs, such as they were. I walked over to the bed, and sat down looking at Decker.
Decker was down to his boxers and, as he slid them off, he turned to his front to face me directly. Well, you can bet, the first thing I noticed was his penis. What can I say? It looked pretty nice to me; a nice size and shape--don't ask me for measurements--uncircumcised. It wasn't limp but it wasn't hard yet either. I judged it to be suitable to fit in my vagina, though there hadn't been a real one in there a long...long...LONG time.
I also noticed something on his left leg. It was scar tissue starting the side and disappearing around the back of his leg. It dawned on me that Deck faced when he got his boxers off because he didn't want me to see all of his scar. I didn't press the issue. I dimmed the lights and held out my arms to signal that I was ready to have him in bed with me.
"Shall we?" I said gently, partly out of politeness but partly out of wondering if Deck still wanted to have sex with me.
Looking me in the eyes, Deck said, "But, of course!"
It took me all of ten seconds to realize two things, 1) that I was doing the right thing and, 2) that Decker knew what he was doing. I sighed, outwardly from Deck's gentleness; inwardly with relief!
He sat facing me on the edge of the bed, leaned toward me, and gave me a soft kiss on the forehead...just a peck really. He pulled back and gazed into my eyes and I could feel myself start to melt; then another warm kiss to my forehead but firmer, lasting longer this time. His hands went up to either side of my face, and he held them there as he kissed my lips, again a soft, warm kiss, not passionate or forceful. His kisses moved from my lips, to my cheeks, to my, chin and back to my lips again. He moved his hands to my shoulders and, while caressing them, leaned in kissed my neck. He was slow and deliberate, no hurry, no pressure, no force behind his attentions.
He had me at his kiss to my forehead, I could feel my body responding, tingling; I knew my breathing was getting harder but I tried to suppress it. I began to feel my tension being drained away and replaced with a feeling as if I were beginning to float off the bed. The tingling was getting more pronounced; I knew that feeling, my body being as sensitive as it is, but not like this...never before like this, that I could remember.
Decker's hands moved off of my shoulders and lightly caressed my skin until they reached my hands. He took my hands in his, and holding them, he leaned toward me again, his lips meeting mine. His tongue slipped between my lips and the passionate kissing was ON! Our tongues played with each other, doing a dance with each other, teasing in and out. I felt the thrill rising in my body. I didn't need to check, I felt my vagina getting moist...moist? No...WET!
With the slightest pressure from him on my arms, Decker and I wound up lying on the bed, on our sides, still kissing. We separated, positioned ourselves fully on the bed, and continued our love making. With nibbling kisses, Deck moved his way down from my lips, to my chin, to my neck, and finally to my chest. When he got there, my fear arose of what he will think of a woman with hardly any boobs. From what I felt, it didn't seem to faze him whatsoever.
His tongue and lips went from nipple to nipple, teasing, kissing, sucking, and applying ever so gentle pressure. Remember the "zings", well they started to happen in swarms. That floating feeling I had began to turn into a thrills, and spasms...gentle at first...but building...building...And then he stopped....just plain old fucking STOPPED. AAARRRRGGGHHH! HE STOPPED!