It's always been one of the eternal mysteries of Chicago that the Cubs, in spite of decades of uneven performance, always retain vast numbers of faithful fans. Wrigley Field is invariably packed to the last seat for home games, and Chicagoans snort with derision at any thought of building a new, more modern stadium. But 1969 was the year the papers called the Cubs 'the most celebrated second-place team in the history of baseball,' and the struggle for seats was fiercer than ever. But Craig had his friend's season tickets, and we watched Fergie Jenkins strike out a string of batters, albeit to a futile conclusion.
At each exciting moment, I turned to face Craig as we laughed or cheered. By the fourth inning, my shoulder was pressed against his; by the seventh, I gripped his bare forearm as we watched. It was so good to touch and smell a man this close, even with the competing smell of beer, popcorn and hot dogs, and distraction of the screaming and moving people. The fantasy of clasping myself against his body dominated my brain after that. The ninth inning, I suppose, may have been thrilling, if I'd paid attention.
At the end, along with thirty-six thousand other fans, we shuffled toward an exit, Craig leading. I held onto his hand so we wouldn't become separated. His flesh was warm and his palm soft, and I didn't let go when we were finally free of the crowds and strolling in silence down Addison Street, away from the park and most of the crowds. We drew a few curious glances. Although it would have been obvious that he was a decade older than me, I was about six inches taller, even in my sneakers.
I finally broke the quiet. "Thank you so much for that. It's been so long since I've been to a Cubs game."
He smiled quietly. "You'll have to believe me when I say that this has been the most exciting day of my life." He couldn't quite meet my eyes as he spoke.
"But you were married before. I can see the ring mark on your finger."
He looked directly into my eyes at last. "I repeat, this has been the most exciting day of my life." The sun had reddened his face so that his freckles stood out like a paint spray.
I shivered in spite of the heat. "It feels good to be out with a man after so many months. But we still have to eat, don't we?"
"Where do you want to go?"
"You must have someplace in mind."
"I have a lot of places in mind. But what do you like."
I shrugged. "I'm no connoisseur. Food is food. Anyplace but Bernie's. I just know I'd get razzed by the other girls if I show up with a date. Picture eating the whole meal with people peering around doorways and in the mirrors to watch us."
Now I saw that something was trying to burst out of him, and his face, already reddened by the sun, grew redder. "Ihavefoodatmyplace," he said, all in one word.