I'm here, in your studio, waiting to hear the scratching of the key in the lock. My breath is calm, yet there is an underlying sense of eagerness. After months of creating safe communication, you finally text me a direct message saying what you want; what you've wanted, what you've needed, and what you've craved.
"I want some dick. I'll be home by 5. The key is under the mat."
Direct in its simplicity, yet a world of change has led up to those words being sent. Upon receiving the text, my phone was buzzing in my hand as I scrolled mindlessly through Instagram, I checked my to do list in my head. "See you soon," I shot back. Finding parking was easier then ever before. Perhaps it was because not everyone had gotten off work in this area of San Rafael. I let myself into your apartment and took a breath. Not sure what was coming, I found myself breathing quickly. My brain threw all sorts of scenarios and possibilities out at me, all of them wilder then the next. I paused and breathed. I say a quick prayer and connect with the pure, calm energy within. The most intense experiences I have experienced have all been when I'm centered and relaxed.
I close my eyes and take a long, slow breath, focusing my attention inward at my state of being. I like what I feel. The excitement and sexual energy is familiar. I feel the blood pump slowly into my pelvis, starting to shift my pants without me consciously moving any body part. The image of you taking the head of my cock onto your tongue and then wrapping your soft lips around it gently causes a wave of pleasure. The next image is your hand around the base while you vigorously pump my spurting juices into your mouth, lips indented from the sucking you are performing. Now you are against the wall, dress up over your hips, beautiful black lace panties that were spectacularly showing off your cheeks pulled to the side, my member hard and partially planted inside you. The image changes, and you are sitting on me. I can feel you pressing down, your tightness starting to loosen as I slip past the ring of your anus.
Scratch. Metal on metal. The key. The key is finding the lock. I snap out of my fantasy reel and back into the reality of your apartment. I can now feel my cock straining through my board shorts and against my pants, still managing to let anyone know that it is there and ready to be used. The door opens, and I see you. Immediately our eyes lock. The air sparkles for a moment with desire and electricity. Quickly, I notice that you are already in a state I've never gotten to experience. All masks and pretenses that you wear outside in the world are gone. It was as though you walked through the door, and everything you were thinking or feeling hit the floor, just as your bags did.