Maybe too much talking in this chapter for some readers, but after Vivienne's letting everything happen to her, Sandy has to tell me how she later responded. Then we have to talk more about whether she will want to again. We don't talk much the evening we are together, however, too busy using our mouths to arouse each other.
And then I was on my way, again wondering what they would be doing: finishing the wine, of course, maybe a beer and talking. It seemed as though Vivienne had accepted what happened - what we had all done - at least as long as I was there, and probably talking with Sandy, but maybe alone in her bed - her quite moist bed to remind her - her Catholic upbringing wouldn't just "go to hell" as she had said. But she had whispered to Sandy about wanting to watch us "the next time," but that thought - her first one again? - might have been still under the influence of cuddling with Sandy, something else that might bother her, but she had put her arms around us, holding us both closer when we all kissed, and letting Sandy also feel how she had pressed her hips against me when we did. Oh, Sandy could offer to let her share her bed, ... but it seemed unlikely that she would agree to that ...
A lot of wondering as I walked home. Then I remembered my story about accompanying a girl from the NYAC back to her place - an apartment, or hotel? Hotel, a visitor to New York - no further implications, and more believable than escorting a girl home who lived in the city. And her presence in the club could account for a longer supper with me and my friends. Hmm, luckily my parents only knew them by name, since they had begun to wonder about my irregular training schedule.
Then I was home, apologizing for being late with my story, which was accepted as the gentlemanly thing to do. My sister had already gone to bed, luckily, since she might not have been so convinced.
Later, in bed - holding myself, not that he needed any more that evening - I was still wondering about them: if Sandy needed to reassure Vivienne; if she was having misgivings about what had happened, or really had wanted it to happen - she had taken off her bra. Oh, and Sandy had told her enough about me and Pam and Sukie to give her the idea that something could happen with all three of us - and it certainly had! Maybe the upbringing of her Catholic schooling really was only a veneer that she had managed to peel off as easily as they had agreed that they could forego bathrobes. I hoped so; it wouldn't be easy for Sandy if she had to deal with any serious misgivings. Well, I would hear more from Sandy - was there some place we could have lunch and talk besides eating hot dogs? And if it all turned out all right, what would happen "the next time," ... or between them until then? ...
The next morning, too curious to wait till lunch to hear what Sandy would tell, I started a little earlier than usual and went over to the avenue she walked to work, hoping to find her at least before she entered the building. She must have read my mind, wanting to tell me, too, and anticipating that I would choose her route. She didn't know exactly where we lived, but I found her waiting for me a couple of blocks down the avenue, grinning when she saw me.
"Oh, that's great; I hoped we would meet, and that was great, too!" and she grinned again.
"It sure was. What happened after I left?"
"Oh, it went fine, but I was a little worried ..."
"Me too."
"... that Viv would suddenly feel all different about it, and maybe she did, a little. Her first remark after you closed the door, and we looked at each other, both still nude, was: 'Oh gosh! That really happened?! We really did that?!' 'Um-hmm, real good,' I replied. She snorted and then smiled kind of funny and agreed: 'It sure was, but, ... well, I just don't know; I wasn't expecting anything like that,' and she snorted again. 'But you expected something?' I replied: '... I mean, you sure didn't act like you didn't want anything to happen.' 'No, I guess not. Hmm! Let's finish the wine and salad.'
"So we did. While we were in the kitchen, she admitted: "Yeah, I wanted something to happen, just a little, thinking about you two getting it Friday night, and wanting it myself on the weekend. Hm-hmm, it wouldn't have been that good, but two nights. Hmm! He may be surprised if we get together again. Yeah, I was horny and feeling deprived, ... and I guess after the weekend - our talking and being more open. But I really did make the salad so that you two wouldn't have to go out.' 'A good idea, thank you, ...' I replied: 'but it worked out much better the way it did, sharing it with you.' 'Hm-hmm, but that really didn't occur to me. You two just make it seem so simple. I guess I still have some hang-ups about it, ... but it is too late now.'
"We'd already finished the wine and got a couple of beers before we sat down. Of course, that was funny for her, still both naked, but it didn't seem that she was going to let that bother her, just snickering slightly as she looked at me before we started eating. 'Yeah, I guess,' she murmured to herself, and then smiled wryly as she glanced up at me and then back at her plate, continuing: "Yeah, I guess ..., maybe I have been sort of fooling myself, ... trying to believe that it has to do with love. Oh, sure, I really knew that it wasn't, but, ... well, ... I guess I was always trying to think it should, ... trying to make an excuse for just wanting to.'
"'Maybe, ...' I agreed: 'and not being able to just enjoy it.' 'Yeah, something like that. .... Hmm! Not like you, just being able to have fun playing with him, making it good for him. You were lucky that you learned to do that right from the start with that first boy.' 'I sure was, ...' I agreed: 'but I never thought about it that way till now. Yeah, I was lucky.' 'And then you wanted me to hold him - hmm! - I've wanted to before, but never dared, ... and then what happened; and I was wondering why you unbuttoned his whole shirt! Oh, and that too, ... and I tasted it too! I really did! ... And you really like it, want to do it to him?'"
Sandy grinned at me with a nod as she continued:
'"Um-hmm, ...' I replied: 'like "playing" with him, it's just so good to know how good it is being for him - knowing better than ... the other way.' I didn't want to use a word for it. 'And they do it to us - well, he is the only one that has done it to me.' Viv smiled with a chuckle and agreed: 'He sure did, ... to both of us. By then I wasn't surprised at anything - at least at that moment - thinking that you were being left out.' 'Oh, I wasn't, ...' I assured her: 'well, maybe until then, a little.' I didn't want to tell her what I had been doing while you were ..., you know.'"
Sandy had dropped her voice as we joined people waiting for the light, and we both snickered softly. As we walked on again, she continued:
"By then, it seemed that she was pleased with everything that had happened, and her next remark confirmed it. She glanced up at me a little shyly and murmured: 'Oh, and then ..., yeah, ... you put my hands on your ... breasts. Maybe I already wanted to - holding his ...' Both our nipples had popped out when she mentioned the word after hesitating to use it, or after admitting that she wanted to.
"Anyway, she went on: 'Yeah, I wanted to, when you did - like with that girl in the shower. And, of course, I knew that you wanted me to, and knew why.' She smirked at me and added: 'We know why.' 'Um-hmm,' I agreed with a snort and returned her smirk. Then she looked surprised and said: "Oh, and then you really helped me! Jeez! ... Well, it was good, and what I needed just then.' She snorted with a brief smile and added: 'But I guess you knew that.'
"'Um-hmm, of course,' I agreed, reminding her that I had suggested she do it herself. 'Did you? Yeah, I guess, but I'd never have done that with a man there,' and she snorted again and added: 'Maybe next time; ... hope he won't be upset.' 'He won't, ...' I replied, thinking about you and emphasizing the 'he.' 'Hmm!' Viv snorted again, as though she had understood my implication, and then snorted a second time with a little smile."
"Next time?" I asked.
"Maybe. We didn't settle that. By then we had finished eating and drinking and cleaned up. Hm-hmm, and then had to wipe our chairs, some of yours on hers."
We both snickered, and then slowed down as we approached our office building to let Sandy finish her story.