[*Dear Reader! If you find this story interesting or exciting, please feel free to email or send your own recording. I'm always interested in hearing from readers. ]
I am a professor at a public university in California. I've had some adventures with students in the past, and I want to share one of them with you.
One evening, after a day of classes and lecturing, I got home, cracked open a beer, turned on some music, and sat at my desk. I fired up my laptop and scrolled through dozens of dull work emails. But I paused when I saw an unusual one.
This was an anonymous email from a random Gmail address--just a combination of numbers and letters. The subject line stated simply, "For Professor. I'm hoping you'll be interested."
She had attached an audio file to the email. The file was entitled simply, "Recording 1."
The sender wrote that she was a female student in one of my classes. She would not say what her name was, or which of my courses she was taking that semester.
I opened up the email. The first line was, "Dear Professor: I am very nervous to send the attaching recording to you, but I've gotten up the courage to email it with the help of a couple of glasses of wine. I hope that you'll listen to it whenever you want to. It was incredibly fun to make. Please let me know if you've listened to it, Sir, and what you think of it. That would be so exciting."
She confessed that she was "turned on" by me, by my style in class, by my "strong shoulders and arms," my sense of humor, my "presence" and my knowledge. Taken together, she found these exciting in a man and especially in a professor."I am very shy around attractive men, especially authority figures like you."
The email signed off with, "I hope you enjoy this recording. I think you will. I loved making it for you. Let me know if you'd like more. I'd like that. And yes, I take requests! LOL "
"Well," I thought, "this is new and different."
It's interesting how students develop crushes on their professors. And not just crushes, but sometimes passionate attachments. Their authority feeds into fantasies, which can build over the course of the semester. This was one of those incredible students.
I was used to getting the occasional flirty, hand written note from a female student, suggesting that we meet for a drink to talk about the class, or even an invitation to drop by her apartment for dinner and a conversation about her paper. Sometimes these are innocent enough; sometimes--not so innocent. But I had never received a recording like this.
I still didn't know if this was a joke, or some kind of prank.
So I clicked on the attachment. Sure enough, I heard a woman's voice. A woman who sounded kind of shy, and a bit turned on.
The student said, "Hello Professor. I'm sorry if I sound nervous, but I am! It's Tuesday night and I'm alone in my dorm room. If you are actually listening to this, that would be so amazing. Wow, I hope you are... Please listen to me share some things with you on this little recording. I think you'll enjoy it."
She said that she was a little buzzed from the wine she'd been drinking to get up some courage. She said that for a couple of weeks she'd wanted to speak directly to me and to record her voice as she lay in her bed. Tonight, she said, she'd finally follow up on the idea.
She said that she would never tell me who she was and that I would never guess, because in class she was pretty quiet and seemed quite normal. She was a regular student who did her work, answered a question in class every now and again, but was unassuming. She wrote that she wasn't even sure if she would hit "Send" on the email once she'd finished.
But she did hit Send. And now I'm telling you about this amazing recording.
I was getting excited myself. It was such an attractive voice, already breathing just a little bit heavy. She sounded tentative at first, but her nerves were gradually calmed by the wine, and salved by the erotic thoughts running through her mind.
She didn't quite know what to say at first. She stammered, laughing at her own inarticulateness. After some hesitation, some hemming and hawing, the student went on to confide that she sometimes thought of me at night, when she was lying in bed. She gradually confessed that, when she was in bed stripped down to her panties and a t-shirt, she let her mind--and her hands--roam.
She said that she would close her eyes and imagine that she was talking to me, in her room. She said that she would turn herself on, in this unusual way, by talking to me out loud, pretending I was there with her, in the privacy of her room. She would tell me, out loud, things--fantasies, desires-- that she found exciting.
It was this act of actually verbalizing her erotic thoughts, telling me what exactly it was that she wanted from me, to do with and to me, that made her most aroused.
She had come to love this taboo act of speaking openly and out loud to her Professor about her feelings. She would talk to me in ways that she could never say to anyone else.