LaJoria
4:00p.m. Sunday (Big Momma's house)
"Big Momma I really don't want to talk to him about this, I don't have nothing to say to him, nothing at all!" I told her, slamming the serving spoon on the table.
"Jori you need to do something, cause you can't do this alone, and I am not going to be here forever to help you. Soโฆ" she paused. I continued to mix the cornbread.
"Big Momma he's not ready to be a father, and I'm am not ready to wait for him to sow his wild oats then when he feel like it, come tryin' to be a daddy!"
"I know what you mean honey, and I will respect any decision you will make concerning your life but, I really think that you should not give up so easily. A good man is worth fighting for."
"He ain't no good man, Big Momma or he'd be here right now, and not fuckin' around with every Tam, Trish, and Mary!"
"Oh, I see, then he's only good enough to sleep with then?" she slapped in my face. I had nothing to say. "If he was only good enough to only sleep with, then you are no better than the other women you claim he's sleeping with. Look, I know you love him, just give him time Jori, he haven't had much time to take this all in as you did. Give him time, he'll come around." I rolled my eyes in the back of my head in disbelief.
"Me lovin' him has nothing to do with him lovin' me and MY babies." I jumped in. "I just can't go after him full throttle just to get kicked to the curb."
"Why don't you tell him how you feel?"
"I aint telling that bastard shit, if he didn't believe me when I first said something then he don't deserve to be in our lives, point blank!"
"Well, like I said, what ever you do I will back you one hundred percent, but you better make up your mind quick you only have 2 more weeks left." she told me and left the kitchen. I finished my cornbread and put it in the oven.
"I'm going to take a bath, Big Momma!"
"Alright baby!" When the water was full I took off my clothes, and stood their in front of the full body mirror behind the door. My belly had stretched so much that if it stretched anymore it would have torn. I saw stretch marks worming their ways up to my bellybutton. I rubbed my extended belly.
"You are going to be out soon and I can't wait to see you guys!" I climbed into the tub. It was hard to get down now since the accident, the crash smashed my leg so hard that they had to do surgery on my hips. I will walk with a little limp for the rest of my life. They were so surprised that the babies survived the impact at such an early stage in the pregnancy. They weren't sure if I should terminate or keep my pregnancy. I stayed in the hospital for four months after the accident learning to walk and function again but in more pain cause of the babies growing over a cracked pelvis.
Big Momma ruled out the terminate part for me. She don't believe in abortions, she stand strong against them. That's how she got me from my mom. Momma was immature and got pregnant and wanted an abortion, but since Big Momma told her not to she made a deal. If she didn't abort me she would take me and raise me. And since then all I remember is Big Momma raising me. I hardly ever see my mom though only around the holiday time.
Big Momma was right, I couldn't do this all alone. I ain't gone kiss Black's ass either. He want to be out there fuckin' everything in sight then so be it. Black ass mutha fucka!
I finished my bath and put on my gown. I didn't feel like arguing semantics anymore with Big Momma so I drug my fat belly into bed and laid down.
7:49p.m. (Big Momma's house)
I didn't know I was that tired, sleep creped and cloaked over me as soon as my head hit the pillow. When I woke up I was alarmed to find that I wasn't alone in my bed. I turned around and behind me was Black. He had fallen asleep too. I shook him.
"Black what are you doing in here?" I asked him when I saw those gorgeous gray eyes looking at me.
"Damn, did I fall asleep?" he said stretching
"Damn, didn't I wake you up?" I rolled my eyes at him.
"Oh, Big Momma sent me up here to see if you were O.K." he said.
"Well tell Big Momma that I'm fine on your way out!"
He took a deep breath through his nose smelling the food cooking down stairs. "MMMM, Big momma sure can whip up some soul food to be an old white lady!" he laughed.
"My Poppa, who was BLACK, was a chef and he taught her how, before he died." I stated matter-of-factly.
"Oh, I'm sorry to hear that."
"Yeah I just bet you are." I mumbled.
"What?"
"Nothingโฆ I got to get dressed so if you don't mindโฆ"
"So why so many baby things?" he asked looking around and I laughed.
"You really don't know do you?"
"Know what?" he asked looking back at me.
I put the palm of my hand in his faceโฆ "Boo, you fired!" He laughed and grabbed my hand and kissed my palm. I snatched my hand away.
"WHAT!"
"Nothing, just go down stairs, now." I said and scooted to the end of the bed. I wanted him out of there as soon as possible cause I was like a bitch in heat, my pussy ached for him so bad. He grabbed my shoulder. Damn why he do that!
"Wait please!" he asked. "I want to say something to you."
"What?" I huffed.
"I am so sorry for the way I've been acting lately, you have to understand I've been locked up for 8 months and this is the first time hearing about theโฆ" he paused and pointed at my belly.
"The what, Black?" I questioned. "My pregnancy?!!"
"Can't you understand why I would be so skeptical."
"Yeah, I could understand skeptical but not cynical, Black you practically called me a hoe!"
"I know and I'm apologizing fa that! I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, especially when I brought up Floyd and all." My heart felt like it was going to drop at the sound of that name. Everything slowed down and I felt dizzy. I could hear Black calling my name but I couldn't find the words to answer him. It sounded like his words were calling me through a tunnel.
I felt his arms around me, calling me again. "What's wrong Jori," he asked holding me in a tight embrace. I looked into his eyes, then slapped him.
"THAT WAS THE MOST HORRIBLEST DAY OF MY LIFE AND I WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF YOU WOULD NEVER BRING UP HIS NAME OR MENTION THAT PARTY TO ME EVER!!" I spat and started slammin' my fists into whatever part of his body it landed on. He grabbed both of my wrists and kissed my hands.
"Baby I'm sorry I didn't know, I won't bring it up again."