This is a sequel to Donna in the Senior Year,
Chapter 1
and
Chapter 2,
and also to
Season's Greetings.
I wrote most of this several months ago and am just now finishing it. It's a rather downbeat story but as I mentioned there will be further developments in another story beyond this one.
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As I started my final semester in January 1977 my somewhat desultory college career at the City College of New York started to come together.
I had always gotten good marks but I had drifted without direction while pursuing a B.A. in European history. During my senior year, I had considered getting a master's degree in city planning. I hadn't gotten my act together to be accepted for a September 1977 admission, but I figured I'd be able to work for a year, and then I'd be ready to attend for the next academic cycle. I was considering several schools within New York but I decided to be ambitious for once and try also try for the University Pennsylvania in Philadelphia.
My personal life seemed to be going well too. My undergraduate affairs -- four of them -- always resulted in me getting dumped for one reason or another. I put those behind me with the thought that we were all too immature for anything long-term.
Then in September 1976, I got the fifth one, a girl from another university -- the misnamed Manhattan College in my home borough of the Bronx. I met a business major, Donna Azzato, at a party and we had hit it off. By the spring of 1977, I had the impression that this relationship had a potential that the previous ones had lacked. For one thing, I stayed faithful to Donna while earlier I had stumbled into "spinning plates" merely because I could get away with it.
There was one romantic anomaly but I put that into a separate category where such things didn't count. In December of 1976, I got involved with a divorced professor in the history department, a forty-year-old woman named Marilyn Janssen. I rationalized it with the fact that she had been the one to initiate it. Both of us seemed to assume that my graduation would be the end of this thing. It had never been one of my goals, but I still impressed myself with the ability to snag a relationship with one of my teachers.
After graduation, I figured that Donna -- who was also a senior at her school -- and I would consider what was next for us. Donna already had rented her own apartment for more than a year. Would I move in with her? However, I wanted to try living independently for once and I might be able to do that if I had a full-time job.
The first priority in the spring of 1977 was to finish the last four required courses. In my previous seven semesters, I had only taken two incompletes and I had wrapped them up in a week or so. I didn't expect any problems as I rounded the academic club-house turn.
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In the spring, a new person, a freshman girl named Shelley Padilla joined my student newspaper
The Salient.
People usually joined at the beginning of the fall semester but occasionally they came in at other times.
This new Shelley person was about five-foot-four with dark, slightly curly hair. She had an impressive New York ethnic nose but that was common at my school. More notable were her dark eyes, which had a strange intensity. I couldn't explain exactly why, but I felt a bit unnerved during the rare occasions when she looked at me.
She started attending staff meetings regularly but she had little to say. At one point she expressed an interest in news writing but she never accepted any assignments. Neither did she offer any ideas of her own.
The Salient
was always short of writers who were willing to do any work whether it was assigned to them or if they came up with a concept of their own. Our publication styled itself as the countercultural/Bohemian alternative to the more conventional and much older paper,
The Campus.
She could have done just about any project she wished -- an essay, short story, poem, even a cartoon -- if she had come up with something.
A couple of the unattached guys on the paper speculated about her as a potential date but they didn't approach her. I don't remember her ever hanging out in the office between meetings. After two months no one seemed to know anything about her such as where she lived or what she was majoring in. People had seen her on the South Campus, so we assumed she must be in a liberal arts or social sciences program. Otherwise, she was a cipher, one of a least two dozen students I had seen join up and then fade away.
One afternoon in May around 6:00 PM I was sitting in
The Salient
office by myself. I was at one of the desks facing the door when I saw Shelley walk in. We said some brief greetings to one another. The only thing that seemed unusual was that she closed the door as she came in. Except for staff meetings the door was usually left open whenever the room was occupied.
I had been using my time to read
The New York Times
because I wasn't in the mood to go home yet. My duties for the paper had dwindled as I approached graduation. Shelley walked over to an adjacent desk that faced mine and leaned against it. I noted that she was wearing a shirt open to reveal a pullover top, a blue denim skirt, and brown sandals.
She started a conversation about writing news stories, a half-hearted discussion lacking in any specifics. In the time since she had joined, we had exchanged only a few words and now I was replying mostly to be polite.
After about two minutes our talk seemed to have tapered off and I was glancing at the newspaper again.
Shelley said, "Would you come over here?"
I looked up. She had a serious expression but she wasn't looking directly at me, "Okay, sure." Being a somewhat gullible sort I often did whatever someone asked without a second thought. The fact that she was female added to my willingness. I got up and stood in front of her.
"A little closer than that." If some guy had said that, I would have indeed been a bit skeptical. As it was I felt a twinge of suspicion about this person who was virtually a stranger to me. But since she was a woman I had enough trust to move closer. As I stepped forward she reached out and pulled me against her. Then she started kissing me on the lips. I put my arms around her and kissed her back. I didn't think about it; I was twenty-one and caught by surprise.