I'm a customer shopping in your store. I'm wondering around looking at couches, big overstuffed chairs, beds β everything. I sit and try each one out. From your office you can see me go from couch to couch, bed to bed, chair to chair. You see a faraway look in my eyes as if you know that the furniture is not all I'm thinking about. You watch me, knowing that I don't see you, studying and invading. Sometimes you see me blush and wonder what it is I'm thinking about. You see me caress the fabric and you want it to be you. The thought surprises you, but you continue watching.
I don't know I'm being watched, I'm in my own little world. I'm trying to figure out how to start my new life, my new home β fresh. I'm finally independent and although I miss that intimacy, I hadn't really had it in quite some time anyway. I feel the soft fabrics, the textures. I look at the arm of the big overstuffed chair and I imagine myself on it being taken. I sit on the beds and wonder what it would be like to have hot and steamy sex on it. It's been too long so these thoughts just come and go in my head like an unwanted relative. My fantasies have always kept me company, but sometimes I curse them in public.
Roaming room to room, I notice how well placed each piece is. It's not a huge store β quite intimate. The salesman was very helpful and has stayed out of my way when he realized I wanted to be alone choosing the furnishings of my new life. But I can see the thought and detail that went in to everything around me. I open the door to another room. I'm in one of the side rooms where a big couch, a double chair and some accessories warmly decorate it. I don't realize it is not part of the showroom, but the outside of your offices. I see this room in my home. My hands touch the fabric of the couch and I close my eyes imagining, fantasizing.
You are still watching me. By the way I touch each piece you seem to know that the visions in my head are sensual in nature. You understand the feelings; sometimes you do the same thing. But you watch me touch and close my eyes and a jolt of sexual need hits you deep inside. You see a need in me and you seem to know that I can perhaps satisfy your own.
The voyeur in you feels a bit guilty for invading me, so you decide that it's time to make contact. You come out of your private office in to this part of your office as my eyes are closed and do not know whether to disturb the moment. In my face you see need and want β and I hadn't even opened my eyes.
The fantasy of being taken so completely on the couch by my faceless lover gets too powerful and I open my eyes. I am not alone β now staring in to yours. Your power and confidence are the things I notice first β even before seeing your intelligent eyes. You exude energy β intelligent and sexual energy β just in your stance. And in your quick perusal of me, I feel almost naked β that you saw all of me. I stand up. Facing you β I know that the faceless lover in my fantasies has now been replaced.
"Pardon the intrusion," you said. Your voice lifts me out of my world suddenly in to yours. "Are you seeing all you need to?" The double meaning intentional. You look in my eyes and realize that I can hide nothing to the one paying attention. My eyes show everything I am and feel and they tell you what you want to know. "I'd like to make sure that all your needs are met. Does the store have everything you're looking for?"
I look in your eyes. Sometimes I wish I could hide what I feel. Meet my needs? Everything I'm looking for? Does this man have a clue what he's asking me? Then as I look at him, his eyes never leaving mine, I realize he knows exactly what he's asking me. "I am not quite sure what I want." My double meaning was not as intentional.