After the workplace fuck, it had become clear to me that Sud had crossed over the line. Before she came to the lab at 5 am in the morning, I knew I would have to push her to do things. She would do everything, but there was this push she always needed to get out of her shell, to push herself out of her comfort zone, her safe practices. But after that day, her spontaneity was enough to convey how she had tied herself to me. Her actions told me how eager she was to please me. Her words told me how aroused she got from my attention.
Until someone found out, I could look forward to absolute bliss of a sex life. It happens very rarely that you find a temporary arrangement which feels permanent and has all the indications of being permanent, and yet is not! In theory, you can walk out anytime you want. What else could a 27 year old single man want?
I had always been fit but not ripped fit. I worked out regularly. In the lead up to the first time I fucked Sud, something had triggered an extra urge to be strong and look big. I had started putting in more effort with higher intensities in the gym. It had been about two months now and the efforts were showing. I was close to graduating, I looked biggest I had been in years and I had Sud. My confidence was sky high.
Why do I talk about this? Because it is funny how even when things are going absolutely fine, your brain wants to get tickled more. It wants more endorphin. I wasn't in love with Sud, so that endorphin had to come from sexual titillation.
In my apartment, 3 of us were graduating and 1 was in the last leg. What that meant is we rarely saw each other. Everyone was running around trying to finish up either the final paperwork or the work which would let them graduate. My own schedule was totally messed up. I would sometime be home at 2 am and leave at 8 am. Now it had been a week since Sud was in the apartment, and I was sure my roomies would have something to say about it. But somehow, I never ran into them.
Then it happened. One evening, a week from the apartment episode, I was home early. The guys were playing games on xbox. When I entered, they greeted me, I greeted them and then I proceeded to fill my water bottle. I had brought dinner and wanted to enjoy it in my room. Just then roomie#1 paused the game and shouted.
Roomie#1: Broooooo! Who was that chick!
I was expecting this. So I looked at him and chuckled and said nothing. I started grabbing my plate and cutlery. The rest of them joined in.
Roomie#2: Broooooooo, you gotta tell us man. Who was that!
Roomie#3: Stop smiling you mofo! You have to tell us!
I smiled at all of them and didn't respond. I cleaned my cutlery and plate.
Roomie#1: Fuck you man! You are smiling! That your new girl?
Me: Chill guys. She is a friend.
Roomie#1: A friend? A friend? Where can I find such friends! I want two of those!
Roomie#3: Broooooo, seriously? Who she?
Me: I told you guys. She is a friend.
Roomie#3: She have friends? You intro me?
I just smiled again.
Me: Sorry bros, can't help you out.
Roomie#1: Fuck you bro! You sly mofo! We thought you are the biggest nerd and then you land up in here with this knockout.
Me: Language bros, she is a friend.
Roomie#1: Ooooooh. that how you are now? Ok ok, my bad. This girl. All right? Oh by the way, I thought you should know, all the time you were banging her, our bro roomie#2 was jacking off furiously in his room.
Roomie#2 threw a cushion at roomie#1 and shouted, "fuck you asshole."
The two of them laughed hysterically. Roomie#2 was clearly embarrassed.
Me: Well I am glad you all enjoyed. Especially you, roomie#2. Now I will go eat my dinner in my room.
Roomie#2: Fuck all of you. All of you, assholes.
He went into his room as well, embarrassed and angry. I chuckled and entered my room as well. I set down my plate on my table and started eating. A thought crept into my head. Bringing Sud over to my apartment and fucking her in presence of my roommates was actually an arousing thought. I could feel my cock respond at the thought. Why did I like it? Was it the dominant inclination? Was it the fact that finally I am bringing a woman over? Was it the fact that I wanted this subtle exhibitionist angle now to keep the juices flowing? The more I thought about it, the more I was convinced, I should do it again.
I felt a massive urge to show off Sud.
I observed myself over the next few days. Was it something I really wanted or was this just a fleeting fantasy? I didn't say anything to Sud during these days. I observed how the urge grew and clung on. It wasn't fleeting. It was here to stay. I imagined how these three guys would be talking about us. How they would be trying to find out more about what is happening on the other side of the door. How they must be imagining what Sud looked like naked.
I hadn't sent Sud the sextape yet. She was pestering me for it. I wanted to find a safe way to store all of it. I had got a new hard drive. I put all the material on it and encrypted it. Then I removed everything from my phone and just kept the ones from the last day to forward to her.
I texted Sud.
Me: What's up bombshell?
Sud: Heyyyyyyyyy (blushing smile)
Me: How was your day?
Sud: Send me my video!
Me: Wow, that horny, huh? I asked how your day was and all you want is the video.
Sud: I am sorry! I am just so eager to look at it. When can you send it?
Me: I will. Relax.
Sud: Please! I have been asking you for 2 days! Why won't you just send!
Me: Ask nicely.
Sud: I don't get it.
Me: What did I ask you first?
Sud: I am sorry. Day was good. I sold another painting today. I am so happy!
Me: Which one was it?
Sud: The daffodils in the wind.
Me: That was a nice one. I am happy for you. So you want the sextape?
Sud: Yes, please.
I enjoyed making her talk about sex.
Me: Why?
Sud: I want to see how it looks.
Me: How what looks?
Sud: How both of us look
Me: No you have to be clearer.
Sud: I want to see how I look when I am pleasuring you.
Me: Is that all?
Sud: And how you look when you are fucking me
Me: And?
Sud: I want to see how getting fucked by you looks like.
Me: Will you be touching yourself when you watch it?
Sud: Yes. Many times. Every time I watch it, perhaps.
Me: What do you want at that point?
Sud: More of that. More of you. I want to be with you, around you.
Sud: Just talking about it with you gets me so wet.
Me: Talking to me gets you wet?
Sud: I don't know how. There is this switch. You have a switch. When you flick it on, it makes me so wet. I want to be around you.
Me: When does that happen?
Sud: When you have this change, you go from normal to someone else. And when you become that I wet my underwear wanting to be around you.
Me: When I become this someone else, you want to be my slut?
Sud: Yes, a hundred times over. I am gushing right now. I am typing with a hand and my other hand is in my pussy. That is what you do to me.
Sud: I haven't even seen the video, but I feel like I will rub myself crazy when I do. I am just imagining how we look on video and your face and your body and I am flowing.