With the progression of their sexual games the young Russian courted Sinead consistently and fell in love with the image of her he had constructed in his mind and on paper. He had many lovers of his own, but they were mostly mindless young girls whose heads filled with shallow illusions and expectations of romance where they played the pampered princess. In the Russian boy's own immature indulgence, he considered Sinead the woman most befitting to him and began to badger her to leave her husband. As a result Sinead began to extricate herself from his life, and eventually stopped returning his calls altogether. The young Russian was jilted. He made hundreds of sketches, all of them of her in various poses: clothed; half clothed; naked; her legs spread open to reveal the soft pink petals of flesh in between. He drew her head on the bodies of young men being penetrated from behind. He stared at them when he was not working and slept among the sketches naked, often waking in the morning with a raging erection and black marks all over his sweat drenched body. But he could not possess Sinead as deep down he knew of his incapability to control her.
So for a time Sinead wandered aimlessly from one lover to the next. She changed the color of her hair -- from chestnut brown to mahogany, then to a silver blonde that reflected sunlight and sharpened its rays into small daggers. She changed her sexual persona to suit each of these colors. When she was a brunette her sexual stance became retracted, rational and calculative, submitting to the whims of her partner like a sheepish young girl, then tying him to the bedpost and torturing him with controlled sensuality. As a redhead she teased her lover lavishly, took risks in public places where she enjoyed pleasuring him with her mouth, crouching and hidden beneath the protection of his long expensive trench-coat. With a cascade of luscious silver blonde hair, she was a goddess exuding overwhelming sensual power, and she made her counterparts submit to her desires without question, even if this meant sharing her with another, or not taking her at all. She would sometimes play the voyeur to her prey, usually a man and a woman tangled together in a wild sexual dance with one another, each in a desperate bid to win her affection until, stirred by their abandonment, she herself would join them, and they would clamber over her with predatory ferocity, biting and sucking.
While Sinead enjoyed her new found freedom, she was also taken by the hollow sensation of being spread thin, of fading slowly into an unfocused sea of eroticism in which she could not find firm footing. She began to have feverish dreams of being taken by several faceless men, one on top of her and kissing her fervently, his tongue massaging hers while his hand reached for a breast and kneaded it; another man rested between her legs, lapping her moist sex with the delicacy of a small cat at the saucer, his rough hands leaving scratch marks on her inner thighs; and the last lying beneath her, bearing her delicious cumber with his arms around her, fingers squeezing her nipple and the other hand reaching down to probe and flick her engorged clitoris. She would awake from these dreams frightened, damp and panting, her mouth open with the words please fuck me on the tip of her tongue, then look frantically to her husband beside her, sleeping soundly with his back to her. Then the current of long neglected shame and sorrow would weigh her down, and she would go downstairs to sit and read until the morning came. Gradually, she started to view the reoccurrence of these dreams and her emotional instability as a sign that she was being punished for her promiscuity. She began to turn her attention once again to her husband, who did not seem to notice her internal turmoil but rather somewhat taken aback by her sudden show of affection.
[continued Part 2]