I have always been attracted to Lisa. Right from the time my wife asked if I wanted to come and meet her brother Stephen's new girlfriend. I accepted, and my initial impression was one of a fantastically realistic body (you know, not the ultra skinny form that seems to have become societies 'ideal', but rather a curvy, shapely, classically feminine form that you just want to hold) and of beautiful blue eyes forming the centre-piece of a gorgeously cute face framed by brunette hair. There was also an aloofness, or as I gradually learnt, a hard shell of self-protection surrounding her that was vaguely troubling.
This kept our relationship through the early years quite cool, as I am also fairly reserved and struggled with her barriers. In many ways, we are actually quite similar, with a lack of self confidence often coming across as arrogance. Of course, it was something that, at that point, I simply did not have the self-awareness to know. One thing I did know, however, was that I found her remoteness vaguely alluring though I had no idea why. I even found myself going out of my way to draw positive reactions from her whenever we met.
I became really conscious of my slowly increasing interest the day she and Stephen called in at our house. They had been swimming, and Lisa was still in her bikini with a towel wrapped around her waist. They stayed for several hours, even though my wife Rachael had had to go out, and Lisa was clearly uncomfortable with her state of dress, or lack of. For such a proud and yet insecure young lady it was always going to be difficult. She maintained a rigid and stoic manner, but the awkward periodic adjusting of the bikini top simply drew my attention to her, and I realized with some embarrassment that I had been taking in the curve of her wonderfully formed breasts and porcelain-skinned tummy with growing desire.
Stephen seemed oblivious to my ogling of his future wife, so after they left I tried to convince myself that it had only been a fleeting glance and had gone unnoticed. Not so, apparently. Even though she had only been there during the early part of the visit, my wife had clearly recognized my interest too. We were in bed that night when she brought it up.
"So, who's attracted to their possible sister-in-law, then?"
"Huh, sorry? What are you talking about?"
"Lisa. You couldn't stop admiring her."
"No way!" I blustered. "Even if they get married, she isn't technically my sister-in-law anyway." I was trying to divert the thrust of the conversation. All to no avail.
"You couldn't help yourself! I'm not surprised, she does have a lovely body."
"Does she? I didn't notice.... Well... yeah, I guess so. But she's a cold one, in any case. I never feel comfortable around her, and I'm pretty damn sure she can't stand me anyway." I was on the defensive.
"Maybe she does like you, but is uncomfortable with that attraction and puts up the walls as protection? She's told me before that she thinks you are very handsome. Did you ever think of that?"