There is a common notion that sexual desire wanes with age. Not in my case: I was as eager in my sixties as in my twenties. What decreases is the opportunity, partly because with advancing years there is lessening allure, and partly because there may be fewer contexts in which to make operate. I'm thinking of a time in my mid-sixties when I was especially frustrated with a dearth of outlets. Fortunately, a member of the sisterhood came to my aid, even, initially, against her current orientation, or so it seemed.
Though a physical education tutor, Gina, was also a frequent colleague on weekend and vacation courses for English-language teachers, A fervent hetero, twenty years younger than me, we had become close through our shared interest in language, and while she pursued liaisons with male participants, I sought satisfaction with man woman or transwoman;
Such encounters were not always available, and I recall a particular event when neither of us could find a partner. A situation which seemed to be troubling me more than her when, on the second evening, we met in her room for conversation and cocoa. Neither commented on the situation until she broke off her account of the young lover whose determinedly virgin girlfriend encouraged him to seek satisfaction in Gina's arms to remark:
'This sort of story isn't helping you at all, is it, Norma?'
'Well, no, but it might help me help myself in due course.'
'You mean you'll frot yourself off later in bed?'
'Though that doesn't much help at present.'
She said, 'You mean you're so choked up you need someone else to do it?'
'That's right. But I suspect you may be doing it, too.'
'Probably. Especially now I've called up young Tom. I can think about him -'
I risked alienating her by asking, 'Why don't we do it together, right now?'
'Oh. That would be a first for me, but it might help you to see me doing it, too?'
'Yes. It would,' I said,
'You want to watch me do it, while you do yourself?'
'That's right. But of course you may not fancy that at all.'
She thought about it. 'What did we long ago agree? A woman should always help another woman, in any way, if at all possible.'
'Correct. But not if she has scruples.'
'I'm not sure I'll be able to come, but...never mind, tell me what to do.'
I told her to sit in the one armchair facing the bed, on which, having removed my knickers, I disposed myself, leaning on a pillow against the headboard. She was to draw up her skirt, open her legs and finger her clitoris - whatever she usually did. As she obeyed I drew up my skirt and felt into my already damp fuzz. Then I said, 'Do you normally do it through the gusset?'
'Ah,' she said, 'You want me to take off my knicks?'
'Are you too shy?'
'You want to see my prickety bush?'
'Of course. You know I've been longing to see it for years.'
'You never said.'
'No, but you knew didn't you?'
She laughed, 'Of course I did, and I wondered why you didn't say. After all, we could always have had a shower together.'
'I didn't want to embarrass you with my lesbian lusts.'
She stood up, stripped off her blue cotton panties, sat down again and parted her thighs. 'This is a first, dear Norma, showing my fernery to another woman. For sexual reasons, that is. Other women have seen it in changing rooms and showers, but..'
'It's delightful, delightful. With a crew-cut, trimmed for action.'
'Convenient for PE. Nothing to escape the elastic, or pull when riding the pommel-horse. Shall I go on nudging the nubbin?'
'Please. I'm noodling mine along nicely.'
'So I see. Well, actually I don't see in that little forest. But I'll need to concentrate now if you want me to come.'
'I do want you to come. I want you to tell me how it's going, whether it's gathering..'
That'll help you to come?'
'Yes. I need someone else's arousal.'
'All right. I'll go on about Tom and his girlfriend, then, because that might help me. She's determined to stay virgin till they're married. She wants a white wedding and deflowering after. She thinks that's romantic. But she wants Tom to be experienced, so he can give her multiple orgasms that night and evermore. So, he's to learn all I can teach him.'
'And you're happy about that?'
'Tom is a quick learner, with stamina, and he can make me come, time after time.'
'Tell me about him. What you do.'
'That's what Sally asks, both of us. Well, he's medium-sized, very dark, slim and well-muscled, with an average length but quite thick tool, which can stay hard a long time and erect again soon after coming. He has lovely hazel eyes, which seem to smile when he's inside me. He loves my breasts, which are about half the size of Sally's. She's a big bouncing, buxom blonde. He mustn't touch hers, or even see them bare, though he has been permitted to view them stoutly bra'd.'
'She sounds like a teaser.'
'Tom loves her, and he's allowed to kiss her. He can stroke her bottom inside her knickers. She likes that, and has her own hand inside them as well, Tom says, rubbing what she calls her "clistoris." We don't correct her.'
'Does she come?'
'Tom says she says she does. She does a lot of squealing, anyway.'
We fell silent and our fingers were busy. As we were positioned her hand was shielding her vulva from view, and I badly wanted to see it. However, after a while I did come, though it was a half-hearted, or half-clitted effort. She said, 'Did you just come?'
'Sort of. Pretty feeble.It would help if you were naked. Can I undress you?'
'Anything that helps, sister.'
We stood up and I undid her skirt to let it drop round her ankles. 'There you are, the crew-cut clistoris.'
'Not quite. Could you part those lovely labia?'
She did so. 'Another first. Never done this for another woman.'
'It's charming. Sticks straight out.'
'Tom says it's like a tiny penis.'
'Turn round. I've been longing to see that tidy bottom for years.'