She woke me with kisses, tiny little butterfly kisses, covering my face.
As my eyes fluttered open she asked, quite seriously, "Is it really adultery if your spouse knows and approves?"
And I suddenly realized what she was asking.
If you stop to think about the 10 Commandments, once you get past all of the "Worship Me" stuff, adultery falls just below killing in the list of those "shalt nots." And as a good Catholic girl, all of the sisters had been through parochial school, this would be something that she would be concerned about. I wasn't sure how deep her faith went, but it was interesting that she asked that of someone, not her husband, with whom she was, obviously, interested in adulterering again.
I laughed softly and said, "Yes. You're a naughty girl and must be punished."
"Promise?" she asked, and something in the way she asked made me realize she meant it.
She was looking down at me, her pretty eyes smiling but she was tearing up as well.
So I answered honestly.
"If it doesn't hurt and you don't cry, it's not really punishment," I said, "If you trust me, then we won't need anything silly like a "safe word."
"Yes," she said.
"Yes?" I asked.
"Yes," she said again, and kissed me, "Yes, I understand and accept your conditions."
"Okay," I said, "but first."
I pulled her down for a hard kiss, my hand roaming, exploring, enjoying.
I released her, grinned my best maniacal
Joker
grin, and said, "BREAKFAST."
She squealed and giggled as I did my best Dracula imitation, growling deep in my throat as I latched onto her nipple.
And I was addicted. Instantly. Completely. Helplessly.
Her milk was warm and sweet, and flowing freely. I would come to understand, later, with experience, that she was engorged and probably needed to be nursed or pumped the night before. She breathed out a sigh as she let down and started flowing, a sound that can only be described as contentment.
I didn't know what I was doing. I was sort of sucking on her nipple.
"Easy, Baby," she said, a soft little giggle in her voice, "I'm not going anywhere. Open your mouth a little, Honey."
So I did and she used her hand to work her areola and a little more of her breast into my mouth.
And instinct took over.
I latched on properly, my lips covering her breast above her areola, and my tongue massaging her nipple against the roof of my mouth.
She sighed again, supporting my head in the crook of her arm. She was humming a soft lullaby, stroking my hair, brushing imaginary hairs away from my face.
And I was relaxed as completely as I had ever been. I nursed for some timeless time before she used her finger to break my latch, adjusted our bodies, and offered her other breast. I noticed how hard it was, engorged, as I latched on and had to suck to start her flow again, but when it started I was drinking again, nursing, feeding, drawing nourishment from her body. Christ, I'm babbling but this was new to me and it was fucking
WONDERFUL
.
Eventually, minutes, hours? later, I was, well, not "full" in that way you feel after the Thanksgiving stuffing, but sated in a way I had never felt before. She was humming softly, stroking my hair again, whispering so softly I could barely make it out.
"This isn't wrong," she was saying,
sotto voce
, "This can't be wrong. It feels too good. It can't be wrong." I realized it was almost a litany for her as I opened my mouth, releasing her nipple, and turned my face up to look at her.
"This isn't wrong," I said, softly.
She smiled down at me and I saw that she was crying. She wasn't sobbing or bawling, but tears wet her cheeks and her nose was running.
"David," she said, stroking my hair, "I'm married."
"Is it really adultery if your husband knows and approves?" I asked, mirroring the question she had asked.
She smiled, and there was one of those cases where you've seen the word written down but never used it yourself.
She smiled wanly.
"David, that's not how I was raised," she said.
"So," I said, "What do you need."
She was silent for a long time, her eyes unfocused, staring off into the distance.
She moved suddenly, quickly, rolling away from me so swiftly that my head fell to the pillow.
She rolled onto all fours in that position only a woman can pull off. Her back was arched. Her breasts, empty now, saggy, hung free, the stretch marks on them clear. Her knees were parted on the sheet as they carried her weight. I couldn't help but notice that the ridiculously thick pubic hair ran up the crack of her ass, her
gluteal cleft
if you like the more proper nomenclature, and spread, although not as thick, across the bottom of her cheeks, right where she sits.
She was sex, incarnate.
"Fuck me, David," she said, "Like the worthless whore that I am."
"Myra," I started but she talked over me.
"Please, David," she said, "I NEED this. Now fuck me like a bitch in heat."