My heart's beating a million miles a minute. I take a deep breath and follow him down the street toward his car, the rain falling gently on my face and exposed shoulders.
*I shouldn't be doing this,* I think, *he's my teacher.* But I follow him anyway, watching how he walks, how his ass looks in those jeans. We get to his car and I walk around to the passenger side, sliding in and wiping the rain from my face. He climbs in next to me and starts the car, warm air gently blowing on us. I don't speak. I don't know what to say. I want him. Badly.
I glance over at him and my breath catches. His beard silver in the dim light, the street lamp catching on his glasses. He's so sexy. *But he's so much older than me. I can't be doing this,* that little voice in my head says again.
"Julia..." he says softly, meeting my eyes, "Where do you want me to take you?"
*What do I do? Have him drive me home? Take me to his house?*
I look at him, his eyes so gentle and enticing. I can see true curiosity there. And fear. Fear of what? *Fear of rejection,* I realize with a start. He's worried I'm going to reject him. Worried that I let him take me out to dinner and now I won't speak to him again.
I lean toward him and I see relief in his face right before I close my eyes and our lips touch. Immediately his hand raises to my face, cupping my cheek and pulling me close, his lips tender but firm against mine. I moan softly against his lips and he groans in response.
I pull back and open my eyes, breathing hard. His eyes bore into mine, searching for an answer.
"Take me home," I whisper, "To your home."
He groans again--God it's so sexy--and kisses me again, briefly, before turning his attention to the road.
I bite my lip and smile to myself, so excited. Months of wanting him, and finally, finally I can have him.
I took the time while he was driving to think. *I really shouldn't be doing this. But god, he's so sexy. And I know he cares for me. He's been so wonderful all year, in every capacity, not just as a teacher.*
I glance over at him as he pulls into his driveway. I can't read his face, his hair and beard silver in the light, his glasses still splattered with rain drops. I open my door and step out into the rain, walking quickly around the car to meet him at his door before he's completely out. I pull the door the rest of the way open and reach for his hand. He takes it and stands up. I raise my other hand to his face and run my fingers gently along his jaw.
"I've wanted to do this for so long. Wanted to touch you, to be close to you." I say quietly. I take a step backward, tugging his hand, walking toward the door. He unlocks the door and we step inside, the house dark. Neither of us bother to turn on any lights before his hand rises to cup my cheek and he leans down, softly brushing his lips against mine.
Suddenly it's like a bolt of lightning has hit both of us. I gasp, and he groans. We press closer to each other. He walks me backward until I'm up against a wall, then kisses me deeply, his lips firm against mine. His tongue slips out and traces the shape of my lips, asking me to open my mouth for him. I obey, parting my lips and slipping my own tongue out to meet his. *Oh, my god, he even tastes so good,* I think, moaning into his mouth. He responds by growling low in his throat and kissing me harder, pressing his body against me so I can feel the bulge growing in his jeans.
He breaks away, both of us breathing hard, and he looks into my eyes.
"Julia," he asks, his voice rough, "are you sure you want this?"
My body on fire, desire coursing through my veins, I reach my hand to his waistband, slipping my fingers through the belt loop. I tug gently, making him come back closer to me.
"Yes, Daniel, I want this," I whisper, and I pull him into me, our lips almost touching. "Give me all you've got."
He groans deep in his throat and kisses me roughly, his lips hard on mine as he shoves me into the wall again. There is no tenderness, just raw, unbridled passion and desire. My hands explore his body, feeling the muscles beneath his shirt.
He breaks away again, leaving me gasping for air. He grabs my hand and pulls me with him to the bedroom. We stand facing each other, breathing hard, next to his bed. My hands shaky, I reach for the top button of his shirt. I undo it, and then another, and another, keeping my eyes on his face. I tug the bottom of his shirt out of his pants and unbutton it all the way, sliding it off his shoulders. He tosses it to the side and I look away from his face to admire his body.