*** Note: This is the fourth installment of a story originally submitted for the Winter Holidays 2012 contest. This one is longer than the previous installments because there's more about the relationship as Wendy struggles with her new adventurousness. There will be one more installment. I hope you like it, but whether you do or not, please take a minute to leave a comment to tell me what you liked or what you didn't. ***
On the ninth day of Christmas, my wife seemed quiet in the morning. I tried to talk with her about the night before and her first experience with anal sex, but she kept deflecting the conversation. Finally, in mid-afternoon while our daughter was engrossed in a book in her room, I asked her to sit with me on the couch. She initially sat down at the opposite end from me; I asked her to come cuddle with me while we talked, and she did, but she seemed reluctant.
"Wendy, it's obvious that's something's wrong," I said. "The most important change for me in the last week or so has been that we're communicating so much better, and I want that to continue. Would you please tell me what's wrong?"
"You can't fix it," she said.
"OK. Can I at least understand it?"
"I'm not sure I understand it myself," she said.
"Would you please try?"
"I can't right now." There was a long pause; finally she said, "Will you be patient with me? I'll try to explain it, just not now, OK?"
Trying to hide my disappointment, along with my fear that we would quickly slip into our old habit of hardly talking at all, I promised I'd be patient and wait for her to bring it up again. We did our own things the rest of that day, and she was still unusually quiet at bedtime. As I was changing for bed, she asked me to leave my pajamas off and get in bed naked; this was promising on at least the physical level, and my cock twitched as I lay naked under the covers waiting for her.
She came out of the bathroom in her decidedly unsexy flannel pajamas and climbed into bed. "Roll over on your stomach," she said. I did, wondering what she had in mind; more anal play didn't seem likely -- and indeed, it wasn't in the cards. Instead, she straddled my hips and began massaging my shoulders. She gave me a nice long backrub, which she hadn't done in years. After working on my back for almost 20 minutes, she moved down and massaged my butt, then my thighs, calves, legs and feet. After a while she asked me to roll over, and I did.
She worked her way back up the tops of my legs, first one calf, then the other, and then my thighs. After she'd kneaded the second thigh for a while, she cupped my balls with one hand and lifted them toward my stomach, pushing and squeezing almost, but not quite, to the point of being painful. Turning her hand so that her fingers pointed downward, she started rubbing my perineum and the part of my shaft she'd pulled my balls up past with that hand. Grabbing my cock firmly with her other hand, she started stroking. When she saw a drop of pre-cum appear at the tip, she stopped stroking long enough to smear it around the head of my cock; that got a moan from me. Then she went back to firm stroking from the tip to my still elevated balls, giving them a solid bump on every downward stroke. The buildup was fast and the orgasm was routine as I pumped my load onto my stomach. She handed me some tissues, pecked me on the lips, said good night, and went back to her side of the bed, where she lay with her back to me. Except for asking me to roll over, she hadn't said a word throughout, and hadn't even looked me in the eyes.
I cleaned myself up with the tissues, then went to the bathroom for a warm cloth to do a better job. Then I got into my pajamas and got back into bed, feeling the mixed emotions of an unsatisfying release and worrying that all the gains we'd made in the last eight days were lost.
I woke up early on the morning of the 10th day of Christmas, around 5:30, but Wendy was already out of bed. I found her in the family room, curled up on a chair under a blanket, sipping a cup of tea and staring out the window. I kissed her good morning, and as I turned away she caught my hand.
"Will you sit for a while and just listen?" she asked, without looking up at me.
"OK," I said.
"I need you not to judge me, OK?"
"OK," I said again. I sat in the chair next to hers and studied her face. When she finally spoke again, she started slowly and haltingly.
"I've been fighting with myself since night before last," she began. That was the night she'd let me take her in the ass for the first time, but I didn't know yet if that's what this was about or not; I couldn't think of anything else that might've upset her. "The things we've done lately ... Some of them aren't things that ... Well, they're not things 'good girls' do. Thing is ... " Another pause, and then the words came out in a rush. "I liked them. All of them. And I don't think I'm supposed to like some of those things. And now I'm thinking about other things, naughty things, and I'm pretty sure I'd like them, too, and I want to try them but I don't know what you'll think of me and I don't know what I'll think of myself and I don't know where these thoughts are coming from and I can't stop thinking them and ..."
When she had said she didn't know what I would think of her, I'd started up out of my chair. I'd moved next to hers, knelt beside her and taken her hand. At this point I put a finger gently to her lips. I took her face in my hands and said, "I know I promised just to listen, but you need to know something."
She looked at me for the first time and waited. "Nothing that we've done lately has made me think less of you in any way," I said, as reassuringly as I could. "I love you, and I love the change in our marriage, I love the open communication, I love the new adventurousness we've found lately and" -- with emphasis, I repeated -- "I love YOU. Nothing you could think about or suggest -- nothing -- will change any of that for me. "
Looking away again, she said, "Don't be too sure."
"But I am sure," I said. "I'm not saying I'd necessarily agree to try everything you're thinking about; some fantasies should probably stay fantasies. But I'd love to share them with you, even those." My wife had done so many new things in the last five days that I wasn't sure where her limits were anymore -- or even if she had any -- and the truth was that I found this incredibly arousing. I didn't think it was the right time to tell her that, though, so I kept it to myself.
She turned to me with a look that was almost challenging, like she was going to test my assurances right then and there. She said, "My favorite thing so far has been that first night, watching you lick your cum off my breasts and having you kiss me with it while we were doing it." She paused, uncertain.
"I liked that, too," I said, smiling at the memory.