I walked into the Spine bookstore resolutely. No sulking at home with a glass of wine, asleep by 11:00pm on a Friday night. I was thirty, not seventy five. Going to a bar sounded exhausting and there was a possibility I'd zero in on someone that reminded me of Joey and spiral into a bottomless cavern of self-pity and tequila. Sort of like last weekend. Sitting down with some inspirational poetry or an engaging memoir seemed productive and not likely to drive me deeper into a black hole.
It had been a long day, a hurricane of inconsiderate co-workers, deprecating texts from Mom, and break-up reminders. On top of all that, I had submitted five pitches in the past month and heard back from zero editors. Life wasn't altogether horrible but it wasn't the best.
Four months had passed since I moved out from my shared apartment with Joey. I could no longer stand his callous approach to everything - how little effort he put into our relationship, how embarrassed he was to hold my hand in public. It took me a while to convince myself I deserved better. The obligatory wreck at first, I slowly let him go.
These days, I'm alright, unless the wrong song wafts over from the radio or a guy with Joey's haircut crosses my path. The worst of it is the loneliness, the empty bed. My body craves touch and late at night, I lull myself to sleep with frenetic fingers, disappearing with my blanket tucked between my legs.
The store wasn't crowded and I looked around, mesmerized by the amount of books.
"Excuse me, could you direct me toward the poetry section?" I asked a short guy wearing a newsboy cap.
"Yes, that's upstairs, over by the right wall," he pointed.
"Thanks." As I walked away, I couldn't help but notice his eyes lower to my ass, confined firmly in a pair of stretch jeans. TGICF - Thank God It's Casual Friday. I ascended the stairs and found the poetry shelf. I ran my fingers over the books, their diverse textures and sizes massaging the tips of my fingers.
I pulled out a book of collected poetry by Edna St. Vincent Millay, something from my to-read list. Burrowed into a cozy corner, I planted the book in my lap.
And I read, vehemently. I scrutinized every word, relentlessly extracting meaning like juice from a lemon.
"What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why,
I have forgotten, and what arms have lain,
Under my head till morning; but the rain
Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh
Upon the glass and listen for reply..."
Engrossed by the words, everything faded away - the other customers, the jazz music emanating from the speakers. I lingered in my poetry bubble, finally content.
"You stole my book."
I looked up, dazed. A tall man was beaming down at me, his expression playful. I immediately noticed his facial hair - robust eyebrows complemented by a short but substantial beard. He was attractive - rough yet polished, with eyes like hot coffee. He smiled like he was hiding a secret bouquet of roses tucked behind his back. A jolt of anxious energy shot through my midsection.
"What?" I looked down. "You were looking for Edna St. Vincent Millay?"
"Oh! My bad. I thought you were reading about Easter Island. I'm planning a trip."
I stared at him with furrowed brows, not comprehending at first. Was he dense? Suddenly, it dawned on me - he was flirting. With me.
"Wow. OK. I mean, I can totally see how you'd get the two books confused." I tried to access my cache of coquettish witticisms but realized I had no such thing. I had not flirted in a long time.
He smirked.
"What's your name and why are you spending your Friday night reading?"
"I'm Mia. And why not? Reading is entirely underrated." I tilted my head coyly.
"Well, Mia, I agree wholeheartedly." I looked up at him, his glimmering eyes looking down, abruptly aware of our spatial relationship. He wore a grey, plaid button-down shirt that hung over his waistline loosely. I noticed his rugged jeans vaguely tracing the outline of his body and had to look away.
"I'm Reed," he added.
"Reed? And you are here to read? Cute." I winced inside - talking to guys was not my forte.
"Well, I hadn't thought of it that way," he laughed. "So far, all I've done is look at photographs. That's what I do - I am a photographer." Reed brushed his fingers through his dark, curly hair, the tendrils adhering to his forehead like leaves along a fence.
"Is that so? What do you photograph?"
"Everything. I'd love to tell you about it but we seem to be on different planes here. Either I sit or you stand." He smiled expectantly.
I hesitated, squinting at him, waiting for his next move.
Suddenly, he reached out his hand and I grabbed it, forgetting the book of poetry on the floor. I sprang toward him, stopping inches from his body. The store suddenly felt warm, stifling.
Reed smiled. "So, Mia, do you want to stay here and read or do you want to go across the street and get a drink and talk about reading?"
I paused for a second. He was a complete stranger. Still, he was handsome and seemed nice - it's not like I'd be going home with him or anything. Besides, I really needed to unwind and forget about my asshole ex.
"I suppose a drink can't hurt." I felt my stomach tighten in anticipation.
"Great. We can go to Bells and Whistles across the street." Reed grinned and turned to walk down the stairs. I followed him, the poetry book lying on the floor, a forgotten relic.
He held the front door and I strutted out into the balmy night. I imagined his eyes on my body, tracing the curves of my hips. I felt a surge of excitement - his presumed attraction for me was a huge turn-on. We left the store and walked across the street.