The Build up & Release [4f]

This can be read traditionally or as a meditation to immerse the reader. If used as a meditation, read this 3 or 4 times until you know every part...then lay on your bed, get comfy, relax, close your eyes, let your mind clear, and then let it play out in your imagination.

We have our first date at a restaurant & sit next to each other at the bar. I am all about no pressure & acting like we already know each other...helping you to shed any nervousness, relax, be yourself, & enjoy getting to know each other. I am very playful and flirty....waiting for you to give me the signals that you want more. Then light touches...as if I am asking you to be playful & flirty in return...letting the vibe build....no rush whatsoever...making you wait until you are itching for more before I give in & indulge you. Finally some soft, sporadic, & teasing kisses on less erotic areas...the back of your hand, your shoulder, etc...a little playful...but the kind that makes your mind shut off....only thoughts are imagining the kisses landing on your lips instead of other places...the imagery causing the release of endorphins....making you melt...dismantling your guard ever so quickly...their intent is clear to you but you are comfortable & enjoying every bit of it. So you lean into the moment for more...trying to focus on the intoxicating feelings to magnify them. It's just the kind you like & your addiction makes you instinctively desire more...an addictive pull that you feel down to your core.

The kisses get more sensual and less playful...eventually you make the move for our lips to lock...you immediately feel the increased intensity....immediately followed by your body reacting...then your addiction & desire for more increases in intensity. You don't care about anything but enjoying the moment as much as possible. So your mind leans into the moment as much as it can, without any reservation, without holding anything back...and it's rewarded...then the cycle repeats...your mind gets completely lost in it...it's a viciously blissful cycle. You keep going until you can feel the simmering passion flowing through your body from head to toe.

Dinner ends & I walk you to your car. We get in our final kisses of the night. I can sense that your guard is completely down...and your mind is completely preoccupied...so I start to subtly & covertly build your passion up even more with other tricks...touches and kisses get a lil firmer & more energy. I move a hand to your lower back, rub circles for a moment, then gently press our bodies together...a little more pressure every second. You realize that all of your senses are heightened...the new sensations feel amplified...you feel a surge in your body's reaction...again you take it in as much as you can & lean into it for more. I wait for the initial rush to subside, then I move my other hand to the back of your head, wrap my fingers firmly in your hair at the nape, applying a light tension to your scalp, and gently pull you in. You feel another surge...feeling the best rush of endorphins....your passion is semi out of control but your desire for more of this drug is in control & yearning for more...causing your body to writhe with desire. You enjoy the adrenaline shot to your libido...you know that you definitely want more, eventually...but you keep your modesty & we call it a night.

Fast forward a few dates. We are back at your place in the living room after dinner. I have been teasing you little by little every moment we have been together. Your desire is driving you insane...almost to the point of being hedonistic...but every feeling is euphoric....so the loudest voice in your head is your curiosity to see how much more intense it can get. We are standing, arms wrapped around each other again and making out. You take a second to pull back & smile...clearly telling me to give you more. You go to dive back into the kisses but I use my firm grip on your hair to stop you as our lips are touching so lightly that you can barely feel it.

You feel a little frustration and are about to waste no time to express it...but then you feel how it has made your desire several times stronger...you feel your want and need to get lost in the swirling feelings overtaking every inch of your body...a huge spike...I use your hair to gently pull your head to the side...moving my lips to your cheek with the lightest kisses....barely touching...past your ear...the top of your neck and all the way down to your shoulder....your heightened senses make every touch of my lips feel like a jolt....doesn't matter that the pressure of the kisses is so light....every one delivers the most vivid & intense pleasure sensations...making your heart flutter......your heart beats faster...your breath speeds up as well...you tilt your head all the way to the side, presenting your neck to me as much as you can, and naturally let out a quiet moan. You catch yourself in the moment...and then let out another vocalization to clearly let me know, "Give me more."

I pause for a second...again frustration, then melting...I wait until I can feel that you have given in to the moment...then rapid jump to strong, warm, wet, firm kisses moving back up your neck towards your ear, cheek, & lips....each one more passionate than the last. Feeling your desire & passion building up momentum like the first big drop of a roller coaster....your heart pounding harder with each beat...your breath struggling to keep up...finally back to your lips...you want to dive in and unleash your passion...but I pull back against your nape holding you just an inch away....this time there is no submission....your desire is red hot...your body is also on fire...no place hotter than between your legs...engorged with blood flow...radiating heat...feeling every heartbeat adding to it...creating a primitive, pleasure seeking drive...now your unfiltered libido is in control....and it will not wait for anything...it wants to be satisfied immediately....and it won't take "no" for an answer....you feel a dominating force take over your body and its strength is part frightening, part thrilling...it doesn't want to stop for anything until you have had your way with me and every ounce of tension is released.

I go in for more passionate kisses but you put your hand on my chest & push firmly to break contact except for our hands...to pull back & let your mind & body settle for a second...you want to gather yourself so you can take control of the situation....to take it all in. Your mind begins taking stock of every detail....heart still beating fast but under control...your breath is deep and slow...you can feel the warmth of your body and how each beat of your heart delivers more warmth, radiating from your center to your extremities...your skin is slightly cooled by a mist of perspiration....and the unmistakable feeling between your legs.

You realize that everything is exceptionally vivid & gratifying to an extent that you haven't felt previously. You immediately know the cause...the excessive teasing...building your desire up to a level that would be otherwise maddening....but the euphoric effects dwarf any feelings of frustration. In the moment, you feel so much unfiltered joy that you can't help but wear a giant grin from ear to ear. Feeling a little giddy, you try to bite your lip to downplay it but it's no use. So you give up & your mind goes back to the cause...your desire...the smile subsides as your mind refocuses. You now feel completely in control...but you know that building up more desire means giving up some control to your lust...the choice is clear...the thought of exploring until you find the furthest boundaries of this newfound experience is your only goal. And so you choose to lean into the moment, you close your eyes, and say to yourself "I want more."

Your body reacts to the deliberate & conscious embracing of the moment....but now you're not waiting for my next move....you take the initiative yourself. Still one hand on my chest. You use your free hand to touch your lips...focusing on the enhanced erotic component now intrinsic to every ounce of your being. Your body now has a mind of its own...without even thinking, your head naturally tilts back & to the side as you run your hand down your neck to your chest....circling the outer portion of your nipple...then the center. Then you open your hand flat on your breast over your shirt, firm pressure, then a slow, firm squeeze. You are wearing a low cut shirt and slide your hand inside your bra on the opposite side. Again starting with a firm squeeze and then followed by circling your nipple...then stimulating it directly. You feel an impulsive, natural force causing your hips to start writing forward and backward. Your body wants more.....your head tilts forward to rest on my chest as your hand drifts down past your stomach to between your legs, over your jeans. You touch with a flat hand...first with light pressure....applying more with each moment. You can feel the steamy warmth radiating through your pants.

You think to yourself "I don't just want more....I want it all." You feel a sudden change in your body. All of your remaining inhibitions melt away....any anxiety, fear, discomfort, inhibition, self consciousness...all gone after a few moments. Then you realize that sexual adrenaline is flowing through your body. Its effect is hard to describe....but you feel strong, confident, dominant...like you have a superhuman power....like you have the persona of a sexual deity. You look up at me. You can feel how the look in your eyes projects the power of your lust....as if to say that you are in control.

If I resisted, your sensuality could overpower me quickly & effortlessly. You keep your eyes fixed on me to show your dominance as you move your hand inside your pants. You slip your middle & ring finger inside yourself...there is nearly no friction with your natural lubrication...your fingers feel a warmth that is feverishly hot...finding your spot and applying a firm pressure as you tighten your grip. You haven't even noticed that every breath is now a primal, hedonistic vocalization. You stop, open your eyes, and look up with me with eyes filled with lust, still feeling jolts between your legs that cause your body to spasm. You feel bold, fearless, impulsive, and feisty....and you want to show me.

You slide your hand out of yourself, drenched in your essence. You touch my forehead lightly, dragging your saturated fingers down the bridge of my nose, to my lips....pulling my bottom lip down and inserting your fingers in my mouth....making me taste you with firm pressure against my tongue as I suck & lick every drop off. You decide that you are going to use me to satisfy yourself. Without thinking, you put your hand between my legs and squeeze to verify that I am firm....and I am indeed ready to go. You push me into the bedroom without saying a word.

You walk me backwards and push me onto the bed, laying on my back. You don't waste a second...taking off your pants but leaving everything else on. You climb on top, positioning your clit right on me, and continue teasing yourself....stimulating yourself by grinding through the remaining clothes. But this time you can't take it....it's too much...each sensation causes your lust to overflow. Again, you don't waste a second...almost in a rush...too impatient for any delay. You take your shirt in a seamless motion. You are already rolling onto your back as you discard your bra. Your panties come off just as quickly. You point between your legs and say "your lips, here, now". I climb on top and kiss my way from your chest down to your inner thigh...then light kisses on the outside, directly between your legs. You have no patience for any more teasing. You pick your head up, looking down to look down at me. You can only see my eyes but you can tell that I have a devilish smile. You say sharply and with authority "stop teasing and make me cum."

I get right to work with my tongue. Your head falls back onto the bed, your back arches, and your hands each grab a fist full of sheets. As soon as I start, you can feel that you are already primed for an orgasm...already half way to finishing. I feel your energy and increase mine to match. I keep my tongue on you while slipping my fingers inside, using my fingers to rub your spot. Your mind has barely processed the new stimulation when you feel the first set of pulses...an unmistakable indication of whats coming next...so powerful, even for the first one.

They begin to subside...you havent even recovered when you feel the next set, even more powerful...the speed of the building intensity is almost frightening...again the break between sets....waiting and bracing for the next one....it comes faster than you can prepare yourself....the next set not even a waiting for this one to fully subside....overlapping....you think "I cant be orgasming already"....then the next sets hits and you dont even think...you just moan "HOLY FUCK IM GOING TO CUM".....you feel like you are right at the edge of climax...but it just keeps building...so much pressure...you dont understand why it wont release...the pulses are now continuous...each one still more powerful, adding to the pressure.

Finally the release comes like a dam breaking...the pleasure hits you like a tidal wave....throwing your body in the surf...completely at its mercy until it passes...you let out the loudest, almost violent sounding moan. The shockwaves cause your entire body to convulse....so much built up tension & energy that it takes several minutes for it to subside. It finally does....you start to get your bearings again...your are drenched in sweat....wiping it off your face. You lift your head to look down at me again. My cheek is resting against your left inner thigh, your legs still shaking from aftershocks. I'm looking back up at you with a smile, showing my delight in pleasuring you. Then I ask, "again"?