As always, this is a total work of fiction, none of the names or people depicted are real.
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My Birthday:
Wow! Look at all those candles! I could actually feel the heat coming off those bad boy's, as my daughter sat the cake down in front of me. I took a big breath and did my best to blow them all out! I didn't of course, there were a few north of 50 on there after all so, that's no big surprise! Nor did I bother making a wish, what's the point! The wish I wanted, was one of those special wishes you're really not allowed to wish for. But that's ok.
The presents were spread out across the long dining room table, they looked so festive decked out in all their colorful regalia. Most wrapped with fancy paper, some with bows. There was one I noticed that was wrapped in duck-tape, that one had my brother's name written all over it! But it will be worth the trouble to get open, he never fails to buy me the best bottle of scotch he can find!
The cheesy decorations I figured were made by my sister, she was the artsy fartsy one in the family and it looked like she had taken the time to hang them everywhere! I knew the cake would be awful! Bought from Walmart every year, because no one in the family knew how to bake!
It would probably taste like shredded cardboard! They always did! The chocolate icing slathered nearly an inch thick on top would surely have the texture of wall plaster and the melted wax running down the sides from the candles, would be just the thing it needed to add that little extra flare! If I wasn't sitting in my own house, I'd run out the door screaming as if my hair was on fire!
I don't mean to be a shit. But damn people! The last thing a widower of only six months needs or wants, is a fucking birthday party! I'm still missing my wife like crazy! God rest her lovely sweet sole, but let's get real here! I'm lonely for my woman! I'm still young enough to want some, and maybe too damn old to ever get some! I'm just missing her so damn bad and stumped as to what the hell to do about it!
Hell, I'm still in damn good shape! Tall, I got broad shoulders that are still straight when I stand. I go to the gym twice a week! I've met a few ladies who showed interest sure I have! But I don't know if could ever betray her memory! Not yet! I just wasn't ready! So, my frustration and anger gits a hold of me sometimes!
My wife was sick so damn long! First came the stroke, they say it was an aneurism. That's when God had really taken my lovely Nancey from me! What he left behind was a scared, confused, frail woman, who didn't even know her own name! She was still so young! Not even fifty! She spent 4 long, agonizing years totally bed ridden, with the mental equity of two-year-old! Confused, tortured, trapped in an endless nightmare within her own damaged mind!
It was by far the hardest thing in the world any man would ever have to do, to have to watch the love of his life of over 25 years, wither and die an agonizingly slow and hopefully not painful death. In the state she was in, there was no way for anyone to know for sure! That was the one nagging question the doctors could never answer for me! Was she in any pain? My lovely wife, never knew the day her daughter got married and never met her grandson, gone too soon at 51.
Now here I am, trying to smile and act like I'm happy. While still missing my lovely Nancey, trying to be sociable to a family who truly loves me. But they could never understand till the terrible day comes, when it's their turn sit where I am right now! Blowing out their own set of candles! God! I pray in earnest; that day never comes for any of these lovely people!
Soon, the carryout fried chicken was all gone, the cake had been divvied up amongst the few brave souls who were crazy enough to take it home and try to eat it and the last of the family had finally made their way to the door. I was left with a huge dilemma! I had a fresh bottle of scotch and a big bag of garbage full of dirty paper plates and wrapping paper. So, which should I take care of first?
I Also had a kitchen table full of every flavor of aftershave imaginable, several new ties, one with Pac Man on it! My absolute favorite by the way! Can't wait to get the chance to wear it! Also, a wide array of pen and pencil sets. They are lovely, I have quite the collection. I'm a writer, well I used to be anyway. I haven't written anything in quite some time. The family didn't know that I had quit writing when my Nancey got sick. So, I still receive them as gifts at Christmas, birthdays and such.
What has always puzzled me about that is, Yes, I'm a writer. But I use a Mac, back in the day I used a typewriter. I use a legal pad and a cheap #2 pencil for my notes! I've never written even one of my works by hand, so why do people always buy me pens? Well, I guess it's just one of life's little mysteries I will probably never get the answer to. I laughed.
I finished cleaning up and was taking the bag of trash out past the gate to the road, contemplating busting the seal on that bottle of single malt, when a lovely woman with a newspaper in her hand, walked up smiling. "Good evening!" She said, in a pleasant voice. Hello! I said. Can I help you? I asked.
"Are you mister Franklin?"
Yes, I am. What can I do for you?
"I'm Samantha Thornton." "We spoke on the phone last week about the carriage house." "I was just about to buzz the gate when I saw you coming down the drive."
Oh! Yes! Yes of course, my apologies Miss Thornton, I have been busy lately and our conversation had totally slipped my mind! I said, trying desperately to recall the details of our conversation!
"Is it still available?" She asked, with pleading eyes.
Oh, yes, it is. I haven't really tried that hard to rent it. I only placed the one advertisement you have in your hand there, only ran it for a week. You are one of only a few people who have even called. I had just about decided to not bother renting it. It's been empty for several months. I converted it into an apartment when my late wife fell ill. She required 24/7 care and it was more practical to have a nurse living on the premises.
"I'm so sorry for your loss" she said sincerely.