*This story is actually the 4th in my Subman and Condiment Girl series. Yes, I know the title is really weird but it works for me. Enjoy the stories.
I had been carelessly avoiding you, avoiding getting too close to someone that I knew I would never be able to call my own, and avoiding getting hurt. That seemed to be a problem for me because like a moth is drawn to a flame, so I was drawn to you. I could pretend that none of it bothered me and that I was really okay with the fact that you would remain someone else's and I would only be granted glimpses. I tried my hardest to put off what needed to be done but eventually, I couldn't pretend anymore.
I knew it was a problem when I saw your face everywhere. I started hearing you say my name in silence and felt your lips on my skin when the wind blew. My mind was consumed with you and it took all my self-control to not drive to you and just take what I so desperately needed from you. Even though I knew you were due for a visit, I couldn't wait to see you and be with you, if only for a few hours.
You sent me a text on Monday, asking me if I was up for some of your company this weekend. My first instinct was to deny you and tell you maybe another time in an attempt to distance myself from you but my desire was stronger than my willpower and told you that yes; I would love to share my bed with you. I wrestled with anxiety for the better part of the week, feeling tenser than ever before. I wasn't sure why; this wasn't the first time you were going to come see me. So I didn't understand why just thinking about you caused my heart to race and my breath to quicken.
The Saturday you were due to be at my place was hot and sticky. Just opening the door to my apartment to get the mail caused drops of sweat to fall between my breasts. Perfect day for a swim, I thought and grabbed my new bathing suit. I grabbed my book and sunscreen with an SPF of 50, just in case my porcelain skin should somehow be exposed to the sunlight. I lounged on one of the chairs on the deck and let the sun warm me, inside and out. I must have dozed because the next thing I knew, you were calling me, asking me where I was. I looked at the time and saw that it was almost 7 o'clock at night. Shit, I thought, now we aren't going to have that much time together. I barely took the time to grab a pair of shorts before making the drive to the skate park.
I drove fast enough to break the sound barrier or so I thought and quite luckily, avoided any stray police officers with an attitude. The cool air blowing out of the vents in my car felt like heaven compared to the heat outside. My skin was slightly red and I couldn't tell if it was from exertion or sunburn. I figured that I'd find out as soon as your hands were on me. It was only after this thought came to me that I realized I was still wearing my bathing suit and a pair of white shorts. It was definitely not the attire that I wanted to be wearing when I saw you again but alas, it was much too late for me to do anything about it at that point.
I parked beside your now familiar Jeep, took a few breaths, and climbed out of the car. As I shut the door, I felt your presence behind me. My heart started skipping beats and I couldn't breathe. I blamed it on the heat as I turned to face you. Your eyes lit when you smiled at me and lifted my sunglasses up to look into the eyes you said drove you crazy. I had completely forgotten, until this point, that you were experiencing another first; you were seeing me without my usual mask, cleverly provided by Cover Girl.
"Hey, lady," you said with a smile. Your eyes roamed over my black strapless bathing suit, which really did nothing much to cover me.
"Hey, yourself. I'm sorry I was so late but I went down to the pool and dozed for a while. I wasn't planning on meeting you in my bathing suit, without my make-up but here I am," I said, avoiding your stare. Your hand cupped my chin, lifted my face back to yours and a soft smile graced your lips just before you kissed me.
This kiss was so unlike the others. It was soft and gentle and warm and I melted on the spot. Oh, you could say that it was just the heat and I was probably having a stroke but in that moment, with you, I had never felt more unforgettable.
I had to remind myself that you did not belong to me and that at the end of it all, you would be going back to the woman you loved. Even though I felt a piece of my heart shatter as I pulled away, I knew that I had to.