The drive wasn't to bad and I even got to relax and let some of the worries I'd been having go and let my mind drift as I drove to our weekend together. The leaves were just hinting at turning to the colors of fall and I hoped we'd have some time to take a drive into the local hills just to be alone and share some us time. So many things kept coming and going as I thought of the time we'd spent together so far and I smiled to myself with the knowledge of how relaxed and wanted you made me feel, something I'd been missing for so much of my life.
Telling you this in words is good and helps us bond but I want to show you in action and any other way I can think of. Maybe it's the fact that so many others seem to forget the early days when they first started seeing one another or maybe it's just taking things for granted or becoming lazy but I find myself knowingly not wanting this to happen with us. I never want to forget how excited and nervous I was the first time I actually saw you and how scared I was that my voice would skip and I'd say something so stupid you'd laugh at me. I want to keep the picture in my mind of how your hair looked and the way the light bounced off the highlights of the colors and just how beautiful you were then and are now. I see the colors of the leaves as I leave the main highway and start my twisting and turning of the country roads and my heart picks up as I think how soon I can take you into my arms again. The rest of the drive was a blur and before I even know it I find myself parked in the drive.
I can see you standing in the kitchen and by the fast movements I sense that maybe our plans might be about to change but when you see me standing there and I see that smile I forget the thought for a moment. Then as is now, that feeling I get overcome with as we hold one another, that's something else I hope we never lose. Finally we let go and smile and I see something is wrong but you know how I am, I take things in stride and try not to get freaky over small things so when you tell me you got a last minute call and you had to go into work for part of the evening I just smiled and said no worries, I'd find something to do till you got off work. In fact, even as you spoke I had some ideas of how I could surprise you later on. A fast but sensual kiss and some slight stroking and off you went with a promise to be back in a few hours.
I almost laughed but held the thought and knowing the area some I knew how to get to the local mall and headed there. I walked around for a while looking more so than anything and wondering how it would feel to both of us when we could spend time doing this and things like it without the rush of only having a weekend. Was I upset that here I was, wanting you so badly and alone, somewhat but that's what being together means, understanding and dealing with things as they came. I saw the candy store and went in and got a box of those chocolates you'd fell in love with and then the flower shop to get a little something just to make you smile and soon enough I saw it would be just a few more hours till you were done and I wanted to surprise you so back to your place I went and grabbed a shower. As I dry off I can see by the items left out that you've taken the time to trim yourself up and that in itself stirs things for me and I begin to wonder what your own surprises for me might be and that makes the plans I have even hotter.