I'm glad I didn't kill Kenya.
After 12 years of a beautiful marriage I knew we were in a rut. Stevie was a saint of a man for putting up with me and I suppose I was a pretty damn good wife for tolerating his oft misplaced laundry. Like any honeymooners we had an amazing first couple of years. Even after the kids got here we had no real signs of slowing down. Even when money was tight we were happy in every way.
But about 10 years in I noticed that we had to make an effort to keep the flame alive. Honestly, he made the effort. I had fallen well off the cliff and he held on. I can't say it was the work or the kids or my attraction to Stevie that became the problem. But if we didn't have sex for a week I only noticed it when Stevie got moody. Then we'd do "something" and get on with our lives.
I can't put my lack of interest on our kids or my work because that just wasn't the case. And I didn't notice any lack of interest on my part because we had sex of some sort regularly and I came 90% of the time.
Yet there was something missing.
Until Kenya sent the invitation to the institute.
I knew Kenya in college but we weren't close friends until we found ourselves in the same city after graduation. We were an odd couple. I was the level-headed planner. She was the free-spirited adventurer. I had a ten year old before she had a job.
But Kenya always followed her gut, which lead her to a number of entertaining business ventures and a seat at the big-boy table. Go figure.
Kenya worked at some high-tech venture capital firm and they were looking to invest in some couples research facility. I can't say that Kenya and I ever discussed the rut Stevie and I were in, but she could probably guess given how much she knew about me after college and the early years of our marriage. "Can I get a threesome one day?" she would joke after I showed up to brunch with a stain on the back of my dress.
Bitch.
The institute was just outside of Atlanta so we could drop the kids off with Stevie's parents for a few days. I assumed the whole thing was just a couple's retreat where we'd do some yoga, talk about our communication issues in front of the other bored couples and then get to head to our quiet rooms for whatever.
I guess I should have read the website a little more in-depth before I showed up.
As we rolled into the sprawling 25 acre estate I remember thinking that this would make a great celebrity rehab facility. The two-story buildings were all glass but surrounded by trees and bushes. The winding sidewalks connected each building as labcoated interns bumped into each other while staring at some phone or tablet. "Nerdgasm," Stevie joked as we exited our black SUV.
Stevie and I laughed with each other as we entered the lobby. The diversity in the room was not what I expected so I was definitely more at ease. There were black couples, Asian couples, Latino couples, white couples, interracial couples, gay couples, lesbian couples, a lady in a wheelchair, a guy who was at least 90 years old and a woman with an eyepatch.
As the other couples rolled in behind us Stevie gave me a kiss on the lips and said ,"Good luck!"
Before I could figure out what he was talking about this beautiful Swedish fellow stood before me with a wristband. "Thank you for trusting us this weekend," he confidently exclaimed with all of his Swedish accent. Then I was whisked out through a side door where I was handed off to Sajani and then to Alek. In my confusion I watched as Stevie was being herded in the opposite direction. My growing fear was dampened by the ease with which he smilingly walked off with his escorts.
As I fumbled through my purse to get my phone I was brought to my room where I was asked to change into my robe. That's when I realized I had a roommate.
"Hurry up and get that last text out because I think they collect our belongings in about a minute," said the tall blonde with a nervous smile.
I wasn't planning a text. I was looking for Kenya's email to explain what the hell I had actually signed up for.
The room was like a 5-star hotel at first glance. Two king sized beds with a 50 inch flatscreen and a wall-to-wall window of the lake dominated the space. The decor was minimal but modern with ebony wood floors and a glass encased bathroom. Between the two massive beds was an equally massive love seat and ottoman covered in olive suede. Part-business suite, part-brothel, the couples retreat was well designed.
But the room was missing a few details. There was no closet for clothing nor were their curtains or mirrors. Beside my bed was a digital tablet with my name and on my bed was a long, silk robe. There was also a pair of house slippers next to the bed.
"That's what we're wearing?" I sheepishly asked my smiling roomie as I noticed her blue robe barely covered her thighs.
"Easy breezy," she nervously replied as she stared at my confusion. "Sorry," she blurted as she turned away to give me some sort of privacy. "My name is Lake and I'm guessing your surprised look means you didn't exactly read the intro letter."
As I began to undress I had to bottle my desire to kill Kenya so as not to scare my new friend Lake. "I just assumed this would be a typical couples retreat," I quipped. "I thought Stevie and I would be..." I began when I noticed Lake's privacy attempt was for show.
Her innocent eyes were frozen as my freshly trimmed vagina was transferring from thong to robe. I assumed that the awkward pause would snap her out of her trance but I was wrong.
"How do you keep your hair so neat?" she asked without blinking.
"A razor and a mirror," I answered with realization that this is what the next 3 days could be like.
"I either wax it all off or let it grow like a jungle," Lake cheerfully admitted. "Want to see?"
I gulped. I did not.
"Orientation is in 10 minutes," came a voice from the hallway to break up our show and tell.
"So I guess we'll find out what they found out about us," Lake said as I placed all of my belongings in my weekend tote. Like Lake I hopped on my bed and decided to just roll with it.
As we traded less graphic details - age, place of birth, favorite reality TV star - the television turned on with what I recognized to be some of my social media posts combined with what had to be Lake's
We laughed as we explained photos of our kids and reposted articles of whatever entertained us. I was clearly into baking and beachfront vacations while Lake was heavy into music and baseball. We laughed as we noticed how much we had changed over the years as the occasional photo from high school would flash by.
While we laughed a young man in a buttoned up shirt and khakis entered the room with a smile. He didn't interrupt us as he took my bag to the hallway where I noticed him lock it away.
When he returned he closed the door as we continued to laugh. "My name is Eddie," he said as he shook our hands and began watching our online presence with us. Eddie was a small, effeminate man with a pompadour and glasses. He sat comfortably on the ottoman between our two beds.
Strangely, after 15 minutes of these quick glances I felt as though I'd known Lake her entire life. I was definitely going to give her shit about staring at my trimmed bush now.
"Now that we've become close friends wading through shallow waters," Eddie began as the images and quotes kept us laughing, "let's head to the other end of the pool."
With the remote control he made a menu appear with four buttons - Lake, Farriq (her husband), Stevie and my name. He smiled at us both as though he was apologizing in advance for ending the laughter. Then he clicked on Lake's name.
"...yes, i liked it i liked it," scrolled across the screen.
Though I was completely confused by the words, the look on Lake's face completely matched the look she was giving my trimmed crotch. But before I could question her shock, Eddie was clicking on my name.
Cropped squarely in the center of the 50" monitor was a picture I hadn't laid eyes on in 20 years. The blurry photo captured a well- manicured hand wrapped around a substantial dick. I knew those hands. I knew that dick.
"Who goes first?" Eddie gently asked.
As I attempted to process where they could have possibly unearthed that photo of me, Lake interrupted my thoughts with "Thomas from Germany" as tears started to form.