If nothing else, the enigmatic letter opened up some different conversations between Angie and me.
The "exclusive" married couple that we had been for 6 years had morphed into slightly playing with others since we'd joined the Dinky Daters. We had both kissed dates in a less-than-chaste peck. I knew that I had now fondled a couple of my dates, slipping inside Nancy's shirt to play with her bare tits and nipples. Angie had allowed some of her dates to fondle her tits, and although she told me she hadn't let them inside her blouse onto bare skin, at least one had discovered she wasn't wearing panties and had tried to finger her, actually having touched her pussy.
"Who do you suppose sent this?" I asked later that evening when we were in bed. I know it was probably the letter that had set us off. After 7 years of marriage, anymore we normally had sex on certain days of which this wasn't one, but tonight we'd both been aroused at bedtime.
"I don't know. Who do you think they sent it to?"
"Aubrey and Nick?" They had rapidly become our besties, many times we'd gone out on double dates with them, although except for the ski week and skinny dipping after-party, nothing even remotely sexual had ever happened between us and we'd never been matched with either on a Dinky Date night.
"I don't think so. They told us at the ski condo that they're not players."
"Yeah. Nancy and Larry?"
"I'd bet on that one."
"Me too.
"Jessica and Barry?"
"I'm thinking so. They didn't seem too surprised by a skinny-dipping party in their pool."
"Big difference between a skinny-dipping party at night and swapping spouses."
"That really is what this letter is talking about, isn't it? Swinging or swapping with others?" I just nodded, torn between the erotic fantasies in my mind of doing more than just playing with Nancy's tits and the anti-erotic fantasy of someone playing with my wife's body. I hadn't yet moved it to the end -- admitting that what was being proposed was more than just 'playing' -- it was fucking. In my mind, I went over all the couples that we'd met and dated along with many that we hadn't yet dated.
"Hypothetically," I started a few moments later, "
if
we did this, is there anyone that you've met and dated that you could see yourself fucking?"
"Brian."
There was no hesitation in her answer. "You've been thinking about this."
"All evening long."
"Why him?"
"Ever since he tried to finger me and I pushed him away, it keeps coming back in my mind. I've masturbated several times thinking of what would have happened if I'd let him finger me or fuck me. Something about my stopping him and what if I hadn't..."
Although our lives, and sex lives, were totally intertwined, she sometimes got aroused without me around, and that I did without her around, we both knew. Being a lawyer in a strong corporate environment meant that she was almost always at work -- even when at home. The one exception was Sundays -- when she tried to disconnect totally from her work world, and that usually meant taking an afternoon nap and recharging for the next week. I always tried to give her peace and quiet and alone time, but one warm Sunday when I entered the bedroom and found her asleep and naked on the bed except for her panties, with her hand buried inside them, I knew she'd taken care of herself. I'd needed to wake her for something, and when I did, her arms came up around my neck to pull me down to her for a hot, lusty, kiss. I kissed her and told her we needed to get up, but when she asked if we had time to play -- I asked if she hadn't already played with herself. She said she had, but she needed me too -- and we ended up being just a little late for our event. I asked her how often she masturbated during her Sunday naps and she admitted it was almost every time, that an orgasm helped her relax and go to sleep during a nap. When I suggested I was more than happy to help her out, she told me that masturbating was different, that she didn't have to put any effort into me or anyone else -- it was more relaxing to take care of herself.
"What about you?" she asked. "If you could fuck any of the women that you've dated, who would it be?"
I knew immediately who my number one was, someone who had crossed my fantasy threshold -- but not someone that I had yet dated. "Jessica".
"Barry's Jessica?" she replied, a bit startled at my admission. "You haven't dated her yet, have you?"
"Are there any other Jessica's? It doesn't mean she doesn't fall into my fantasy lover realm."
"Hmmm. Who else?"
"Aubrey."
"Umm, yeah. Seeing Nick ogling me at the condo? I'd do him in a heartbeat but I'm pretty sure that Aubrey wouldn't like that. What about Nancy?"
"Yes."
"Barbara?"
"Oh no. She may have the biggest tits I've ever come across -- but she's not my cup of tea at all. Not a first choice."
"You mean she's not pretty enough for you."