Having the day off did nothing to lessen the stress in your day. Kids to school. Lawyer to interview. Papers to obtain, which meant unpleasant phone calls to endure.
I could hear the faint hopelessness in your voice when i called to check on you about 3. The day had overwhelmed you. I could see you clearly, seated at your computer, thick woven sweater, snug jeans. Searching for the distraction from recent reality that would settle your thoughts.
I left early searching for the things I knew would ease your mind. leave you in the peaceful cushion of affection and strength that allowed you to believe that anything is possible, and everything would be all right soon.
The plan was simple, the supplies easily obtained, even in the icebound small Maine town. Before 4, I pulled up to your door, and strode to your door. Anticipation of your reaction to my presence warmed me against the frigid weather.
You were so distracted by the events of the day, the door sat unlocked. I slipped inside quietly, the house was silent save the persistent taps and clicks from the computer inside. Lost in the intricacies of your newest creation, I slipped up behind you, placing a steaming cup of tea on your right, and a single red rose on your left. As you begin to turn toward me, I place my hands on your soft cheeks. I lean down and whisper softly, 'Just relax baby, let me love you for a while.'
I feel your eyes close and your cheeks rise into a slight smile as my fingers trace a line along your jaw and over your temples. Reaching your scalp, my fingers fan out, tenderly gliding through your soft blond hair. reaching to the back of your head I remove the clip holding your hair up, allowing it to cascade over your shoulders, and freeing my fingers to begin their journey.
My fingertips fan evenly along the top of your scalp, and I begin a slow and firm circular motion massaging the entire scalp. Releasing your hair fills the room with the fresh clean scent Ive grown to associate with you. and as my hands reach the back of your head, the quiet catching of your breath speaks loudly to me of how much you are enjoying this.
When i find the base of your skull, I pull my fingers together and slowly drift them along the ridge to your ears, up wards along the back of your ears, and then down toward your earlobes. I pinch the lobes, rotating my grip on them releasing the pressure points hidden there. your head is beginning to rock back and forth in time with my circular motion. I rotate my grip up onto the cartilage of your ear, drop down to the ridge of bone behind the ear, and then forward to the hollow just under your jaw. Using all 4 fingers on each side, i softly rotate massaging the glands and muscles there.
Placing my thumbs at the base of your skull I begin to press against the middle of your neck. Firmly gliding from hairline to the curve of your shoulder as my thumbs reach the base of your neck my fingers are placed along the sides. I use the support of my hands along the sides of your neck to begin to rotate your head from side to side and front to back. Stretching your neck, working the knots out as I go. You have released control of your head to me now. It lolls freely as I manipulate you. your breathing is shallower than before, but your skin is beginning to flush as the room gets warmer.
Feeling your head moving freely in my hands, I slide my left hand gently across your collarbone to the top of your shoulder. Pressing down firmly on your shoulder and against your head I'm able to loosen the tender muscles joining your neck and shoulder. Pressing your shoulder forward and back releases more muscles, bringing small gasps from your mouth.