Chapter 07 -- Resolution
When I arrived back home on Sunday, my mood was sour. All remnants of Vivian were now gone from the house. I was not at all in the mood to talk and pretty much kept to myself unless answering a question that Penny was asking me directly. The house was too quiet and lifeless for me at the moment. There were times when I wanted the house to be quiet, but on the whole I liked the energy and activity that Vivian and Penny provided. Even if they weren't doing anything that involved me, the combination of the two of them always seemed to create a buzz in the house.
With Vivian gone and the adjustments to the new weekend rules still settling in, being home now felt a little awkward. I tried desperately to ignore the awkwardness as I got ready for work on Monday morning. That week at the office was as normal as ever. It was as if Vivian's leaving had not had an impact on the vigor of business. The distraction of work kept me sane, which I appreciated. As the end of the week approached, I occupied more and more of my time wondering when the decision of whom I would spend this weekend with would be revealed to me.
On Thursday afternoon, Nikki tapped lightly on my office door. I looked away from the computer screen in front of me to see her smiling at me from the doorway. She pointed with her right hand in the direction of the conference room and turned to go. I watched as she stepped away and out of sight. I had a distinct feeling that my questions were about to be answered. I hoped that was the case as I made my way into the conference room and took a seat at the already full table. The waiting game was wearing me out.
"So, where am I going this weekend," I asked bluntly before anyone could say anything.
"Everything is not always about you," Emma chastised me.
"I know," I admitted humbly. "But this is."
"Yes, it is," Leslie confirmed with a smile.
"You will come to work with me tomorrow," Penny interjected. "Then you will be spending the weekend with Nikki."
I looked at her sideways. Nikki and Monica had a baby and enough things going on at home that they did not need me in the way. Plus, I was not 100% sure that Nikki was over what had happened between us at Leslie's house, even though we had spent a lot of hours together in the office. I wasn't sure they had thought this through.
"Are you sure that Nikki is the best choice," I asked gingerly.
Nikki snapped her head around and glared at me intently.
"You don't want to spend time with me," she attacked me.
"That's not it at all," I replied softly, though I was immediately on the defensive. "Between you, Monica and the baby, I just don't want to be in the way. You have a system and a routine at home; I don't want to interfere with that."
Nikki sat back in her chair and relaxed. She smiled at me wide and then winked. I had no idea what the hell that was about but I rolled with it. It was the most comfortable gesture she had given me since I had been back.
"I think we are all pretty confident that Nikki is the right choice for this weekend," Brooke confirmed.
That surprised me. Brooke usually stayed quiet during these meetings, unless she had something very poignant to say. It felt like this was a direct message that she was sending to me. Whether or not it was, that is how I was taking it. I smiled at Brooke and then at Nikki. I nodded my head in response and the meeting was adjourned.
I finished my day Thursday and was very quiet at home that night. Penny and I were cordial but I was distant and I knew it. I loved her and I didn't want to upset her, but adjusting to this new set of rules was taxing me. I wasn't sure how to feel at home anymore. It was clear that the balance Vivian had provided in the house was not only for the game but for me as well. I missed her and still felt responsible for her leaving. I was working through it, but I was being very hard on myself.
I grabbed my bag the next morning loaded it with stuff for the weekend. Penny smiled at me during the entire ride to the office. When we arrived, I got out the car, but Penny did not. She simply blew me a kiss and turned the car back out of the office parking lot. I made my way to my office and threw my bag on one of my guest chairs before starting my day.
The day passed quickly though the office was very quiet. It was after 5 when Nikki knocked slightly on my office door.
"Almost ready to go," she asked.
"Sure, just let me know when you are ready," I confirmed.
"Ok, I'm ready," she snapped.
I watched as she spun around and headed back to her desk. I shut down my computer and grabbed my bag. As I arrived at Nikki's desk, she was on the phone. She quickly put the receiver down and smiled at me. She shut her computer off as well and grabbed her purse. Without a word I followed her out of the office and to her car. I tossed my bag in the back and Nikki handed me the keys.
"Take me home," she instructed me.
I did as I was told and climbed behind the wheel. We drove mostly in silence, with Nikki adding directions here and there. I pulled into the driveway of the quaint, brown townhouse where she and Monica lived. I shut the car off and looked over at her. She seemed annoyed and distracted.
"I'm sorry," I said to her.
"For what," she asked simply.
"For disrupting your life this weekend," I admitted. "I will try not to be in the way of you or Monica."
"You won't be," she informed me. "Monica and Brian are staying at my parents' this weekend."
This was certainly news to me. I hated to be an inconvenience. I had totally become a disturbance to their routine and I was angry with myself for that.
"Nikki, I didn't mean for this to happen this way," I clarified.
"Of course not," she giggled. "You had nothing to do with the decision."
She opened her door and stepped out of the car. She stopped when she got to the front door and turned to see that I had not moved. She smiled and gestured with her index finger for me to come inside. I grabbed my bag and exited the car, heading up the small walkway with a heavy heart. I wished this situation were resolved already.
I followed her into the house and dropped my bag in the living room. I took a seat on couch and really tried to become invisible. Nikki excused herself and went upstairs as I flipped the television on and drifted away in my mind. I looked around the room, not having spent any time in this place since Penny turned it over to Nikki and Monica.
There were a great many pictures of the two of them and even more photos of the newest addition to their family. He was such cute, chubby little guy. I could easily see why these two women were so in love with just one man. It made me smile and feel less of a burden as I moved my eyes from picture to picture. This place suddenly felt very comfortable and loving. I knew that must be a good feeling for young Brian.
Nikki returned, now in sweat pants and a t-shirt. She was wearing her glasses as well. I had only seen her wear them once before and I knew she disliked them very much.