I didn't really sleep well last night thinking about Sondra and what I had done. I felt bad and was going to have sex with my wife to try to connect a little but she was busy on one of the popular networking sites posting about her high school or something. I went to bed by myself and she stayed up until midnight or so, probably chatting with an old friend about who knows what.
I tried to focus on work today but my thoughts always came back around to Sondra. Why was I so attracted to this woman who has sex with perfect strangers she met in a park on a bicycle? Should I forget about it and pretend it never even happened? I have to see her again just to see if it clicks again like it did yesterday.
I got home, dinner was not ready, which was getting to be quite a habit with my wife, so I ate a few grapes, checked my email, and waited for my usual time to ride in the park. I suited up, was headed out the door.
My wife asks, "Didn't you just ride yesterday?"
I replied, "Yes, but I feel like riding today. It was a stressful day at work and I need to blow off some steam. This will help."
I don't even know if she heard my answer because she didn't say anything back.
I rode into the park and Sondra was not in place I saw her the day before. I rode down the secluded trail and there she was, waiting by the trail going back to the creek. This time she had a backpack, was wearing some shorts and a black ruffled sleeve shirt. She looked stunning, I don't know why, but I think she was even more beautiful than the day before.
We said our hellos and I locked the bikes to the tree again and we walked down that trail to the same spot.
I asked Sondra, "What's in the backpack?"
She replied, "A towel, a couple of bottles of water, and my cell phone. I got a splinter in my ass from the table yesterday and had a hell of a time digging it out."
We laughed together.
She took the beach towel out of the backpack and covered the table with it. We sat beside each other as we began a more serious conversation.
She started by saying, "I called my husband last night and Dave, I told him I needed some time away." Her voice trembled a bit as she continued, "He freaked out and started yelling, saying I won't get the house, or the car, and he would see to it my membership at the country club was cancelled. It freaked me out because he never once said he wanted to talk about it or anything. I feel kind of rejected. Maybe I deserve it for cheating or something, you know, karma."
I could only say, "I'm so sorry, Sondra. I don't know what to say."
She said, "I'll tell you what, though. You showed me something yesterday that I don't know if it's good or bad. I loved the time we spent together yesterday and wouldn't trade it for anything."
I agreed. We had done a bad thing, but maybe it cleared up the realization that neither of us were happy with our current relationships.