Chapter 2. The Massage
If I have to use one word to describe my relationship with Niena after she performed one of the most memorable blow job of my life, it would be indescribable.
We are definitely not dating or together in any terms, she made that abundantly clear after that night, saying that she is not really looking for a serious relationship for now. On the other hand, she is not seeing other guys after she broke up with Klaas, which I take as a good sign. She and I joked as usual, hugged and kissed as usual, but aside from that there are no further actions of endearment. And it is not like I have not been trying. Ever since that last blowjob I have been greatly encouraged. I tried every chance I can to establish physical intimacy. A hug from behind next to kitchen table, or a kiss before we leave for work seems acceptable to her, but any time I progress to her chest or lower abdomen, I was met with a gentle push away or a firm grasp on my wrist.
"No sorry I am not in the mood." Who would have thought that seven little words would become the source of all my frustration, anxiety and insecurity? My mind immediately opted for the worst-case scenario, that she regretted that night, that nothing essentially changed between I and her, that soon again a new Klaas will show up and I have to brace myself for that.
It was with this mood that I entered our Sunday cleaning session. Sunday was the day we cleaned our apartment. While I am not famous for my cleaning skills, Niena is generally quite competent in cleaning and directing how to clean. So quite naturally I became her lovely assistant. Cleaning makes her very happy, but it also inevitably makes her very tired. This weekend we had a lot to clean given that we just removed our Christmas tree, and leaves and twigs were everywhere. For a whole afternoon we cleaned the apartment from top to bottom, it was until 7 o'clock that we were finally done, and were eating a pizza with gin tonics.
"God I am exhausted. I feel like my arms might fall off and my wait would dislocate from my spine." Niena complained loudly, with half a pizza in her mouth.
"Well," I commented " Sorry love but this is your fault. You bent down too much when you clean."
"Yeah, and someone ogres my caboose too much when I was cleaning. " Niena laughed " If you spent half of the time you used looking at my ass in cleaning, we would have been done a lot faster."
"Well sorry I am a guy. "I faked a tone that sounded like I was greatly wronged " and you do have a nice ass." I added with a smile.
" Oh how much do I love you." Niena shook her head. I was thinking to myself: "if you love me then why did we stop fucking", when Niena suddenly stopped talking, an exhale of pain interrupting her sentence.
"Damn, now I have muscle spasms." She said, with clear pain in her voice.
"Let me take a look." I approached, very concerned. "Does it hurt here?" I placed my hand on the muscle between her shoulder blade and her spine.
"Yes right there." She sounds surprised. "How did you know?"
"Well I am a pretty good masseur with some experience. Your problem is textbook." I shrugged and suddenly realize the potential lying before me. "I mean if you want I can give you a massage, should be able to alleviate the pain right away. We do have massage oil in the house. " I tried my very best to sound as nonchalantly as possible, suppressing the excitement and hope in my voice.
"A massage? I don't know. "she looked at me sheepishly, clearing suspecting something. " It always tickles me, and you have been trying a lot of funny business lately." Damn this girl is smart and onto me!
"Well Niena darling," I decided to pull out the big gun. I sat next to her and held her hand, using my sincerest voice and most innocent looks (she always says that whenever I gave her that look I reminded her of a pug that she loves)." I am just trying to help. It bugs me that you are in pain. And all this time you have known me, when have I failed you?" I looked at her with a beseeching look, hope that she did not notice that I danced around the "funny business" issue and just focused on the massage.
"Am I to be naked? "She asked.
" It is not necessary but I would work best if you are." I answered honestly, quite nervous to her answer.
She frowned a bit, making up her mind, and then said: "ok fine. Can you give me a minute, I want to shower first."
"Sure, take all the time you need. "I was so happy that she said yes and almost had trouble keeping my voice calm.
While she was inside showing, I began to prepare her room. I put a large beach towel down on her bed to prevent oil and other liquid from smearing her covers. I lit some candles, put down the drape, disconnected the phone and turned up the heat. I also put the oil in a small bowl and put the bowl in warm water, so that the cold sensation would not startle her. Last but not least, I stripped down to my underpants. It is a good thing that I have been working out these days and was in pretty good shape. While I folded up my jeans and put it in her chair, I slid a condom in the back pocket in case I get lucky. The moment I was done with my preparations, the bathroom room door opened and Niena walked out with a towel around herself. The water vapor made her blush, and her wet brown hair clung to her chest. She looked like Lady of the Lake, hauntingly beautiful.
She was a bit startled that I was already half naked, but soon curiosity was replaced by an appraising smile. It seems that she liked what she saw.
"So, Guru Rudie," She asked and sat down on the edge of the bed " How do we proceed?"
"You may want to remove the towel and then lay face down on your pillow. Let me know when you are ready." I turned away to grab the oil. For a while there was only silence, and I half expected her to change her mind. Yet eventually I heard the towel drop on the floor and her fumbling on her bed. Soon she spoke to me dreamily, her voice muffled by the pillow "OK, I am ready."
I took a deep breath, and turned around.