My name is Teri. I'm a 26 year old lesbian. I'm what some people like to call a "lipstick lesbian". I live in a small town in the Midwest, so as you can imagine it wasn't easy coming out of the closet. I had my first lesbian experience in college when I was 19, and I came out of the closet a year later. When I told my male friends, almost all of them either offered to "change me back" or asked "Can I watch." All of them, except for Jason.
"Teri, I love you, and I want you to be happy. If this is what you want, then I am 100% behind you," he said. I'm pretty sure that I broke is heart that day, as I know that he had a bit of a crush on me. I've known him since we were in grade school. We have always been friends, but we became really close after I came out. He's sweet, supportive, and always there for me. He has bailed me out of more than one scrape, and I can talk to him about anything.
For years, we would cook for each other, watch movies together, and he turned me on to hockey. When we were both single, we'd hang out over at his house on Friday nights, get drunk and talk about "girl trouble."
He didn't date much. He was always shy, and I told him that all he needed some confidence. He would always say "yeah, yeah, yeah," and open another beer. He had been on a two year drought when he started to date Jane. They had met on one of his many attempts in on line dating.
At first, I was thrilled that he was dating. My excitement ended when I met her. She treated him like shit. She would put him down and crack the whip. I chose not to say anything to him at first, because he seemed happy.
After hanging out with the two of them for two months, I had had it with Jane. We had dinner at his place, and he made his specialty, chicken with a white wine sauce over penne noodles. It takes all day to make, as the meat needs to marinate in wine all day, and the red peppers are slow roasted. She turned her nose up at it, and bitched about how it was "too sweet" and how he needs to go to a cooking school, and the next time, she would cook. He tried to hide it, but I know that her reaction crushed him.
The next day, I went to his house. I felt that I had to free him from this bitch. She wasn't all that hot, and she was too self centeredโthere was no way that she was that good in bed.
"Hey," he said as he hugged me. "What are you doing here?"
"I have something I really need to talk to you about."
"Sure," he said as he led me into his place.
I was really nervous. Not a lot of people like to hear that you don't like his/her lover. People get defensive. Especially people who are as fiercely loyal as J. I really didn't how he was going to react.
"What's up?"
"I really need to talk to you about Jane."
"Yeah, I need to apologize for her last night. She's been under a lot of stress last night, and I know that she came off a littleโ" He searched for the next word.
"Bitchy."
"Yeah. I guess that's the word."
"J, it's not just last night. I haven't seen her act as a loving person since I met her."
His face tightened, getting defensive. "You just don't know her."
"No, I do know her. I just don't like her."
"Well, I'm sorry that you feel that way, because I do."
"I'm not that sure that you do." I waited for a second, waiting for him to retort. He just sat on his couch and sighed. "Am I right?"
He tightened his jaw. He took a deep breath and just shook his head. "I guess you know me well enough to know that I don't."
"Then why the hell do you put up with her?"
"I don't know."
"Yes you do."
"I don't want to say."
"Why?"
"Because you'll think less of me."