How do you know if you're perfect for someone?
I thought Sarah was the girl for me. We met in college, she was a smart, studios girl with big ambitions. I was a charming slacker who was coasting on his ability to cram for tests and write decent papers the night before they were due. We met at a friend's house party (really just 20 bodies crammed into a kitchen) and struck up a conversation.
It was the kind of chat young people always engage in to try to hook up: Haven't I seen you in the library? Oh yeah, I hate that professor too. That's my favourite band!
She was pretty, and flirting with me as well. At 21 Sarah was radiant. Flowing chestnut hair, golden hazel eyes, soft skin. She was wearing a sort of soft pink turtleneck that hugged her curvy shape (she letter told me she'd packed on the dreaded "freshman 15" - more like 20 - and never lost it). She had very large breasts, a not-insignificant tummy roll, and pudgy upper arms, all of which were plain to see. Her jeans hugged her broad squishy butt. She had a glowing smile and a nice laugh, and she touched my arm when I joked about falling asleep in class.
We kissed that night, her mouth tasting of wine and desire. I wrapped my arm around her soft waist.
I walked her home in the wet fall night. She didn't invite me but we made a date to go for drinks later in the week.
I was nervous and horny as hell. I tried not to masturbate in the days leading up to the date but I was so excited I ended up having a wet dream, something that hadn't happened to me in years. God I wanted her.
The night in question came and I was vibrating with excitement. We met at the bar, which was cozy with wood panelled walls and candles on the table. We ordered our drinks and talked more. Lots of get to know you stuff like about our families and hobbies. When I was in the bathroom she moved her chair closer to mine, and soon we were sitting with our legs intertwined and talking about how cold it was outside, maybe I should crash at her place.
The moment we walked through her door we started to kiss again. She was wearing another turtleneck, which she later told me was to hide her body but in many ways enhanced her biggest assets. I pulled it over her head, revealing an overflowing, too-small nude satin bra. Her breasts juggled in the cups. Below was her squishy tummy, and she had delicious back little rolls under her bra straps. I undid the button of her jeans and pulled them down, she was wearing a mismatched thong that allowed some pubic hair to escape it's borders. She kicked off the jeans but left her wool socks on. I stripped like my clothes were on fire and got in behind her, kissing her neck and running my hands over her body, rubbing my cock against the soft skin of her ass, grabbing her heavy breasts and her soft tummy, then pushing my luck and sliding my hand into her panties and using her considerable wetness to gently rub her clit. She started moving and pushing her ass into my dick. I grabbed her hips and pulled harder. We continued like that for a few minutes, eventually her voice pitched up and her panting turned to a breathy 'yes, yes, yes' and she came, shuddering against my hand. I took her cue and came on her back, my semen dripping down into her asscrack.
She smiled at me over her shoulder and we lay down on the couch together, enjoying each other's skin.
We didn't do anything else that night. No, we decided to take it slow. One night we just made out. Another she jerked me off while watching a movie, slowly sliding her lotioned hand up and down my cock until I sputtered and splattered on her wrist and my chest.
Eventually we worked our way to full sex, me on top, thrusting hard, her ankles on my ass, until I spasmed a milky load into the condom.
That's how it started. We dated, then moved in together, and we were good for a while. We both graduated, and I got a decent office job which paid ok but was boring as hell. She applied to do her masters and then a phd. She was smart and organized, but kind of a stress-case. As the months rolled on, we are distant. She was always working, always stressed.
Our sex life slowed. At first it just became less frequent, but she seemed uninterested, seemed to be doing it out of obligation. Then it stopped entirely. I was rejected too often that I stopped making advances. Communication broke down. We were like two roommates who tried to avoid each other. We ate at different times, I slept on the couch half the nights.
Why didn't I leave? Two reasons. 1: I still loved her, and wasn't ready to give up the promise of those early moths. 2: I still lusted after her. I'd never met anyone I liked with such a delicious chubby body that made me so hard. And she had just the right amount of ambivalence about her shape to drive me wild. Sometimes she had seemed embarrassed of her pudginess, trying to hide her tummy with her hands, which meant she was so grateful for my lusty advances that she let me do crazy things to her: tonguing her asshole, fucking her feet, rubbing my cock all over her face, summing in her armpits. But all of that was a becoming a distant memory.
The first time she caught me masturbating I tried to hide it. I managed to get my cock away before she came in the room but there was no way to hide video of the chubby woman getting a full face a cum on my computer screen. She pretended nothing happened. I was embarrassed but we got past it.
Or at least, we didn't mention it again. More time passed, and I realized I was going insane with horniness. Something clicked in me and I decided to say: fuck it. I started jerking off openly. I came in her bra cups and panties and left them in the laundry basket. I jerked off in the shower, making no effort to hide the sounds of my orgasm. And then the day that changed everything.
She was coming back from the grocery store. I heard the front door open but Something had changed in me. I kept jerking off. She came into the room and said my name.
"Yeah?" I said, hard cock in hand, still stroking.
"Oh... I, uh... I'll ask you later."
"No, it's okay, you can ask me now."
Behind me, a woman with a fat ass was being fucked, doggy style.
"Can you turn that off?"
"Why?"
"I just wanted to know if you can make dinner."
"Sure, as soon as I finish this."
I closed my eyes and kept stroking, until I came all over the hardwood floors. I shuddered in my chair, then tucked my cock back in my pants and got some tissues to wipe up the cum.
"Okay, I can cook now. Any requests?"
I could see that she was rattled but again, she didn't say anything about it. I wasn't sure what had happened to her libido. Was it just the stress? In any case, I was emboldened.
I started trawling the chat rooms and forums, trying to find anyone to talk smutty to me. Online I was a kinky sex god, fucking and sucking and stoking and licking. But that was all a fantasy.
In real life I was becoming depressed. I know I should have confronted the issue. I should have said, "Sarah, our physical relationship has vanished. It's very important to me to have physical intimacy, and sex is a part of my life I'm not ready to live without. So let's either work on this and figure out what's come between us, or I'm going to have to find alternatives." The alternatives were to leave, or to start fucking anything that got me hard. Which to be honest, was most things.
And so, were come to Stella. Stella was the receptionist at my work (although at some point she was promoted to office administrator). Stella was a big girl herself. She was short, with brown hair, thick sturdy legs, and the most mammoth perfect tits, which she displayed proudly. I mean, seriously, She stretched the limits of office-appropriate clothing as much as she stretched the cotton fabric of her sweaters with the immensity of those tits. And she liked me. She flirted shamelessly, calling me 'sexy', and 'hot stuff' whenever I passed by. But to be honest, my will was eroding.
One day I went into the supply closet to get some toner for the copier. I was up on the stepladder when the door opened behind me and Stella walked in.
"Can you grab me a box of pens?" she asked, looking up at me coyly.
"Sure thing," I replied. I grabbed the box and stepped down but she was right at the base of the ladder, so I sort of bumped into her chest. I stared down at that valley of flesh and instantly became hard. And she knew it. She stared down at the tent in my slack and smiled.
"What are you gonna do with that?"
'Uh, sorry."
"Oh, I don't mind," she said, giving me cock a playful squeeze.
"Oh fuck," I said, closing my eyes.
"What's wrong?" she said with mock innocence, sticking out her bottom lip. "Oh, is it these?" She squeezed her tits together with her upper arms and waggled them in my face.
"Shit," I said and grabbed my cock through my pants.
"Go ahead, I won't tell."