You know that lovely, peaceful time, lying beside your lover, embracing after making love successfully? Well, Susanna and I were in such a contented mood. Our warm relaxed bodies resting side by side after the wild intimacy of a few minutes ago, resulting in delicious orgasms for each of us. I was resting one hand on her groin, squeezing the soft flesh between her thighs affectionately. I sighed contentedly. Such peace. Such love. Such happiness. Not having been together for a few days, we were both hungry for love making - exploring our warm, soft bodies with all their bulges and secret crevices. Searching for the mystery within the dark recesses of the inner body. Mmmm! Sheer heaven.
And we had all week-end to indulge ourselves in the Dolphon Square flat.
We turned to look into each other's eyes. Susanna's skin smelt great. She has a really nice baby-like smell to her. Which I adore. So arousing. I smiled fondly at her, but she had a curious, serious look about her face. After searching my eyes intently for a few moments, she spoke.
'Sarah - I want to tell you something. Something about my past. Do you mind?'
'Of course not darling. You can tell me anything - you known that.'
'I've been thinking about it for a day or two now. It was all brought back to me when we saw the film that other day.'
'What - Notes on a Scandal?'
'Yes.' she dropped her eyes to avoid my questioning look. Then she turned her eyes to me again, with an intense expression in them. 'Kiss me Sarah. Tell me you love me,' she implored.
I rolled onto my side, taking her in my arms to kiss her mouth deeply and tenderly. I was intoxicated by the taste of her.
'Come on Sue. I love you dearly. What's worrying you? I know I'm not your first lady lover - is that what this is about?'
'No,' she replied. 'But you're right, I was introduced to girl on girl last year. But this was real boy on girl sex.'
'What?' I thought the worst! 'Not underage sex...?'
'Oh, no no no no!'
I looked at her for a few seconds. I could see she was troubled. 'Tell me darling. I won't judge. I won't be jealous.'
With an unexpected laugh, she said 'Do you know your Shakespeare?' I didn't reply. Just smiled at her in encouragement. '"So may the outward shows be least themselves", he wrote... and "there is no art to find the mind's construction in the face." You see, he knew that you just couldn't tell what's in a person's head by their appearance. I mean... take you and me. When we're nicely washed, dressed and cleaned up, chatting to the parishioners, who could possibly guess that our minds are awash with lecherous thoughts?'
I smiled. I must admit, I often think that the person I am talking with would never believe what I was really thinking about. I have an obscene mind. And I know Sue's is the same! I can't explain it.
Anyway, this is the story she told me - or the confession she made - whichever you prefer!
Andrew was the head of the boy's choir in the church. He was eleven when we moved to that parish and had an outstanding boy soprano voice. Your Simon will understand what I mean (she was referring to my husband who was the organist and choirmaster at church). And he was a clean, well-presented boy. Well, I am a trained singer - though not brilliant - and I play the piano, so it was suggested that I coach him a little. Take him through some of his pieces. Which I did, both of us enjoying the weekly sessions.
It also gave the choirmaster the opportunity of coming round to see me. I think he fancied me actually. But I was a very moral person, even though I often did have improper thoughts - indecent fantasies. I would never have cheated on Peter, even though I speculated on the physical attributes of the choirmaster. He was a charming guy, openly flirting with me in a light way. I liked him.
I was a virgin when we married. Rather unusual, I'm told. I had a happy childhood, with my mother explaining all about sex and relationships to me. She helped me a lot. The whole family went to church - firm believers. Anyway, of course I went to parties and things as a teenager - petted and kissed and fondled. But never fucked - or went the whole way, as we used to call it in those days!
Then Peter came along, we fell in love - well I thought it was love at the time - and married. I lost my virginity that night of course - but it wasn't all that spectacular an event. Peter has never been highly sexed, or particularly physical. Not that I knew any different in those days. Well, I had a daughter, but the birth was a difficult one and meant that I was unable to have any more children. That upset me, because the one thing I wanted more than anything else, was a little boy. It's not that I don't love Jennifer - goodness me, of course I do - but I just wanted a boy.
Anyway, this lad, Andrew became almost a member of the family - I think he was filling in for the son I never had. He ran errands for me, did little jobs, played silly games together - I helped him with his homework. And for five years he was almost a son to me. I watched him grow up - his voice break (goodness, did I pull his leg about that!!) - the down grow on his upper lip.