I looked up from my book, baffled that I was really on a plane beginning its decent. Am I really doing this? I must have lost my mind.
It had started as a flicker of attraction. Seeing someone's picture and thinking – now that is my definition of hot. Then I didn't really think much else of it ... he was halfway across the country and definitely out of my league.
At some point, we started talking. I honestly don't remember what our first conversations were about. They weren't regular – and still aren't. Sometimes I think that is part of what I like – he's busy with his life, and I'm busy with mine. I usually don't find people without a life of their own, without goals and hobbies, attractive.
But I never thought I'd be flying somewhere for the sole purpose of seeing him. Now that the plane was landing, it was starting to feel more real. The draw of being with him was simply too strong for me to resist. I just hope that if the electricity is as strong as we expect; that I'll be able to go back to how I was.
The shuttle driver tried to make small talk, to which I gave tactful but short answers. I had too much going through my mind to carry on a conversation. A mixture of excitement and worry swam through my veins. Excitement at finally being close enough to this person who electrifies me to see where the spark leads. Worry that the spark might not lead anywhere; or worse – that I've been fooled.
I checked into the hotel ... glancing at my watch. He should be here in about an hour – I only needed to call and let him know what room. But before I call, I had looked up a little place in town and made an appointment. He has a thing for feet – so I want mine to be perfect. I hope that the pedicure will help me relax a little as well.
It's hard not to imagine the hands on my feet are his. As they are soaking in warm water, I call to tell him the room number. He doesn't answer – so I leave a voicemail – and start to worry. What if this is all just a joke to him? To see if he can get a woman to come so far ... I push the thought from my head as the technician asks what color I want my nails painted. I smile wickedly before answering "French."