The Restaurant filled up fast; the line for tables spilling out to the sidewalk and into the embarcadero center close to my groups patio seating.
"Shit, check that out. Good thing we got here early." My friend Sean sipped the last of his mango margarita on a 12 o'clock Wednesday Cinco de Mayo afternoon.
I was lunching with friends for the fiesta occasion. We talked about jobs and spouses and futures. The drinks flowed freely and in no time the patio was a cacophony of voices and clinking glassware.
In the miles of people I saw him; the guy who came into my coffee shop nearly every morning like clock work 8:30am every weekday Monday through Friday. Tom. Ever the stylish dresser he strolled in wearing a brownish gray suit with a peach colored oxford shirt, no tie; his floppy brown hair he smoothed back in vain for it fell onto his forehead no matter what; his signature boyish bounce walk that I so loved, he went directly to the hostess stand bypassing the line with his friends in tow.
Tom's friends, more likely co-workers, followed his lead. Stereotypes of any office; the tall lanky one with the spider legs, the average Joe, dressed in a polo shirt and khakis with a day planner under his arm, the loner guy who spends too much time at his desk and lacks any sun radiance, who looks to the floor not wanting to be noticed. Tom stands out from his co-workers and it seems he doesn't wish to be seen with any of them. He walks straight to the hostess; smart boy Tom was keen enough to call ahead for reservations.
I try to remain engaged in conversation but find it close to impossible; I know that he's spotted me and he knows I know, yet pretends and plays off like he hasn't seen me, and I in turn do the same. A game we play, who wants the other more, and who's willing to risk.
His quick steps take him near the back of the restaurant towards the bar, far out of my sight. It kills me knowing he's there. All notions of keeping up appearances for my table bound friends disappear, I excuse myself, lay my napkin on the table. I had to find him.
Heart pounding. Palms sweating. My breathing is heavy. I make my way through diners and barmaids, busboys and alcoholics. I prowl towards him. All people in my way are mere sketch drawings compared to my lovely. They're gray and empty all lacking something to make the complete, shadow drawings, incomplete and unfinished. Tom is vivid Technicolor; he stands out in the crowd beacon like calling me to him. I plan to walk past him and make my way to the ladies room, hoping that on my way out he might stop me for a chat. All fails while passing, he grabs hold of my wrist.
"Hi, Fancy seeing you here, I had no idea." He purrs with a slight accent.
"Oh, Hi. Having lunch with friends huh?" I stumble over words.
"Um yeah, well people I work with anyway," his grip tightens, "you going to be around for a while then?"
"Um yeah. My friends are outside, so I'll probably be hanging out for a little while longer."
"Great, well how bout a drink before you run off. Catch me before you leave okay."
"Yeah, sounds good."
I walked to the ladies room thrilling in a kind of victory. I checked myself in the mirror. Nice. My blue eyes glittered in joy. I could see my cheeks were flushed. I reached for my hairbrush and smoothed back my hair, giving the long dark locks loving strokes. I applied my pink lip-gloss and made a quick kissey face in the mirror. Gorgeous.
When I exited he was there leaning with his back to the pale yellow wall. My spaghetti strap fell down my shoulder making it bare and vulnerable. Tom took it upon himself to straighten it for me.
"Well the guys decided to lunch elsewhere, so you think you can escape your friends for a bit and have a drink with me?'
"Yeah, let me just go out and let them know. Give me a sec, I'll be right back."
"Sure, I'll be at the bar." He motioned to a bar booth.
Tom had been coming in our coffee shop regularly for nearly two years. At night before he left work he'd tap gently on the shop's glass window and wave goodbye; the girls would swoon, but I knew he only had eyes for me.
We ordered drinks. I had a Tuaca on the rocks and he ordered a Gin and Tonic. Sipping away we re-iterated things we knew about one another in an attempt at conversation outside of our usual environment. He was an economist and lived in the North Beach area of San Francisco, but was originally from Sweden, where his parents still resided and where he would visit on holidays. He was 37 and unmarried with no girlfriend and a 90 hour work week.
"I suppose you could say I'm married to my job really." A sip taken from his glass
He was a habit loving creature, in every morning at the same time with the same bagel and in again at 10am for his second cup of coffee. I could set my watch to Tom's schedule. I always made sure to work my ten-minute break around his second cup. It was outside he'd find me furiously smoking down a cigarette and sipping espresso. He'd come to me and stand only inches away, look deep into my eyes, his lips almost too close.
"So, how's your day going?" He'd look straight at me and grin a grin of one with a pervy mind.
I always felt heat between us. There was a deep unsaid lust with us. I wanted to kiss those pinker than usual lips. He knew I got off on him and he devoured the power it gave him. Tom loved to tease.
"So when are you due back?" I asked while fiddling with my straw and stirring my drink.
"Doesn't matter. I was actually thinking of working from home for the remainder of the day. And you? You must have today off then, cause I didn't see you this morning."
"Yeah, I've got today off. Some of the guys said they were getting together, so I decided to come down and meet them, you know."