"Hi...you got it done in the end then? Did you get everything you wanted?" I said to Trudy as she walked in through the door after her trip to London.
She smiled, a little nervously I thought, as if something I said had struck a chord.
She should have been away for only one night, but in the end had stayed for two. She had called early on the morning of the day that she was due to return home to say that negotiations had not gone well yesterday, and that unless they came to an agreement later that day she may have to stay another night. I got a text later, saying she would not be home - things had actually gone ok and had been resolved, but the client had insisted they go out to celebrate that night, so she had no choice but to stay over again anyway.
This was fine...no suspicions entered my head...I fully believed her, I had no reason not to. It had happened before. No biggie.
I had been trying hard to build some normality back in to our lives, get back to our routine, after the mind blowing "holiday" we'd recently returned from; trying desperately to drag her out of her black mood (no pun intended, but very ironic in the circumstances).
Looking at her now though, I don't know why, but I felt uneasy. Something wasn't right I could just sense it.
Sat at the dining table, I tried again to reassure her, do what ever I could to keep hold of some semblance of our relationship and to move on.
"Look, I know you're still thinking of Soloman...and as much as it makes me jealous, I understand it. I get it...Jesus I almost wanted to fuck him myself he was that good...but you have got to let go and live your life. Mourning him is not what he intended. In fact I think he fully expected you to spread the gospel...to convert your girlfriends to black cock". I laughed at the thought of Trudy telling the girls at work that they should all ditch their husbands and boyfriends and go fuck a black pool guy in Spain!!
I was rambling on, trying to lighten the atmosphere, to make her smile or laugh...normally something I excelled at. I even offered to take her out to find another guy she could fuck in front of me, to get her mind off Solomon.
Part way through my diatribe she cut me off...she said simply..."I have a confession to make..." My mouth clamped shut immediately and I stared at her intently, as she stared at her plate...her eyes moist with tears. My stomach did a back flip...I knew what was to come next was not going to be something I wanted to hear.
"What?" I said..."What have you done...?" My voice trembling with my own emotion.
She took a deep breath for courage, then blurted out..."My first night away, I fucked another man in my hotel room..." I was about to speak, but she held her hand up to stop me..."last night, I went to a party, not a normal party...a party where sex is the on the main menu, not food and drink...and I was taken by so many cocks I actually lost count...and two women." It seemed she did get everything she wanted then...no wonder she looked nervous following my innocent comment when she walked in the front door.
I just lost it. I went mental. Accused her of cheating...breaking the rules, destroying us...my world was beginning to fall in around me...what had I started? She let me rant for 15 solid minutes, calling her names I was ashamed of later. My only excuse was fear...fear of losing her.
After I had blown myself out, like a Tornado downgraded to a bag of wind, she said in a soft, calm voice..."Firstly, I did not break the rules here, I just bent them, no not even that, I advanced them, admittedly without your agreement, but if you remember the rules we made we agreed that you would always be there to watch "for now"...not forever. I just moved up the timeframe"
She was on a roll now...putting me back in my place.
"Secondly, I made a promise to Soloman to take only black cock from now on...I intend to respect his wishes...so you must know you will never fuck me again"
Thirdly...and most pointedly...she said. "You started this. You have no right to complain you bastard. You have backed yourself in to a corner with your own fantasies...for years you wanted other men to fuck me while you watched...for years I secretly craved other men fucking me, because you couldn't perform or satisfy me...you freed me, you made me who I am now, so you have no right to be pissed off."
"You know what's funny" she continued..."You made me go to counselling because you said you could not live in a sexless marriage, refused to go without sex, despite how pathetic you were at servicing me..." She laughed out loud, then went on..."And yet here we are...as a result of that counselling, you spewed out your desires about being cuckold, and now, YOU ARE in a sexless marriage you dumb fuck, because my body will never be yours...you brought this on yourself..."
BOOM...right there baby...fucking B.O.O.M. pipe bomb delivered and she was spot on...I could not argue, no leg to stand on at all. Made my own bed...had no option but to sleep soundly in it, if I still wanted to be with her. And despite it all I did.
We were both silent for a while...then she said soflty, almost apologetically, "I did feel like I was cheating on you, especially the first night in the hotel when it was more intimate...I felt so guilty that I asked him if it was ok if we took photos, and even videos of us...so I could send them to you...kind of involving you, so you could still watch me, but from afar rather than in the room...I thought that you'd be ok with that, but then I bottled it and didn't send them..."
"The second night, at "the party" - well, phones / cameras weren't allowed...privacy was sacred so I couldn't if I wanted to. Oddly, I felt less guilty about last night, probably because I felt safer with all those people around...I didn't feel vulnerable. It didn't feel like cheating, more like 'sampling' or trying shit out, you know like a sex conference.
"Who was the guy in your room" I asked...
"The customer...the guy I was negotiating with, the guy I needed to get sign-off from on the new deal."
"Please, don't tell me you fucked him just to get him to sign on the dotted line...that's just bleeding cheap..."