This is the first time I have written from a woman's perspective, I hope you like it. Some of the following is based on real occurrences.
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I saw my reflection in the shop window. I looked OK, I was pleased. I was still not sure if I was doing the right thing however. Why was I walking down the street to meet him; someone who I had never physically met before, but someone who probably knew more about me, about what made me tick, about very intimate things in my life, than anyone else on the planet. He even knew more about me and my lifestyle than my husband did.
The reflection showed a 40 something woman, dressed in smart tailored skirt, with the hem just a couple of inches above the knee. A tailored jacket covered a blouse with just a couple of buttons undone to show the slightest hint of my cleavage. What the reflection didn't show was the expensive lace bra and panties underneath my outer clothing. I was glad I looked good as my confidence was not that high; I needed a boost. I was so unsure of what the next few minutes or hours would bring.
So, let's backtrack. Why was I walking down the street?
My name is Mary; it's not actually but I need some privacy! As I have said I am a 40 something woman. I have a pampered lifestyle mostly due to my husband's successful career. This career sees him travel extensively and he now has little time for me and my needs. My children have flown the nest so it just leaves me to find my own interests and hobbies. I will admit that I have not been an angel and have played away from home with both men and women. Not enough times or with enough emotional baggage to risk the marriage, but something that had to be done at the time. There, I've said it. Let's move on.
One of my hobbies is reading and writing erotic literature. Not the sort of stuff that often frequents the internet but some subtle stuff, that builds up to a crescendo. Stuff that's mostly believable but that doesn't mean it's not strong; and I have written on subjects many people would consider to be unacceptable. I also like having email correspondence with like minded individuals; writing stories together and developing ideas. Again, I like it to be believable and while not cutting down on the fantasy of the writing, I have a problem if it's too out of touch with reality. I like writing in the first person too. I also like sharing some photos with the people I write with. Despite the lack of attention afforded to me by my husband, he does like taking erotic pictures and I have often shared them with my co-writers.
Which brings us nicely to why I am walking down this street in London. Some time ago a fellow writer on Literotica wrote to me saying how much he liked one of my stories and how he had then read a few of my other ones. He said he liked my style, the fact that there was a sense of reality and in some cases a slow build up. I then read some of his stories and in many cases there was a similar style. To cut a long story short I emailed him back, thanked him for his comments and suggested we start writing together. So we did. I will call him Fred. Every so often I had to remind Fred that we had to keep things realistic. We were writing about us in the first person and we were writing about mature people; so for example a mature man having sex six times a night may happen in some stories but frankly it is wishful thinking for most men!
Fred was very good and would change his storylines if I thought it necessary. I was obviously in charge of this developing story!
Based on his comments, he clearly enjoyed the pictures I sent him and our writing developed well. I must admit I was very pleased with what we were achieving and also have to admit to looking forward the next instalments, sitting down with a glass of wine reading the story develop and I don't mind admitting getting aroused at times as things progressed. We covered all aspects of a sexual relationship with explicit detail as appropriate.
After a while however, I got bored. I didn't think the story could go any further, so with the beauty of the internet being anonymity, I didn't bother responding to Fred. He dropped me a couple of emails and left a nice comment on one of my stories, but as far as I was concerned it was a nice thing that happened, we had fun, nobody got hurt, no relationships got damaged. Move on.
Eventually I got an imploring email from Fred, asking me to respond and asking me why I had just stopped communicating. I have to say he was correct. Why hadn't I the decency to explain why I stopped communicating. Had he upset me? It was common decency wasn't it, even if decency was not something we covered in our story!
Anyway, I did answer him and we then started chatting via email. We didn't try writing together again, but did tell each other about good stories we had come across on the internet.
Then one day Fred wrote to me saying; "I would really like to meet up. No strings, no agenda. Just a coffee to say hi and catch up. I feel we know each other so well, it would be nice."
Unfortunately this email arrived on a day when I was at a particularly low ebb. My husband had emailed to say he would be away for another week, my kids cancelled a planned visit, so as you can imagine, I was therefore susceptible to someone being nice. I wrote back thanking him, but declining as I was not sure it was a good idea. He immediately responded with another bunch of reasons why it would be a good idea and reiterated the no strings or agenda. So I agreed. Which is why I was approaching the agreed coffee bar, with my heart in my mouth and more nerves than a teenager on a first date.
Fred had sent one picture to me, so I had a rough idea what he looked like. To add reality to our stories we had also described ourselves to each other so I recognised him straight away as I entered the coffee bar.
He had seen a number of my pictures, some clothed some not, and stood up and smiled at me as I entered the bar and walked towards him. He held his hand out to shake mine. I was pleased he didn't try and kiss me.
"I am so pleased you agreed to meet me," he said.
"Thanks," I said, "but I am not sure it is or was a good idea," I added, but smiled at the same time.
"Let me get you a coffee, and by the way, it's so rude of me, you look great," he gushed, looking me up and down in an appreciative way, but thankfully not a lustful way.
He went to the counter and soon returned with my drink.
"So we meet at last," he said breaking the silence.
I nodded. "Yes it's very strange as we know so much about each other, but then again so little."
"Yes," there was a pause. An awkward pause for a moment.
"How are things at home, is you husband still away a lot?" Fred asked.
I nodded as I sipped my coffee. "Yes, same old same old," I smiled. It was funny, it didn't seem wrong to say that as Fred knew so much about my problems and loneliness.
"He must be mad," Fred said. "Leaving a lovely women like you so often. "
I shrugged my shoulders.
"I know I said it before," Fred said, "but I really liked your pictures. They were great and helped me in the writing. Talking of which, I am sorry I lost the plot a few times and lost all sense of reality."
"That's OK," I answered smiling, "and I am sorry I didn't have the decency to say the story had run its course in my opinion."
Fred smiled. "No problem." He looked around to make sure we were not being overheard. He leant towards me. "That piece I wrote about the toys when we went to your house makes me squirm with embarrassment. I don't know what got into me!"
"Yes," I said laughing as I remembered the story, "that was a bit strange. Even for you Fred!"
He took the dig well. "Well we live and learn."
The conversation then really started to flow and we were getting on really well. Again, I had to remind myself that I had written about this man fucking me, making me cum. Sucking his dick. I had written about posing for him. We had shared every intimate moment; about what we say and do at the point of orgasm. Our sexual likes and dislikes. Our experiences; both good and bad. Yet we had never seen each other before, never seen each other naked and exposed and here we were chatting like old friends.
With our coffee was long since finished, Fred asked if I wanted another. "No thanks," I replied, too much caffeine and I will be bouncing off the walls."
It was nearly lunch time. Fred asked if I would like to join him for lunch.
I put my hand out and gently touched his. "Fred, this has been great, better than I could have hoped for but unfortunately I really do have to go. I am not making it up as an excuse because I would love to have joined you for lunch. You are such easy company.........."
I stopped before I made a fool of myself. I really had enjoyed meeting him and talking and he really didn't seem to have an agenda or any strings."
"Ok," he said, "but I have to ask you one thing before you go."
"OK," I said hesitatingly.
"Do you think we could write together again?"
I hesitated, because I wasn't sure. "Probably."
"Good," Fred said in a relieved way. "Then I want you to think about what I am going to say."
I looked at him quizzically.