I am addicted to porn. I don't attempt to deny it, although I'm not outward about it. If asked, I admit to watching some, but in reality, rarely a day goes by that I don't watch a fair amount.
I have my favorite sites, as do most folks who watch porn. Sadly, I often see the same videos repeated endlessly, and it's very rare for me to come across something new which excites me. It's like a double-edged sword. I watch more and more to find something special, but find less and less because I'm always online looking.
The relevance of my addiction to pornography in this story will become evident shortly.
I wake up early very every day. Not to an alarm, it's just what my body does. My wife Erin, on the other hand, loves to sleep in. Rarely a day goes by that she's up before 9am, a luxury granted her because of her work schedule.
My daily morning routine consists of getting up, making coffee and sitting down with my phone and starting my search for exciting porn. As per usual, I woke up today around 5am, staring out the window as my coffee percolated. I love staring into the distance, waking at my pace, smelling the wonderful smell of brewing coffee as I anticipate the first sip.
When my coffee was ready, I poured my first cup and took my regular seat, picking up my phone and unlocking it. I went to my regular sites, Pornhub and XHamster being the most frequented. Unfortunately, nothing I was seeing was new or exciting to me, something that was far too frequent. I searched wider, extra bored this morning having woken up even earlier than my usual. I started searching for sites I'd never visited, sites with fetishes and other more obscure topics.
Further and further down the rabbit hole I fell, finding some sites which I would consider disgusting, while others were somewhat interesting, or had some decent material mixed in with the nastier. It was while checking out some of these sites I'd never visited when I stumbled upon one consisting mostly of bondage and cuckold type materials. While bondage has never been high on my list of preferences, cuck material often is.
Let me back up a bit. My wife Erin and I are not into the cuck lifestyle, but I have shared her with other men on many occasions. There is simply something I love about watching her get fucked by other men that excites me. I have never been able to fully explain why this turns me on, but it does.
We were married for about 3 years before I first broached the subject of hotwifing, having watched a great deal of that type of porn before bringing it up. Erin was reluctant at first, expressing concerns that I'd be jealous, or that it could destroy our relationship, but I assured her that her concerns were unfounded, and eventually she agreed, with rules. One of those rules is that we don't play without the other person present unless discussed in advance. Another, obvious one is safe sex only. Eventually, one fateful night, we invited one of my best friends to our home and after a few drinks, I filmed the entire encounter, right from flirting, to him cumming down Erin's throat. I still get hard when I watch that video from 20 years ago.
I don't always just watch Erin and her lover. Most of the time, I've had sex with her at the same time as the bull, having MMF threesomes. The difference between what we do, and the cuck lifestyle, is that there is no degradation or humiliation involved. We have mutual respect. I just love sharing my redheaded vixen with other men who appreciate her for what she is.
What is she, you might ask? Erin is a late-40's ginger MILF, having had 3 children. She is 5 foot 8, with long, thick hair that flows down to her belt in heavy curls. She has a small waist still and perky bum from working out, along with C-cup breasts. If you think she sounds hot, you're right! Not only does she look hot, she acts as though she knows it also, and when it comes to the bedroom, she's nearly insatiable. Before I met Erin, I'd slept with a lot of women, but none measured up to her. On the night of our first date, she took me back to her place and blew me in front of her front window, facing a busy street, swallowing every drop of my very large load. From there, things just got wilder, with me eventually marrying her. To say that our sex life has been great would be an understatement!
Back to me surfing porn. I'd finished my coffee and went and poured another cup, staring out the window again as I took my first sip, enjoying the aroma as it filled my nose. I looked down at my phone again and scrolled down, ignoring the heavy bondage, humiliation, and similar. As my finger slid down again, I paused. I couldn't possibly have seen what I thought I'd seen. I slowly scrolled back up, searching for the image I thought I'd seen. When I found it, I paused. "Wow", I whispered to no one in particular, "she looks just like Erin."
It wasn't the first time that a ginger in porn had reminded me of my wife. In fact, I'd jerked off to many such videos, fantasizing that the woman in them was actually Erin. The woman in the video was laying on her stomach, face down on the mattress. Her legs and arms were tied to the 4 corners of the bed somehow with thick white rope. The very image excited me as I imagined it to be Erin laying there.
Just then, I heard Erin coming out of our room. While she is aware that I surf porn, I try not to shove it in her face, so I don't do it in front of her often. As per my usual, I closed my phone, hearing her approach. She came into the kitchen and I poured her a cup of java, kissing her briefly to say good morning. As usual, she looked ravaging. I've rarely met a woman who looks as good when she wakes up as when she considers herself ready for the day. We sat quietly together, sipping our coffee and talking about the usual before heading our separate ways and work.
I plugged away at my desk at work, bored but doing my duties. My mind kept wandering off, thinking about the woman tied up on the bed in the video. I had only managed to see the thumbnail image for the video, but hadn't been able to watch it before Erin woke. That image had been a snapshot, imbedded into my mind, and it kept finding its way into my active thoughts.