The wedding has been called off. Patty and Derek had been fucking for about six weeks or longer. I caught them after she had turned me down for a date. She told me she had to study for a test. I already knew that Derek had a hot date for that Sunday night and I was sure it was with Patty. I caught them in the act and Derek tried to punch me out but that did not work out because I had blinded them with my flashlight. I had slammed the car door on his head and left them in the park.
Patty came by Russ's apartment the next morning and tried to bluff her way though the situation. I showed her a part of the tape we had made of her and Derek. She then changed her tune and started to beg for forgiveness. I took her home and left her stand in the driveway crying.
It has been two months and I had not seen or heard from Patty. One afternoon Patty's' father came into the shop just after five o'clock and asked if he could talk to me. We went into the break room; I got each of us a cup of coffee.
He said, "Patty is pregnant. Do you know anything about it?"
I sat there with a stunned look on my face and said, "No sir, it is not mine. Patty would never let me touch her."
He asked if I had any idea of who could be responsible. I told him I had an idea but the answer would have to come from Patty.
I had moved out of my parents' house soon after I got back from Atlanta and got an apartment close to the garage. One night the phone rang. I answered and Patty said, "Hello Bob, How are you doing?"
I said, "I am doing okay. How are you doing?"
She said, "You talked to daddy the other day and you know I am pregnant. Did you tell him it was Derek?"
I said, "Patty, I told your father that information would have to come from you."
After a few seconds of silence she said, "Bob will you ever be able to forgive me? I wish I could go back to when you tried to talk me into being more intimate with you. I want to see you sometime if it is alright with you."
I said, "Sure, call me and I will meet you somewhere. But you need to get this thing settled with your folks. I don't want them thinking I got you in this predicament."
The next Friday night Patty called and asked if she could come by the apartment for a little while. I told her I was not comfortable with it but to come on. I picked up and straightened up before she got there. She came in and I still thought she was the prettiest girl I had ever seen. I should say woman now I suppose. She tried to kiss me but I told her I was not ready for that. I saw tears come in her eyes and she said, "Do you want me to leave?"
I said, "No, Sit down and we can talk. Do you want something to drink?"
I got both of us a coke.
We were silent for what seemed like a long time. I wanted her to start without me asking questions.
She finally said, "Bob, I am sorry that I have messed this up and I ask for your forgiveness. I didn't mean for it to happen. When I called you in Atlanta and hung up on you and then you turned your phone off and I tried to call you back. Bob, I got mad. I borrowed moms' car and drove around for a while. I drove to the drive-in and Derek was there. He talked me into going with him to the lake and I thought at the time that I was getting back at you but I know now I was just being stupid. After the first time it got easier but when you turned me down after you came back from Atlanta I knew I wanted to get out of the situation. I am so so sorry that I did this to us."
I said, "What are you going to do about the baby? Are you going to marry Derek, get an abortion, have the baby and keep it, or give it up for adoption?"
She hesitated for a minute and then replied, "I don't know. Mom and dad want me to marry Derek. I finally told them who got me pregnant. I can't marry him because I don't love him. I don't want to abort and if I carry the baby to full term I don't know if I could give it up."
She said, "Bob I don't know what to do. I know that I lost the one person I really love. I wish I could live those days over. I would be more responsive to your wishes. We could have done things without going all the way. I know that you would be a sensitive lover."
She started to cry and lay down on the couch. I didn't know what to do. I sat there for a few minutes and then got up and went to the bathroom and got a damp bath cloth and brought it to her. I pulled her upright and wiped her face and set down beside her. I put my arm around her and pulled her to me.
We sat like that for a while and then she put her arms around me and squeezed me so hard I could hardly get my breath. When her crying died down she removed her arms and leaned back and looked me in the eyes and said, "I love you so much. Will you make love to me?"
I said, "Patty, I will always love you but I don't feel right about that. I have wanted to make love to you for so long but I don't know if I can. The picture of you with Derek is still strong in my mind. You don't know what that did to me. My feelings are so mixed up right now. I want to throw you down on that couch, strip you naked and fuck you until you scream. The other me wants to go and throw up. I think it is best if we take it easy for now. I will hold you and kiss you and I may want to feel you up. I may want to play with your tits and run my hands over your legs and ass. If you think we can do that and when the time is right then we will make love, fuck, suck or whatever we decide. But I won't marry you and take responsibility for the baby."
We both stood and she said, " I will accept that. Can I come over to see you again?"
I said, "Patty, sit back down. I have to tell you this before we go any further. While I was in Atlanta, I had sex with a woman and her daughter. What I did to you and Derek was uncalled for and I am sorry I went that far. I ask you to forgive me. If we are to go anywhere with this relationship, we both have to forgive the other. If we can do that, we may have a chance. I am sorry to put you through all that. I have destroyed the tapes and if you can forgive me, I know that I can forgive you. We have to work on this if we are to have a life together."
She sat there for a while and then said, "Damn, We really fucked up, big time. I am so hurt but I don't have the right to cut you down any more than you did to cut me down. Give me some time to think this through. This sure puts a different light on the whole thing. Do you love either of the women?"
I told her, "No. We just had sex like you and Derek. It was something that happened. I am not proud of myself. I was like you in that you weren't speaking to me and I was lonely. I am sorry, Patty."
I told her to call me and I would like her to visit me again. She stepped into my arms and raised her face to mine. I leaned over and kissed her lightly on the lips. She pulled my head down and pressed her lips to mine with an open mouth and pressed her body to mine. She worked her tongue into my mouth. I got a hard on and she rubbed her stomach into it. I had to push her away. She left with tears on her face and I felt like I was watching the love of my life walk out of my life forever.