Watch Ourselves In The Mirror
© Michael Wood 2022
Watch Ourselves In The Mirror
Budapest, Hungary, Europe.
Brooke
As my eyes fluttered open, life being breathed into me as I lay in the comfy hotel suite bed, I instinctively reached over towards Jack. He'd obviously sunk so deeply into my subconscious already that I didn't even know I was doing it. Lying on my back, with my right arm reaching over my body towards the bedroom door (he, as my protector, slept nearest the door), my fingers felt... a sheet of paper.
My heart sank. The sinking feeling was accompanied by thoughts of his whereabouts. Where was he? Had he abandoned me after the perfection of last night and found someone else? I knew the thoughts were crazy but they still played anxiously and immediately in my mind. Thoughts about last night quickly came into my consciousness, though, as if my pure self was desperate to give me a reminder - and who could blame it?
Following on from this mind knot causing a tightening in my stomach, the slight rustling of the paper brought me more quickly to my senses. I half-sat up, bringing the sheet towards my face to read it.
'Morning, gorgeous. I've just gone to the shop to get some breakfast, I'll be back soon. X'
Wow. This man! What's the catch with him?
My body instantly relaxed as I smiled to myself, melting into the bed imagining it being him. I am struggling to cope now. My body, my mind, my heart, my soul - they're all in so deep, and I love it. But it terrifies me at the same time. Love is the stronger of the two emotions - by far - but the fear is unmistakably there, and I hope it doesn't bubble up.
Putting my fears aside, I sink deeper into the bed, my breathing deep and strong, and think back to last night. I can't actually believe it was me! Jack just brings out a side of me I didn't know existed. It's like I've been waiting my whole life to meet him so he can activate this wild, sexual woman that I love being.
Not long later, I heard faint footsteps, followed by a gentle opening of the door to our hotel suite. My body was instantly on fire, almost as much as it had been in the sauna the night before. My nipples hardened, my heart fluttered, and my clit twinged.
Flinging myself out of bed, I ran to the door and jumped into his arms before he'd barely had time to close the door. I wrapped my legs around him, and the force of my love and lust for him takes us into the wall, pressing him into it as he holds me, struggling to comprehend the surprise attack this ball of joy had brought for him.
"Wow, hi!" he mumbles into my lips as I kiss him deeply.
I pull away slightly, just far enough to look into his deep blue eyes, and feel myself utterly melting.
"I-"
Oh my God.
I was about to say that I love him.
Fuck!
I actually do.
But I can't tell him yet. It's not the right time. What if he doesn't feel the same? I think he does, but I don't know. I'm having too much fun to risk losing him! I'm in this for the long haul if I need to be, and I comfort myself with this thought: if we're going to be together forever, waiting a few days, weeks, or even months, to confess my love for this man won't really matter.
He told me last night that I looked possessed; I think what he saw was his possession of my heart.
"I saw your note," I stammered, trying to deflect from my true insight, "and it was the sweetest thing."
It didn't feel good withholding the 'L' word from him, but it's only a word - I just needed a bit more time before I could say it. 'I'll show him how much I love him for now instead,' I thought.
He smiled, and glanced over my shoulder. I knew that there was a wide, full-length mirror there, just next to the bathroom which was across the hallway from the front door.
"You're welcome, sweetheart."
"Are you checking out my ass?" I sassily asked him.
"What if I am?" he said playfully back.
"Well, if you are, I think you should do something other than look at it," I grinned, giggling.