I know that not all sex dreams are about sex; I've read enough amateur astrology and Cosmo magazine to tell you that. The ones I have about you, though, turned into daydreams a long time ago, and they are exclusively about sex, and nothing else...
After the big fight, we went our separate ways. I did my thing and you did your best to avoid me. I thought of you often whenever I caught sight of you.
When I suddenly found myself single one summer, my thoughts immediately turned to you. I reconnected with you, we got high together a couple of times, you invited me back to your house. You had a girlfriend, you explained, but she was out of the country.
I never, ever forgot the delicious sexual tension we shared back then, before. As we stand together on the porch, you awkwardly ask me if I want to do the temple thing. I gratefully accept, hoping to resurrect some of what we had.
Laying down in the hammock I settle in as you sit behind me, rubbing my temples. I swing back and forth and you rub, only occasionally breaking the silence to tell me some tidbit or the other. At first it is awkward. I'm nervous. I'm anxious about having hurt you so badly, I'm unsure whether your new, improved frat-boy self will be into me, and I'm also reminded in the back of my head that you have a girlfriend waiting for you on the other side of the ocean.
As I rock, and you rub, the tension starts to fade. Your voice becomes a little softer. The tidbits you share start to sound more wistful. You rub my temples gently for a while more then you stop. Your hand caresses the side of my face, gently wiping a strand of hair out of my eyes. I open up my eyes and see you looking down at me with a mix of sorrow and longing.
I am terrified. Instead of following my instincts, I blink, sit up and say, "ok, your turn now. Switch with me." Scooting out of my spot, I wait for you to get up from your chair, shift your shorts around uncomfortably, and settle in to the swinging hammock. I pull the metal folding chair a bit closer to the head of the hammock and start by rubbing your eyebrows. Rhythm is found pretty quickly and I move in to rub your temples. I can see your slight scowl, feel the taught muscles across your forehead. The angry, frustrated, lustful look on your face is all to familiar.
As I continue to rub, we chat occasionally and your brow starts to relax. All the stress of this situation leaves your facial muscles as you become more and more relaxed by my touch. You break the idle chatter by mumbling... "I still love you, you know." Looking down onto your face adoringly, I feel my heart soar.
I smile and you open your eyes to gaze into mine. "I'm...I'm sorry for what I did to you," I gently sputtered as we continue to lock eyes.
The corners of your mouth turn up slightly. "S'ok" you murmur, closing your eyes again.