After a rough week at the office, Sean could finally put away his blue prints and go home. All week long, while he was supposed to be updating plan designs for clients, his thoughts kept drifting off to a new neighbor and the desires she had unknowingly awoken.
Sean hadn't even met her yet. But he'd caught glimpse of her several times now over the last week. He couldn't find a good moment to introduce himself. She was gorgeous!
Dark, straight hair, cut short. Not a pixie cut. Just short, athletic looking. It worked for her face. As for the rest of her, having only caught her in fleeting glimpses, he guessed her to have a nice body but hadn't yet truly seen her enough to know.
He was so shy around ladies. He need not to be. He was handsome, jade green eyes, firm jaw and soothing smile. And he was in pretty good shape for his age. But he often lacked courage to initiate things. "I must be single for a reason," he'd always be telling himself.
Because of his lack of time and confidence, he hated the dating scene. But his human nature was pressuring him lately. A force was begging to be released. While he really needed to get off, he didn't want to just 'get off.'
As such, he'd been in a stalemate, both physically and philosophically. He didn't want to just go fuck someone. He wanted more. A deeper connection. But he was so horny! He needed physical interaction.
Instead of doing something about it, he poured his mind into his work. As the days became weeks, the pressure building within him kept forcing its way back into his mind. While frustrated, he was fascinated by the power of unnourished desire.
When it reached a point that he couldn't focus, he realized it was time to do something. He needed to at least introduce himself to his new neighbor. At the very least to determine if she shared any interest.
"I know, I'll bring get a welcome basket and introduce myself later." he said about his neighbor. "Now get out of my head and let me focus!" But no one was around to hear him. Everyone with a life left hours ago.
"Shit!"
It was 7:30. Sean clicked off his laptop, left his phone on in the desk drawer, locked it and headed back to home.
"I'm such a loser! Guess I won't be getting a welcome basket. Dammit. Friday night and I'm going home..."
On the subway trip home, his mind danced with thoughts of what to say. He wondered if he should wait a few weeks? Be cool? Give himself time to hit the gym and solidify certain features he'd paid less attention to of late? Like his whole body.
He had noticed the button on the slacks slightly harder to clasp these last few weeks. A sore shoulder had thrown him off his swim routine. His body was paying the price. Compared to most guys his age, Sean looked pretty good. But he also knew it was time to pull it together. As he skipped up the subway steps, two by two, out into the chill night air, he caught his reflection in a dirty window.
"This weekend, I'll get back at it!" he thought. Tomorrow. "Tonight, I need a drink!"
The Vandervelde metro station was only a short walk from his house. His home was very typically white washed with a red tiled roof. The Belgians weren't flashy like the Italians or Spanish. They built homes to keep the rain out. Perfunctory homes. The leafy Brussels neighborhood was how he liked things, quiet and calling for no one's attention.
He came through the front door and set his things down. Relief.
He grabbed a remote and clicked on his favorite music at the moment, Mussorgsky's "Pictures of an Exhibition." Music streamed through his speakers and filled the room. "Promenade," all brass, strings and woods, produced waves of sound that helped relax his tense mind and body.
"Now for that drink" he thought. Just as he reached in the antique liquor cabinet for a bottle of gin, his wrist bumped the top of a bottle with special memories, a Powers Irish whiskey that was given to him by an old friend. He poured a dram of the tawny liquid over a single cube of ice.
The music, along with the sear of the whiskey on his tongue, unlocked a memory long ago closed in his mind. An erotic souvenir of exhibitionism and voyeurism appeared in his thoughts. He was getting turned on.
As the symphony conductor transitioned from the soft strings of "The Old Castle" to the bird like flutes and trumpets of the "Tuileries," Sean stared into his glass as if it were a screen made of fluid, displaying a movie scene from that long ago night.
For the past few months, when his mind would drift off to fantasies, the primal side of his mental argument would begin to win the debate. "Oh forget it, I'll just jerk off," he'd say to himself.
But so often lately, when his mind would go there and the hardness would grow, he'd be interrupted, or couldn't be alone and just hadn't been able to relieve himself. No time, no privacy, no way to properly dispose of the built up passion inside.
Tonight he was finally alone with his thoughts, his music and memories. His rare state of privacy was charming. Subconsciously, his hand snuck beneath the waist band of his pants where it began to lightly tug the loose skin of his cock.
Sean was unaware that his cleaning lady had forgotten to let down the blinds in the front window. A large, rectangular window that allowed anyone passing to have a look inside his living room if the blinds were open.
Like his new neighbor, Sandra, for example. She was returning home early from a girl's happy hour downtown just as Sean settled onto his couch. Since she moved in, this was the first time she'd noticed his blinds weren't down.
Her front door allowed her a view into Sean's living room through the window. As she paused to look into her purse for keys, the clouds opened up and rain began streaming down. "Oh Brussels, how I detest thee!" she murmured.
As she grabbed the keys, she looked up. She noticed Sean on his couch. She wondered about him. Most guys trip all over themselves to say hello to her. This guy hadn't said one word to her since she moved in. He never pulled open his blinds. He never seemed to be home.
But there he was, loud music muted by walls. "Should I knock and introduce myself? Would that seem weird? Should he initiate that?"
"Where are my damn keys?" she said. She began wondering again what was wrong with her. Everyone told her how cute she was, how sharp she dressed. How pretty she was. How she'd be a good catch for any guy.
"Yeah, except there are NO guys in Brussels that aren't either married, full of themselves or mentally older than 13!" She found her keys and was about turn the lock on her door when she did a double take. "What is he up to?" She asked herself.