"
I'm a toy!
" she crooned, kissing me on the lips. "I'm a toy for all men!"
How did we get to
that
?
* * * * *
Twenty minutes earlier, we had been arguing on the street. "I hate it when you don't talk to me," I told her. "Your non-committal stuff really makes me insecure."
Carol looked frustrated. "That's not my intention. I just don't want to ruin your idea of me."
"That couldn't happen," I said.
"You don't know me," she said earnestly. "Girls can be much more nasty and perverted than men. You don't know what I'm thinking, most of the time."
That
sounded promising. "Honey, I'll know what you're thinking if you
just tell me.
" And that was the problem right then: She'd been "hmmming" and "uh-huhing" me since we'd met after class.
We were now walking down the street, hand in hand. The sunlight beat down on us, and she seemed to glow inside the beige smock she was wearing.
True to her dress code, it was short, whisping over her thighs. It rose formlessly to a tight, embroidered bust that hugged the curves of her chest, so that it seemed to hang straight from her breasts. Whether she knew it or not, the city breezes pulled at it mercilessly. It jumped around her legs whenever she took a step. I half wished I was across the street, so I could watch her walk by.
Bear in mind, I'd just met her after her class. She'd ridden into Manhattan on the subway, wearing that dress, as well as her panties, clogs, and a bag over her shoulder. She'd gone to her classes, climbed and descended stairs, and eaten lunch with a guy-friend of hers. She was really adapting well to our whole weird thing. For her to be suddenly demure was quite out of place.
"Okay," I said. "We'll make a no-judgement zone. Let's make a rule."
"Rules are good." She squeezed my hand. We turned the corner, and stepped into a brisk wind. New York does that -- it funnels wind into the avenues, so you can go from calm to windy in three steps.
My eyes were were on her, and I noticed how the wind kicked up the hem of her skirt. Her legs were long and muscular, and excellently shown off by her three-inch clogs. She took long steps to match mine, and her hips swayed in a sexy, cat-walk manner.
I said, "When we're holding hands, you can tell me whatever's on your mind. I can't make any judgments. If you take my hand, and you just talk, I
promise
, I won't say anything."
"We're holding hands now," she warned. "So you can't judge me." She sighed. "Since I started wearing these clothes all the time... Lots of guys look at me. And they talk to me. I'm talking to a lot of guys. More than ever before."
"That's wonderful," I said. "You
should
be talking to lots of men."
"What about us? You and me? Are we breaking up?"
I stopped dead. "Shit no!" I exclaimed. She looked relieved. "You can talk to as many men as you want! Just keep dating me! What the hell are they telling you?!"
"I'm getting into conversations that make me feel like a cheater. Like I'm cheating on you.
That's
what they're saying to me."
"Except that I'm fine with it." I said, and trailed off.
"You're angry," she said. She leaned against me quickly, brushing her face against my neck. She did that every now and then. She said she liked the roughness of my face, when I was unshaven. It was like she was pulling a little out of me when she did it. In lines at the store, when we meet, when hanging out with friends -- she would rub up against me, a little gesture from our lovemaking, in the middle of the world.
"No. I'm thinking of new rules," I said. "Rule: Once a day, you gotta have someone ask you out."
"What!"
"You feel like you're cheating. But you're not. Not really. If you're the center of attention, guys are going to ask you out. You can't help it."
We were standing on a street corner. I stepped around her and hugged her from behind, my hands gliding over her warm, flat stomach. I could feel every detail of her torso through the thin smock. She sank back against me.
"I've stopped jilling off in the morning," she whispered. She was abashed, her face down. "It's like part of the excitement now, to pull a dress out of the closet, and put it on. To spin in front of the mirror, and watch my legs. I wake up, all horny, and take a shower. I come out still horny, and get dressed."
"Good," I breathed.