Gina
Gina was always in the background of my summers, although back then she was so small that I thought of her as a little kid, if I thought about her at all.
Small in size, not spirit.
In some ways, Gina was always larger than life.
Take gymnastics. Lots of petite girls dream of being a gymnast. Well, Gina is a gymnast. The serious kind with her own coach and a grueling summer-training schedule that lasts until mid-afternoon six days a week.
Maybe it's all those vaults, Yurchenkos, and handsprings, but Gina has the reflexes of a cat. Nothing intimidates her. She loves a dare, the more dangerous the better.
She was the first to ride a bike off the end of the Lake Association Dock, and leap from the Emerson's roof onto an inflatable camping mattresses. When Frisbees hung up in a tree top, or footballs rolled under a low-slung car, she was the one who went after them.
At 19, she is still barely 5-feet tall. But Gina has developed in other ways. Her hips are round and sensual, her butt a perfect heart shape when she bends over, and Gina has breasts. Not little-girl mounds either, but the kind of pert, ripe breasts that turn heads on a crowded sidewalk.
Not that I noticed. I've been too self-absorbed and despondent over the latest setbacks in my love-life to see that Gina is no longer the neighborhood tomboy. At least, not until she makes me notice.
The beautiful single mom who has been stroking my ego all summer, and every other part of my anatomy, has packed her Volvo, taken Tracey, her angst-ridden daughter, and gone back to Philadelphia.
It was inevitable, but that doesn't make it any less painful.
I am dulling the edge of my hurt with a six-pack of pale ale at the end of the Love Street Lake Association Dock when Gina sits down and dangles her toes in the water without a word.
One thing about Gina that hasn't changed, she's as taciturn as ever. If she isn't going to say anything, given my foul mood, neither am I, although I do pass her my bottle. She takes a sip, hands it back, and follows my gaze to where the moonbeams are dancing on the lake.
We finished three bottles before she finally speaks.
"Gotta pee," she tells me. "Don't look."
Gina stands up and walks a few feet back toward shore. I hear her jeans unzip and slide down her legs, followed by the sound of pee trickling into the water. I want to look, just to see the mechanics of how a girl pisses off a dock on a windy night, but I just continue studying moonbeams.
"Feel better?" I ask when she returns.
"A lot," she replies. "How about you?"
"I don't have to go yet," I tell her.
"No, I mean about Tracey's Mom leaving. You still sad?"
"What about Tracey's Mom?"
I am stunned that Gina knows about Laura Wiggins. I thought we'd been so discrete. Laura and I never went anywhere public together and I always waited until Tracey had gone out or was asleep before slipping through the back door into Laura's bed.
"Tracey told me you and her mom were 'fucking like rabbits all summer.'" Gina wasn't being cheeky, or even judgmental, it was just a statement of fact.
"I guess there are no secrets in Smallville," I say, feeling even more depressed. It's just a question of time until my mom hears about it and demands to know if there is any truth to the "despicable rumors" about Laura Wiggins.
"You miss her a lot, don't you?"
"Yeah, I really do," I confess, and before I know what hits me, I am crying like a baby. A couple minutes pass before I wrestle my emotions under control. I am still sniffling when I notice Gina's arms wrapped around me in a way that feels wonderfully comforting.
We sit like that, Gina holding me with her head resting on my shoulder, for a long time without saying anything more. Finally, the pressure on my bladder becomes overwhelming.
"Don't move," I tell her, standing up and unzipping. "And don't look either." I aim downwind off the leeward side of the dock. It sounds more like a garden hose compared to Gina's dainty trickle.
I sit down and pull her arm back around my shoulder and think about all the Frisbees and footballs that Gina risked broken bones to retrieve. We stay like that in a comfortable silence until the six-pack is gone. Something about being with Gina on the dock as summer winds down feels so right.
"How long have we been hanging in the summers?" I ask.
"Since we were six, when I decided you were more handsome than Justin Timberlake."
"And you reminded me of Avril Levine."
"Liar. Lair." Gina says. "Pants on fire."
"OK, then," I confess. "Maybe not Aril Levine. More like the Emerson's lawn gnome."
"That's cruel," Gina glares.
"Well, I do remember you were the only kid in Love Street that didn't wear a bicycle helmet."
"You remember that?"
"Yeah, and also whenever I got to pick sides at the Ball field, I chose you for shortstop."
"You were my hero," she says without a hint of sarcasm.
After that, Gina and I fall into a long conversation, reminiscing about kids we'd known and things that had happened over the past dozen summers at Love Street. It's also the first time in all those years that we ever said more to each other than, "Hi. How are ya?"
When we reach last summer, the discussion takes an unexpected turn. Every year there is one new hot girl that the guys lust over. Last year it was a blonde from Baltimore named Debbie Miller.
"You know," Gina tells me. "You could have gotten into her pants any time you wanted."
"You're kidding, right?"
"I'm serious. And not just Debbie. Pretty much any of the girls," Gina says. "But Debbie is the who had the most vivid fantasies about you."
"What?" If only I'd known.
"She told me she dreamed that you fucked her in every room of their cottage. Even her parents bedroom."
"Fuck!"
"Exactly," Gina smirks. "Bet you fantasized about her too."
"Yeah," I say guiltily "There were a couple times."
"You ever think about me in that way?" Gina pauses, and looks at me very intently. "When you jerk off?"
"Could be," I equivocate.
"Yeah? Like when?"
"Like after you wore that pink florescent bikini to the Emerson's beach party."
"Honestly?"
"Cross my heart and hope to become impotent if I'm lying."
Gina laughs, then smiles as if I'd just handed her the keys to a new Lexus. "So tell me about it, Stud."
Gina is fascinated with my sexual fantasy about her, which isn't all that surprising. But she also quizzes me in embarrassing, and arousing detail, about when and where and even how I masturbate.
I'm starting to see Gina in a whole new light.
Then, somehow, the conversation drifts back to Laura Wiggins. At first Gina wants to hear salacious details, especially about what it's like to have an affair with a woman whose daughter is our own age. And as I talk about Laura, two strange things happen.
The more Gina presses me for details about Laura, the more I begin to realize that I'm probably not so much in love with Laura Wiggins as I am sexually infatuated. It also begins to dawn on me that Gina isn't asking me all these questions out of morbid curiosity, or so she has the latest juicy gossip to spread around Love Street.
It hits me that the reason Gina's sitting out her on the dock is that she genuinely cares about me. That she knows I'm hurting and is trying to help me through it.
"Gina," I say, looking into her eyes and, for the first time, seeing a deep reservoir of sympathy and affection behind her tough-guy facade. "You came out here on purpose, didn't you?"
"Sure," she says with a shy smile. "I wanted to share a six-pack of your shitty beer."
I laugh. "Seriously, how'd you know?"
"That Laura Wiggins broke your heart?"
"It's that obvious?"