This story is based on a real Domme and a real subbie, and it is dedicated to the actual people who inspired it.
It was thirty years ago. 1990. I was thirty-seven years old, in my sixth year of teaching at a prestigious public suburban high school. It was a cush gig. Not only was it a high performing school with a well-prepped and malleable student population, I was teaching in the International Baccalaureate Program, a prestigious track which tended to attract the academic stars. I taught a most engaging course, Theory of Knowledge, to seniors. Like I said, in the teaching profession this was a great gig.
In my class in this memorable year was a female student, Amanda. She was a ridiculously sexy young woman. Svelte. Great legs. Short skirts. Thin limbs. Flawless complexion. I was still a relatively young, single, horny heterosexual male who loved women. I had quite a few girlfriends, at least to a casual observer, and was apparently living a successful and engaging life. One complication for me was that when it came to sexual relations, I had a strong but repressed submissive streak.
For as long as I could remember, I had this thing, this fantasy, this desire to be bossed around, controlled and dominated by a female, both in and out of the bedroom but especially within her boudoir's walls. That made dating problematic, at least in the long term. By the time a lady friend and I would start to click, to reveal my sexual predilections was more often than not a deal killer. It is not a wildly popular fetish among women, I learned. So, I tended to repress and keep private those desires. It rendered my female relationships more superficial than I'd have liked. And I had more "I see you as a brother" kind of affairs than I'd care to admit.
Amanda was an exceptionally bright student. Sharp as the proverbial tack. She was somewhat aloof from her peers but seemed perfectly comfortable in that skin. Her comportment suggested that she'd cultivated a good deal of self-assurance out there in the real world, beyond the academic walls. One outlet within school that we were all aware of was her fondness for basketball and track. She was competent, if not gifted, on the court. But boy could she run.
In my teaching position, it wasn't so unusual for an occasional female student to develop a crush on me. After all, I was not an old man by any stretch and still maintained my lean, boyish physique. And I probably came across to some impressionable youngsters as wise, charming and handsome. To be clear, I'd always been resolute in quashing any such girlish infatuations.
But Amanda was different. She had this penetrating, subtle, all-knowing gaze that I was quite sure she purposely directed at me. My intuition told me that somehow, some way, she knew who/what I was -- a submissive at heart. That same intuition told me that she was a bossy young woman who expected to be in charge of the men in her life. With those gut feeling churning, I struggled to quell my imagination, suspicions that she was toying with me, as a Mistress might manipulate a slave.
It was terribly difficult for me to suppress my attraction. It bordered on an obsession. In my fantasy world she was saying to me, "I know who you are. I know what you are. Though O/our roles here are teacher/student, they are actually Queen/servant, Mistress/slave, Domme/sub. You know it as well as I."
In the privacy of my thoughts she became the object of some powerful fantasies. And in our actual interactions, whenever she foisted on me that incisive gaze, it was always I who broke the eye contact and averted her scrutinizing glare. She'd never blink first, so to speak. She was, disturbingly, calling the shots with all nonverbal communication, not I. The traditional educational roles of superior / subordinate were on thin ice. I often wondered if she knew how dangerously close I felt to breaking through into icy waters.
And then, one day in class while taking a bubble scan test, she scribbled something on her answer sheet. As I walked up and down the rows she pointed to it, without making any eye contact. "Sharpen my pencil for me...NOW!" I read it and walked on, pretending to be oblivious. But I was highly aroused.
Holy shit! I wasn't imagining. She knew! I couldn't swallow and my breath quickened. I was frightened yet turned on that this young vixen knew that such a communication would push all my libidinous buttons, would ignite a passionate fire in me. I glanced back at her. With a stern visage, she glared directly into my eyes. She mouthed, unmistakably, a single word, "NOW!" with dead seriousness.
That command rendered me rubbery-legged. I was torn. I wanted to ignore her but I couldn't. I was like a moth drawn to a flame. I returned to her desk, as though I was making the rounds routinely. I picked up the pencil from the corner of her desk, walked to the sharpener and began cranking it. I pulled the pencil out. It was sharper but the cut was uneven. I thought to myself, Amanda expects it to be perfect. And perfect it would be. An irrepressible erection grew in my pants. This was a problem as it could possibly be noticeable through my slacks. I continued sharpening until the pencil point was fine and the circumference at which the raw wood met the yellow-painted wood was symmetrical. Nervously, before turning to the class, I untucked my shirt to cover my excitement. I looked at her and she directed at me that gaze again. She actually toggled her eyes between my eyes and my crotch. Though mortified, I shuffled as nonchalantly as possible past her desk and dropped off the precisely and conscientiously sharpened pencil. No one else seemed to have noticed the odd interaction. And for the rest of class I intentionally avoided any further eye contact with Amanda.
When running the scantrons later in the day, I purposely studied hers. There it was, "Sharpen my pencil for me. NOW!" And then something that was added later. "Good boy!"
It's all I could think about for days. Whether dozing off to sleep, prepping for my next class, shopping, eating, exercising -- it didn't matter -- images of her issuing me that order, surreptitiously, in a public setting, and my complete compliance and subsequent arousal rose to the fore. "NOW!" she demanded in writing and then repeated by mouthing it. And then complimenting me on carrying out her order, condescendingly, as though I were her pet. "Good boy," indeed.
I was embarrassed. I was also excited beyond description. And I was nervous. Nervous about crossing into territory that ruins one's career. Teacher / student relations were strictly verboten, by tradition, mores and statutes. I'd stop. I'd never let anything like that happen again. I was determined.
A few days later, before exiting the room (she was nearly always the last one to leave), she dropped a short stack of three books on my desk without a word. Curious. I looked. There was a piece of paper protruding visibly from inside the cover of one. I pulled it out, unfolded it and read. "These are overdue. Return them and pay the fine." I'm thinking What the fuck! Who does she think she is? That presumptuous little tart! I stared at the books the rest of the day as classes came and went. As I prepared to leave at the end of the day, I stood behind my desk in the empty classroom, ready to depart. But I was frozen. I just stood there, staring at the stack of books. My conscience said just forget about them. Leave them right where they are. Throw away the note, leave the books as they stand and forget about them. She'll pick them up when she sees I have no intention of carrying out her ridiculous command.
Another part of me suggested I leave the books there but write a return note. Something like, "You are rude and presumptuous. I have no intention of playing these sorts of games with you. Please knock it off!"
I ran through these scenarios again and again. In my mind I rewrote the note I'd leave her several times. I looked at the clock. I'd been there a full ten minutes, frozen in place. Inexplicably, I grabbed the books and headed directly to the school library. I conjured up some excuse about the tardiness being my fault. Our librarian thought little of it, or at least seemed to be satisfied with my explanation and pivoted on to more important matters, like the latest gossip about the school's principal. I paid the fine.