The next few days seemed to blend together for Emma; it didn't matter whether it was night or day, hot or cold...she remained in the barn, curled up in the hay, trying to sleep as much as she possibly could. Whenever she was awake, her mind was troubled by a whole cacophony of memories that all clanged and clashed against each other in her brain, making it difficult to reason anything out. When she did try to focus on specific events, she either became terribly scared and remorseful, like when she remembered the vague image of ambulances dashing away into the dark, or vituperatively hurt and angry, like when she remembered how all those cops had shot at her...at her FACE...or when Daisy had opened her arms to Daniel as he staggered away from Emma...the two of them fleeing off into the night, to the house...away from her, clutching each other.
It was all too painful for Emma to seriously contemplate, and whenever she tried, her head quickly began to hurt so badly that she quickly gave up.
'I can't do it,' she thought despondently. 'I can't think about it...ANY of it. I have no idea...no idea what's going on.'
The bullets the police had shot at her hadn't done any permanent damage, even the one that had nicked close to her eye. However, over the next day or two, the little pockmarks where the bullets had hit developed into an itchy rash, which partially spanned over the side of her right cheek and then down a little onto her neck. Emma tried to resist scratching it, but whenever it itched particularly badly, she just couldn't help herself. Whenever she remembered that it was all because the police had shot bullets at her face, her mood soured, and she stewed in the anger that was once again beginning to encroach on her mind.
It didn't help that she had become twice as hungry as she already had been before. Her massive growth spurt earlier in the week had created a permanent "new normal" as far as her diet was concerned. She was so much bigger than she had been before, and her body correspondingly required more food. Her father had started leaving food at the barn entrance. On the first day after the police had come, he had tried to engage her in conversation, but Emma had turned away from him, lying in the fetal position, showing him the huge expanse of her back.
"Just...just thought I'd, uhh...let you know, Em that, uh...that the cops in the hospital are...are all, uhhh..."
"What?" asked Emma in a hollow voice, staring at the opposite wall of the barn. "They're all what, dad?" She felt oddly prepared to hear that they were all dead, and she had no idea how she felt about it. She felt like she would either be consumed by remorse, or would simply shrug and not feel a thing...it was a strange and unsettling place to be, mentally.
"They're all...doing ok," Jim said, stepping slightly around the dozens of bags of food as he tried to get a better look at Emma. Even though he was her father, and loved her dearly, he didn't dare go into the barn. He and the rest of the family understood it as "her territory" at this point, and none of them knew how she would react if they came too close.
"A few are still in the ICU...but, uh...none of them have...have..."
"Died?" asked Emma in that same hollow voice.
"Yeah...they're all...still alive," said Jim. He was about to mention how a few of them, particularly the one Emma had swiped into the barn wall, had almost died, and would likely be handicapped for life, but his daughter's voice sounded strange, and it sent chills down his spine. He decided to leave those details out.
Emma knew that he expected her to show some kind of reaction to this, but even the thought of this expectation annoyed her. She had no reaction. She felt nothing. And come to think of it, she just wanted to be alone. Jim could sense Emma's feelings, and he pushed the bags a little closer to the entrance.
"Just, uhh...ok, ok, got your, uh...food here," he said with uncharacteristic hesitancy and awkwardness. He started back in surprise and fear as Emma abruptly turned around in her lying position. Such a sudden movement from a 21-foot-tall giantess would have been enough to startle anyone, especially someone who had seen what Jim had seen the previous night.
Emma had seen her father's scared reaction, and she couldn't avoid a dark, mocking grin. Of course he was going to stagger back like that, the terrified little man. He was so tiny that of COURSE he couldn't see that she was just lying there, minding her own business...any movement he made would totally freak him out.
'Typical,' she thought mockingly, shaking her head. 'Typical tiny-person reaction...god I'm getting sick of it...so sick of it it's actually getting funny.'
"S-sorry Em, you just...d-don't scare me like that!" exclaimed Jim indignantly, obviously shaken as he continued stepping back with his hands held up.
"Psssh, you're ridiculous dad," Emma murmured, propping her head up on her arm. Even in this position, she was taller than him by a good foot or so. Her eyes fell on the bags of food, burlap bags, 16 in all.
'That's not even close to enough,' she thought immediately. 'I'll eat it in ten minutes, and it won't even dent my appetite.'