I've noticed him all evening, his long fingers wrapped around the neck of a beer bottle, his honey blond hair falling into his pale blue eyes. We're at a party, this boy and I, and I take a long sip of my beer then lean over and whisper in my best friend Marcia's ear, "Is it true what they say about him, that he's a virgin?"
Marcia smiles slyly, answers, "Amy, dear, I don't know if I should tell you. I wouldn't want you to corrupt him with your sinful ways."
I open my green eyes wide, trying for a look of pure innocence. "Who, me, a corrupting influence? I would never . . ."
Marcia runs a soft fingertip down my cheek, "Love, I know firsthand just how bad you can be."
I move my hand to the small of her back, rub in tight little circles the way I know she prefers. I touch skin, as I had told Marcia to wear a tight two piece outfit with a short top, and she never disobeys. Her skin goose pimples underneath my fingertips and I hear her breath catch. "Your first time was with me. Any regrets?"
She leans over, whispers in my ear with a hot puff of breath. "Absolutely none." I inhale her fragrance, the one I had chosen for her, and feel a rush of wetness between my legs. But, Marcia I will save for later. I desire something more innocent tonight.
I smile, my eyes sliding back to the blond haired boy Jordan whom we are discussing. He pushes his hair back from his eyes, flirts with the adorable girl standing next to him. I like watching him flirt; he is very tentative and unsure, and I enjoy his blush as she caresses his arm. I, too, want to inspire such a fiery reaction.
Marcia whispers again, "Promise you'll be gentle with him?"
Curling my fingers around the cold wetness of the beer bottle, I answer "I am always gentle . . . if that is what is desired."
Marcia puts her finger on my chin, tilts my head toward her. "Yes, you can be so gentle it hurts. I love that about you. Yes, Amy, he's a virgin and I want you to have him. Go." She releases her hold on my chin, and I leave her, slowly weaving my way toward the innocence of Jordan.
I hear a loud voice rise above the noise, and I recognize it. It belongs to the host of the party, a man I had slept with on one occasion. I glance over, find him looking at me significantly. He says to the room in general, maintaining eye contact with me as he speaks, "I would like to play an old fashioned game tonight. Anyone care for a bit of spin the bottle?"
Everyone in the room agrees readily, and I say nothing. I had stopped to listen to his announcement, had not reached my goal of Jordan, and felt a bit annoyed at the interruption of my quest.
I call out, "And what would be the result of this game? A chaste kiss? Or more . . .?"
The host of the party looks me up and down, nods his head, and answers, "I think the result will be spending the night alone with your partner in a bedroom upstairs; no opening the door until daylight."
I suddenly realize the significance of his look. He wants me in a room alone for the night. I smile, knowing that will not happen. This particular man is not what I desire, and was actually quite a disappointment the first and last time we were together. He lacks creativity, sensuality, generosity, which I require of all my lovers. I nod as he tilts the last swallow of beer into his mouth, watch as his throat undulates as he swallows.
I work my way a bit closer to Jordan, nod my head in agreement. If I'm to go upstairs with anyone, it will be with Jordan. The host places his empty bottle in the middle of the room, starts it spinning, and says, "Amy, would you like the first spin?"