"I want you to be my first."
Those words set off a loud roaring in my ears and, if anything, the erection that had been straining against the material of my running shorts was now threatening to free itself from its restrain.
I stood there, unable to speak, as I felt my heart ready to explode out of my chest. In front of my stood the most beautiful woman I had ever seen --- no, a beautiful goddess, who was 'sky clad', I think they would say in Ancient Greece. Kelly finally looked up into my eyes, and I saw a number of emotions flashing across her face, including trepidation. But I also saw desire, yearning...and trust. And it was that last emotion that finally brought me back to my senses.
With a certain amount of regret, I pushed Kelly away. "Kelly, listen, I..."
Kelly stopped me cold. There was almost an accusatory edge to her voice. "You're about to say that what we did was a mistake." She stared in my eyes unflinchingly. I had to look down now.
"No, I wasn't going to say that," I hedged. "What I was trying to say---"
"Let's get one thing clear, Steven. It wasn't a mistake. I liked how you made me feel. I've always liked how you made me feel." Shaking her hands in frustration, Kelly continued. "You've always been the one who made me feel safe, made me know that there was always a patch of solid ground that I could stand on. When those four --- well, when they had me pinned down, I knew you were going to rescue me. I knew it!" The look of trust and certainty in Kelly's eyes as she said that overwhelmed me. Kelly seemed to suddenly realize that she was giving me this speech without a stitch of clothing on her body. Looking embarrassed and shy, she added, "And I like the feeling I get when I think about how you will be the only man who ever sees me like this."
That last sentence really unnerved me, and it made me realize that I had to proceed cautiously. Taking a deep breath, I began with, "Kelly, we have feelings for each other. Feelings for friendship. Maybe even more than friendship." I originally said that last sentence to mollify Kelly and try to defuse the situation I had created, but a small part of my brain was arguing that maybe I had been hiding these 'more-than-friendship' feelings for Kelly even from myself. I quickly suppressed that argument. I was in enough trouble as it was.
"But if we do have these feelings, maybe we should go a little slower than we've been going tonight. Don't you think?" I asked hopefully.
Kelly bit her lip as she looked like she wanted to argue further, but then she finally nodded. "Okay, but tonight wasn't a mistake. And I'm not going to change my mind. I still want you to be my first." Kelly looked me straight in the eye as she added, "And only."