--// Hi I'm Kate. I hope you don't mind the slightly less literary format and whatnot. Originally was written as just a blog/journal entry. Hope you enjoy!
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When I was 18, during my last year of high school, we got a young substitute teacher, he was like in his 20s, of course older than me and my friends but still younger than most other teachers by a mile. I was always believed to be pretty in school but only just starting to grasp the whole make up and being girly thing instead of a tomboy.
Anyway, in my school you had some clubs activities and some even did stuff over summer, I was in one of those. It was like all-in-one, singing, dancing, playing instruments - I guess due to lack of members they just bunched everything together - and even after graduation we were practicing for a school concert of sorts. I was gonna sing a k-pop song in English and rap too, haha. But that's a whole other story. Most of it was just done out of interest by all the students but we did have other teachers and whatnot also participating, as some of them were working over the summer.
So I was going to the practice once or twice a week, not many people were around but that young teacher was there all the time. Apparently he was in charge of some nerd club where they were making a video game with all the nerd kids or something. I chatted with him about random things whenever I ran into him, and they seem to be staying late doing their club stuff, so I became more and more curious until I finally stopped by after our practice was over.
It was basically a gaming cafe inside a school. They just played a bunch of games together and occasionally the teach would explain how things worked in a game, there was 5 other male students, by comparison our group was like 20, and mostly girls.
I wasn't too impressed with it honestly, and didn't know what I expected. Was about to leave as I dropped my notepad on the floor and quickly bent over to pick it up, then heard a whistle and laughter from the nerds, as I realize they stared at my butt, although I was just wearing jeans, nothing crazy revealing.
I mean it was embarrassing but there were worse things happening at school. However, the teacher stopped me and said to the whole class, "What was that? Everybody apologize to Kate," as I was standing there awkwardly. They slowly murmured an apology, and the teacher made sure everyone said it.
Now, I didn't think I had strong daddy issues or something, I don't know what it was really, maybe the fact that other teachers can watch some kid being bullied and just carry on, but I fell for this guy, hard. I was walking home pretty much only thinking about how cool he was, even his stupid glasses started to seem sexy.
From then on I was pretty much always stopping by their club. I was playing games quite a bit before, tho never on a computer, mostly on Playstation. And my laptop wasn't running anything. All those multi-player and online games we played were getting me addicted. Often times we'd stay there till 6pm at which point they were closing up the school, but mr. SexyGlasses had keys since he was running the club.
My parents were usually chill about things but one day I stayed playing till like 9pm and my phone was exploding with calls and messages from my mom. I was also the last one there with the teacher and obviously he figured that it's getting way too late to keep a student at school, so he said "Ok, that's enough for today, I'll drive you home."
I wasn't really scared of my parents scolding me or anything, I mean I was old enough to be out at this point, I guess I probably would get yelled at but I was nearly a perfect student throughout school so what could they really say?
But mr. HotNerd said he'd like to speak with my parents, and I was getting a bit nervous about him telling my parents that I was playing video games most of the day and not the practice stuff I told them I went to.
We got in his car and he drove me home. I think this was also my first memory of somebody driving me other than my dad or some family member. As I sat there with the belt pressing against my boobs, thinking that this is how a grown-up's date must feel like.
We got out at my house and he walked me to the door, ringing. My parents came and had a lengthy conversation with mr. SchoolGirl'sDream, in hindsight I guess he might have sorted it out so he won't get in trouble himself, but to me it felt like he was doing it for me.
He basically told my parents that he was a new teacher at my school and that I was late because I stayed after practice helping clean some stuff up and help around, being a good girl basically, which saved me from any possible scolding.
I don't know what impressed me more, that he just came up with that, or that he was so convincing and charming my parents wanted him to stay for dinner - he declined.
This pretty much put the last nail in my crush coffin. I couldn't sleep for shit, I couldn't take a bath or shower without fantasizing about this fucking guy giving me private lessons, or asking me to come wash his car in some skimpy clothes, or telling me to stay after classes to talk about my bad test results, and so on. My panties were in a perpetual state of wetness, I only hoped mom wouldn't notice how suddenly the laundry piled up so much with half of it being my underwear.
I messaged some of the nerds to ask on which other days they had their gaming club stuff, so I could come too, even though it wouldn't even be a day for my club's practice.
I was staying late there almost every time I went, and he was personally driving me home every time, although not talking to my parents again, just dropping me off.
At one point I said I was hungry and asked if he would take me out for dinner, but he just got us some fast food from a drive-through. In hindsight, now I realize, it might have been a bit weird, especially for him being a teacher, to be seen with a teen girl in a restaurant at night, but at that time I had no grasp on the whole pedo/underage thing and how people looked at it.
I started reading about sex and bullshit sex tips on the internet. Watching porn a lot more, thinking whether mr.Kate'sFutureHusband had a circumcised cock, and if my virgin ass can even handle a cock to begin with. I didn't dare talk to any of my friends about it. I suppose the nerds from the game club could have been spreading rumors cause I was staying there even later than them, but I became kind of friends with them too, so I wasn't too worried. Just a girl trying to figure out how I can get lewd with my teacher...
And then one of my friends gave me an idea. She was honestly the most annoying friend I ever had, pretentious and full of herself, thinking she had pornstar years of experience.
We were randomly talking about guys, and she told me to go watch a scary movie with my date, cling to him whenever there is something creepy on the screen.
