This is the conclusion from Part 1...
As soon as the call ends, I know I only have two options. Either I go through with this and head over to meet Ashley at my office, or I have to call her back and let her know immediately, that what happened 30 seconds ago was a mistake. There's no doubt I'm full-on panicking over having to make this decision, and the lack of any time to think it over is only making my anxiety even worse.
So I do the only thing I can think of, and I start walking back towards my house with our dog. I'm trying to debate within my head about what to do, but as the seconds start turning into minutes, it's clear that either consciously or subconsciously, all I'm doing is running out the clock on myself. No matter how much I know it's the right thing to do, I can't seem to muster up the courage to call Ashley back and call our meetup off. I guess deep down I want to go through with it so badly, that I'm perfectly willing to overlook all the immoral aspects and potential consequences that come with it.
I take maybe 5 minutes to get back to my house, and by this time I'm pretty much fully committed to meeting up with my son's girlfriend. I tell myself that Ashley is probably already in her car, and I might not be able to get ahold of her in time anyway, so I really have no choice but to go and meet her there. It's crazy how despite obviously being the only one inside my head, I still feel the need to lie to myself. Sometimes I'm just shockingly pathetic.
So as I walk in the door, I do my best to act casual and I let my wife, Andrea, know that something has come up, and I need to grab some paperwork from the office. It's not unheard of for me to do something like that, so it's about as easy a cover story as I could've ever expected to have. She doesn't bat and eye, and I head out and get into my car. As I start driving, I'm feeling a pretty 50/50 mix of excitement and guilt. At one point, I verbally say out loud, "Am I really doing this?"
I follow that by screaming "Fuck!" at myself, at which point I can't help but notice that while I'm driving, I'm rocking a full-on erection. There's no doubt what my body wants in this situation, and it's a chance to give Trent's 18-year-old girlfriend her first ever orgasm. Oh fuck, and now I start thinking about Ashley and her sweet, adorable, body. I think about how she's been trying desperately to masturbate, but flat out told me she needs my help. And then of course there's the elephant in the room, the question of whether she'll end up squirting all over the place, if and when she finally cums. My mind is racing, and I think about how this is about to be real life, and it's not just some perverted fantasy. At one point, I look down at my speedometer and notice I'm going 60 on a 35 mph road, and I realize it's not just my mind that is out of control. But as I continue speeding towards my first adulterous encounter of my life, I can feel the pendulum of my emotions noticeably swinging away from guilt, and towards unbridled excitement. I want this. I want her. No matter what the consequences are, it'll be worth it.
As I pull into the parking lot of my office, I see there's already a car there, and it's still running. And sure enough, it's Ashley's blue Corolla. Holy shit, she's here. For some reason I decide to park on the other side of the parking lot, but as I get out and start walking towards both her car and the entrance of my office, I see her driver's side door open and out she gets. She actually looks a little nervous, which I guess I wasn't expecting, considering she was the one who suggested this all. But then I remember how young and innocent she is, and I realize it'd be crazy for her not to be nervous about this as well. As I approach her, she looks up at me from behind her cute glasses and gives a small wave, but doesn't say anything. I simply say, "We should head inside." And then I proceed to unlock the door and let us in.
As we enter into the waiting room of the office, there's kind of an awkward pause of, what's next? So before I've even asked her how's she doing or what she's expecting, I take the initiative and say, "We should probably head back to the examination room, if that's ok."
"Yeah, ok." She says, and with that I lead her back through the office. I turn on a bare minimum of lighting, so it won't be obvious to passerbys that anyone is inside. As we get into the exam room though, I close the door behind us and turn on all the normal lighting, as it's an interior room and doesn't have any windows. At that point, the gravity of the moment kind of hits me and I start to process the fact that the two of us are completely alone in here.
Now that we're out of sight, I finally check in with her. "Ashley, how're you doing? Are you ok? Sorry if I rushed us in here."
"Oh it's fine. I'm fine." She says.
"Ok, good." I respond. And then there's probably a 5 to 10 second pause where neither one of us says anything, but we're both clearly staring at each other. I'm so curious to know what's going on in her mind. Is she excited? Is she already regretting coming here? I have no idea what she might be thinking, so I figure I might as well ask.
"I just wanna make sure we're on the same page here, so do you mind telling me exactly what you're hoping we'd do?"
I kind of put her on the spot by asking this, but I also didn't want to risk some scenario where I'm assuming she wants more than she actually does. That would probably be the biggest disaster of all, and I need to rule that possibility out.
"Ok." She says. And then she pauses for a few seconds before quietly explaining, "If you wanted to, I was hoping you could help give me an orgasm, and then you'd be here in case anything went wrong." Clearly referring to her ejactulating as the thing that might 'go wrong'. Little did she realize how badly I'm hoping she ends up squirting all over my office, and in my mind that's the exact opposite of something going wrong.
As she finishes, I can't help but take a deep breath. And then I say, "Yeah, I'd love to do that." I then take my hand and gently run my fingers on the top of her head and down through the length of her hair. It's the first time I've ever touched her in a sensual way, but I wanted to give her an actual sign that I was ok with this being more than a medical relationship. And as my hand finishes going through her hair, and continues on over her shoulder and down her arm, she subtly repositions her own hand and grabs mine with hers. So now we're holding hands roughly 2 feet apart from each other, and I feel such a strong physical attraction to this girl, it's almost overwhelming.
"Do you want to get undressed?" I ask, as my heart is pounding.